Busy bee

I can't remember my last post,
Was it pre-exams or post exams?

Well things that have happened is:
I got a job, it's ok, the pay is ok, I'm working heaps
And weekends so that's more money
Which is good.

I got my birthday party, not as many people as I expected showed up
But it was alright and everyone wouldn't have fit in the room
So maybe that was a good thing. I had the treasure hunt
And I found it fun but I already knew where all the clues were
So it wasn't as fun
So now I'm going to make someone else make a treasure hunt for their party.
There were heaps of food and my piñata worked properly
And less trouble hanging it up unlike last time,
It took my friend and I forever to hang the string over the wood peice
It was higher than expected and the piñata I bought was cheapo
So it kinda fell apart early, so that didn't work out.
The food was good and even though I had catered for 40
At least I think so, most of the food was gone,
Which is good, I don't like leftovers that much.
I made a bunch of sushi, like 18 big rolls
And it was all gone. I think I tired everyone out with the treasure hunt
As it was hot and some the clues were hard to find.

Well that's all for now,
I need to remember perfume stuff to work
So I can actually help the customers =]


Love squealer

Written in the Stars

credits to http://sugarock99.deviantart.com/art/High-Tea-124437871
Oh dear she's drinking pool water
but she doesn't look wet.

YAY, i feel so relieved.
no more exams and no more studying at least
until uni but that's ages away.

well after chem exam,
we didn't really do much we spent an hour at melb.central food court watching mtv partly
because the tv was on that channel
and partly because the shows are really lame and weird. "Sex...With Mum and Dad"????? where the kid talk about sex with parents and the camera films it, that was pretty stupid i don't know who came up with that.
the only reason we were at the food court was
because our friends said they were coming and never showed up until an hour later.
so then we went to borders to look around and then sat around on the couches.
i really wanted to do something i suggested to go to crown put money in the slots and then run away but one of friends is not yet 18 and apparently you're not allowed to wear thongs which my other friends were wearing.
so i decided to find a hidden resturant and eat so we walk around in the city to find it but it turns out most of them were closed
(it was around 3, so the staff were having their lunches)
so we walk a whole circle and then ended up back near melb.central we ate at 'yourthai' and the food was pretty good and i was full and then we went home which then i went to spotlight
but there was no sales so i went into dfo for 20mins,
and managed to buy a dress and vest,
nothing fantastic i was hoping to do some more intense shopping in the holidays.


well now i have to make invitations for my party which i really can't be stuffed doing so maybe i'll just print them out on the heaps of paper that i bought off my friends because i have no idea what to do with them.
Well if you guys have any ideas about my party, give me a heads up or comment. i'm not that great at parties.
i want a tea garden theme with pretty florals and springy setting,
but i also want a jumping castle as well because jumping castles are really fun, very bouncy.
i've got all the food prepared so that's ok, just need activities.


yesterday i went to highpoint to hand out resumes,
we ran out of paper at home so i only had four resumes to hand one i had to print double sided so hopefully that doesn't reflect too unprofessional i guess they could see that i'm environmentally friendly which is always a plus. i'm excited because i got a lead on a job at 'my chemist'
the thing she said she will call one of my references,
but i kinda didn't notify that person that she was going to be my reference and i'm hoping that she will remember me otherwise i will look really bad.
well i can say that i made the reference a long time ago and a bunch of other excuses,
but i'm really hoping for this job because i rather work in a pharmacy than in a clothing store.
she said she'll call me on monday morning so hopefully i get the job or at least an interview.
which reminds me how bad i'll be at interviews,
i'm not a debater and i can't say instantly witty things ro be funny under pressure.
but yeah, i'm really hoping i do get a job,
i just need money right now considering i plan on buying heaps of things and i've got buy a lot of birthday presents as well.



Well that's all for now,
have fun in whatever you guys are doing.


Love Squealer.

Liposuction kills, stay fat

Hello
Methods exam today
It was alright, no graphs!
Yay, whenever there's graph I spent half my time drawing it
Because it always looks dodgy and so being a perfectionist
I rub it out like so many times.
Although it might mean that exam 2 would have heaps of graphs.
Yeah nothing else happened today
I went to the lolly store and I haven't been there for a while
It was good, I finally bought the allens racing cars
Which I deceptivelly always thought was expensive
So I got home and counted how many pieces there were
And there were about 80 whichis about the same price as he milkbar
The place which I thought was cheap
I used to buy heaps of lollies from the milkbar
Until I moved about five years ago
Anyways the prices at the milkbar used to be 5cents a piece
And I thought that was cheap but the lollies are the same price.
Yes I like my lollies and am obsessed with the numbers.
So yeah I still need to find a place that sells cheap heartbeats lollies
The lolly store at essendon used to sell them but they stopped
Also they lied because they told me that they were going to restock it


But they never did. So now I have to find a place that sells 5 cents heartbeats.
The thing with buying too much lollies and only eat a part of it
And give the rest away or I eat the good parts
And then give the rest away.
Does anyone like lollies like me?
Also the pineapple lollies were cheaper than the racing cars
I don't know why
But I don't buy allens brand pineapples because the cheaper brand tastes the same

Anywho three exams left! So close....


Love squealer

A girl can dream

I've been in and out of studying today
I just not in the mood for it
I studying for half an hour and take a nap
Then come back to studying and find myself staring at the page
Not good considering I've still got exams.

I've been really into reading blogs and stalking people lately
There are so many amazing blogs
Which make my blog seem insignificant
Which I guess it kinda is but I like it nonetheless.
So many people have such a good fashion sense
And such cool clothes, my wardrobe isn't that great
Just a mash of clothes, so i'm going to try to find a fashion sense
As my friend would say.
I also blame my stingy asianess because I don't buy anything that's way expensive
Like over $10 even $5 seems like lot,
I mean I do have clothes over that amount but very few.
I can't wait to go op shopping, I want to buy a heap of clothes and books
And I want to redo my entire room
Because it's quite cluttered and juvenile
I want to redecorate my small room into those white vintage-esqe study rooms
Actually I don't know If I would need it
Hopefully I'll be studying in bendigo next year
Not my first perference but it's the only place with dentistry undergrad
I think the only thing getting me through this
Is that there is a spotlight in bendigo.

I feel gross now so off to shower.

Love squealer

kicking and screaming

Credit to http://fuckyeahamazing.tumblr.com/page/14

ok i know that i'm too academically orientated
but that is so true.
i'm going to miss the MGHS class of 09,
because they let me be who i want to be
and made me the person that i am now.
actually i'm going to miss highschool in general,
the future's looking scarier and scarier,
considering, well something.
(i won't go into details)

it's been a while since i've blogged on a computer.
well the two hardest subjects are over...
wonder what the next couple will be like...
i didn't feel like studying after the exam
not that i felt bad or anything
i'm happy with how i handled it
and fingers crossed, everything will fall into place.


i went into school early to study a bit
but that didn't really happen.
i spent the time talking with friends
basically doing nothing, as usual.
the year 10s were having their exams
and because it was quiet
(duh! it was exams,
i can't believe that didn't cross my mind)
i walked through the corridor and got told off by a teacher, sif, i've graduated,i'm a high school graduate
no-one tells me what do to...


oh and i feel so bad i forgotten a friend's bday
i knew it was her birthday but because of english
i totally forgot!
i was going to facebook her, but then it was already after 12. darn.

i'm just marvelling at the amount of time
i spend watching gilmore girls and other tv shows
more than i did in my younger years
which doesn't make sense,
i think macrob has me made a tad lazy,
well very lazy.

sometimes i wish i wasn't so self conscious
that i would be able to wear that orange cardigan
without feeling everyone looking at me
(i don't mind at school,
because you could wear anything and not be judged,
i hope or at least i like to think that,
i think its true nonetheless)
I love that orange cardigan
but now it's getting so warm
which has made it redundant
so i'll wait until next year
which means i'll be that childish dentistry(hopefully) student
who still likes high school musical or hannah montana
(don't know how long the fetish will last).
i shall post a photo of me in the cardigan
seroiusly it's so cool!
it's so bright.


My friend said something funny:
"I can walk into a bar"
well it is funny with the context
which i cbs explaining.


Credit to http://gluttonyisabliss.com/
Look at the awesome colours
it's like hyperactive and high
maybe i should make for my fabolous party.
can't wait to start baking again
although my cakes were never that great
it was fun!



Love Squealer.

Indifference with a tinge of bright orange

Hey guys
Now that the English exam is over, I don't feel relieved as I thought I would
Now the thing that is bugging is my result and how I went
Personally I don't think I did to well but I don't want to jinx It
Right now I'm trying to convince myself that getting below my wanted enter is okay.
Why does one subject generate so much fear?
I know this seems so redundant compared to other things in the world
But being in the type of environment that I was brought up on
It's partially not my fault.
I just gotta look forward now what's done is done and there's nothing I can do.
At least spesh wasn't that hard like last years.

Just lookin forward to methods
Something that I can so relatively comfortably
I like having defitie answers and working with numbers
It just clicks.
I was sitting inbetween two smart people so hopefully their smartness aurea helped me =]
Well gotta get back to miserable studying
And work my butt for next couple of exams
To make up for my English.

Sorry about such a school related post
Right now that's all that matters to me.
I know it shouldn't be but I can't help.
Maybe I'll grow in the future as a perso. Not height wise
Well I wouldn't mind being taller.


Love squealer

Your mouth has a nose?

Sorry no pictures, I can't add any on my iPod touch.
I'll promise to double next time.

Hey guyss
Having trouble sleeping
And currently internally freaking out about English exam
Hoping that I will somehow ace it.
Weekend has been pretty much intense studying
And me studying for long periods time gets really boring
So I end taking extra long naps when I should be writing essays.


Nothing much happened
My life will get exciting soon
After all the exams are over
I get to plan my eigthteenth, which I am forcing everyone to come.
I'm so excited
There's just so much that I want to do .


I'm also gonna miss school heaps
Where else would I get to see my dearest friends everyday.
I see withdrawal symptoms in the future.


That is all.

Love always squealer.

One Moment in Time

Hey guys!
Did you miss me?
Probably not.

Well the past couple of weeks have been hectic,
trying to organise five presents for teachers was a bad bad idea and create a lot of stress on my behalf.
i don't know what to buy my friends let alone my teachers.
i was so stressed that i comtemplated wagging physics,
but luckily i didn't and went shopping during periods 3 and 4. (So now i'm proud to annouce that i've only miss 8 classes the whole year, one day for badminton and apparently 2 for UMAT??)
And and i got to buy alcohol for the first and me+wine=confusion,
seriously there was a plethora of wine on the shelves,
my friend had asked my me to buy some wine as i wasn't in uniform.
i just asked for helped and nodded at everything the guy said, he could of been selling me the grossest wine for i know.
i hope not though, it was for a teacher.

so yeah back to stress,
i've been finding it hard to write essays now,
but during swotvac i plan to engulf myself in english to get that 41+ that i want.

RECAP:
Old School Uniform:
I unfortunately didn't have my uniform and felt sad that everyone had their's. I've been so busy that i didn't really have time just to sit down and hang with friends. well nothing much happened that day.

Reinvention of School Uniform:
I made my dress into a kinda disney princess thing with a massive bow at the back, which i love well partly because i made it as well. This day we were all in fear that yr12 assembly was going to be cancelled because of the numerous vandalisms at school, which i know that it (hopefully) wasn't us. Everyone was dress signing and it was sad. i want to save my dress for later reading.

Valedictory:
It was a fun night, but i was sad because our school doesn't wear the graduation robes like my old school (which is the one thing i envy about my old school, that and that fact that it was close to home). I said my speech but it was pretty crap compared to the others, sorry guys, i didn't put much effort into the speech, well at least i squeal and go high pitchy. I graduated guys! Are you proud of me?

Celebration Day:
In the morning, i bought so much chocolate for my form teacher. I DRESSED UP AS HANNAH MONTANA. highlight of my life! i was sad because T and J wasn't there and couldn't see me as Hannah montana. generally it was a day of cam whoring and tears. though i didn't cry that much. i felt like it wasn't the end, that i will always be with the class 09. if that makes sense, hence why i didn't cry. everyone's costumes were amazing, they all should be up on facebook i reckon. i went in the jumping castle with yen, and then realised that i was scared, i kept bouncing everywhere and i thought that i would full on bang into someone so me and y just clung onto the egde. please don't laugh, it was scary. the video was so good, seriously so much better than previous years. and everyone just seem to have such a fun day. after the year nines were so sweet they had little post it notes everywhere saying they'll miss us etc. and they formed a tunnel leading us out of school, sorry i can't explain that better. but it was such a memorable day, something that will forever be implanted in my mind and heart.


That's all for now, sorry for the brief recap,
but i should really be studying.


Love Always, Squealer.

The new is so yesterday

The new saddle club is so lame.
Man it has been so long since I've watched tv.
I guess as a 12 year old, the was lame,
But it was a guilty pleasure and it was fun to watch.
But the new one is ever to lame.
They are so young and look funny.
Seriously, what a fun way to start in the tv industry.
And a close up of your face on tv,
Especially when tv does not flatter.
The dialogue is so stupid and cliche.
How many times can I use the word lame?




Yay the Australian dollar is so good right now.
Time to buy american stuff which I was meant to do
Before the financial crisis.

Will update later very later
Got to study for exams
They're so soon.

Love squealer.

Just a little bored

Hello.
I'm bored and sick of studying.
I do have a party later
So hopefully that will be fun.
Which reminds me, I still need to get a present.
Which I should do right, but
I can't be stuffed getting out of my chair.
Yes I'm in a very lazy mood today.
Bye for now



Love squealer.

i am a kayak, hear me roar

i have a craving for cheeseburgers.

i went to state today to study,
but it wasn't really productive.
i spent half the time using the free wifi,
which is great because it's faster than my capped internet.
i basically just watched youtube videos.
but i did get some practice exams done,
although i wasn't able to do english,
i swear i tried,
i kinda looka stared at the blank page for ages
before giving up and thinking that i cannot write essays.
i'm so stupid, i left all my hard times stuff at school,
so i have nothing to base my essays on
so it's turning out crap.
i should invite Y/S or someone to study with me,
it kinda gets boring,
and you're eavsdropping on someone's else conversations.


i was really tired when i got home.
so i watched gilmore girls and went for a nap
and here i am now.

i'm trying to find new music to download
because i'm sick of my music but i'm not sure what to get into,
i'm trying to download some classical for my learning,
but i can't seem to find any albums if you will.

i'm not studying as much as i want to be,
and its nearly halfway through the holidays.
i wanted to write heaps of essays,
but i've only written one,
which is a shame.
i can't write anymore
and the exam's in 5 weeks.

i'll see if i can attempt an essay later.

i need some motivation.
oh i also need to start my bound notes,
considering it takes me forever to write notes.

well that's all,
im too tired to think of anything else to say.
life is hard,
i want my exams to be over
but i also don't want to finish school.


Love Squealer.

you'll always find your way back home

i'm actually not quite sure who that is,
i'm usually pretty good at distinguishing Mary Kate or Ashley,
but in these pictures, it's like ashley and marykate rolled into one.
yes i know their twins but they do have their distinct features.
well i think i'll settle that it's Mary Kate.
correct me if i'm wrong.

Why do you want to become a medical practitioner/health professional?

I have no idea.

many would say i'm not fit for the above,

and even i might say that.

but to express my future in words is futile.

i don't know.

well i have a plan,
but really

deep down i know it won't turn out that way.

well whatever i am feeling,
the applications still need to get done
and i am procastinating.



why do i always feel so wasted at the end of the day?
that came out wrong.
i meant i felt like i have done anything
and i've wasted yet another day that i'll never get back.
i always feel that my life is too boring,
i don't achieve much, i'm just studying,
i like studying and all but it does get boring.
i'm looking at the stack of practice exams i have to do,
and i just want to crawl in a corner,
and.....





watch highschool musical.




can't think of anything else to add,
but i hope you guys make the most of your day,
don't let them wither away.



Love Squealer.

life's a climb

the hannah montana movie was really good,
though it was a bit short and technically nothing really happened,
but who cares? I liked it and i shall watch it again.
the guy who plays miley's love interest,
i can't be stuffed searching his name,
has a really manly voice,
i know his a man but it's a kinda different manly voice,
its doesn't suit him.
well try listening to him and then maybe you'll understand,
or it can just be me....
which is usually the case.

i am in the process of filling out medicine/dentistry applications,
and i have no idea what i want to say or what i can say.
i know i want to do something big, make a change,
all that cliche stuff but it's what i want to do,
but i cannot come up with an original way to express that.
i just want to help, i want to dedicate my life to someone other than myself,
well i guess that applies for medicine,
applying for dentistry is much harder,
no offence, but they don't do as much as doctors do,
maybe i'll work with a charity to promote dental hygiene
i want to do something that will make me travel,
make me learn and to help.
there's so many dedicated people and i wish i was like them.
they just have an aura about them.
i just hope that someday i will find something i truly love.

wish me luck on the applications.

it's nearly the end of year 12 and it's making me sad,
i was thinking of how i loved my time at macrob
and i wish i didn't have to leave.
the people and environment,
just everything is comforting,
i never felt so comfortable, so free to do what i want.
i was thinking back to year8 self,
and i hated the idea of leaving st columba's
but now i'm thinking that was so stupid,
because its corny but macrob is one of the best things ever,
(the others are family, friend, HSM and hannah montana and gilmore girls)
i adore my friends to death and i would not know where i'll be without them,
they just understand me and even if they don't,
they just nod and smile politely. =P

but now it's time for change,
and i cannot stop that,
in someways it's freaking me out
but also i'm strangely exhilarated.

go out in the world and find something you love,
not something that has other have pushed you towards,
because i reckon if it's meant to be,
you will find that place that makes you happy.




Love Squealer.

a day in the sun

i am done.
yes i have finished all my uni applications
and boy do i feel relieved.
now i can concentrate on studying,
while watching gossip girls and the hannah montana movie
which my friend gave to me and which i am grateful for.
darn gossip girls and it's return of season 3 during exam studying period
darn that it has hilary duff in it
and why is it so addictive?


today was the last day of school
and it consisted of me running around a lot but it was fun.
we had lip syncing which was really fun,
all the others groups were amazing while the dance that i was in...
well it very loose,
half of us burst into giggles because we didn't know the moves.
but the people who could actually dance was really good,
the front row that is.
at least we try.
i wish there was a video to show our epic fail.
amazing, oreads didn't come last, so yeah,
that was good too.

i was getting sad that we don't have much school left.
i think i will miss macrob so much.
i said to friend that things will never change,
everyone will apply to the same course and go to the same uni
so that we will be together forever.
wishful thinking...

also this is going to be the start of an extremely hectic studying period
so i hope i do study.

i went with my friend to the reject shop,
and were lining up and i wanted to get a price check on something,
so my friend tries to swipe against the machine
and then i said:
"Y, that's the etpos machine."
"well they all look the same"
"yeah but you used your bank card all the time."
i thought it was a funny moment,
even if you guys don't.

well that's all.

Love Squealer.

eighteen is the loneliest number

something very relevant to whose reality.

today i feel so old.
now that i'm 18, it really sucks.
might go off and buy some lottery tickets or something
to validate the fact that i'm eighteen.
i would buy alcohol if i wasn't so against it,
maybe i can buy it for my friends,
not that i would endorse them to drink.


i wonder what people mean when they say partying?
do they mean dancing, or eating or drinking, talking?
well maybe it's a collective term,
i mean when people say "let's party all night"
what exactly am will i be doing?
partying? yes i know but really, what would i be doing?
partying means for me is to go a party,
but you can't go to parties all night
unless you leave and then come back repeatedly
but then thats weird and people will be like wtf?


there's only 2 weeks before end of term
which means everything's rushed to get things done.
i also have to finish yearbook stuff.
i hate how there's not enough photos for me to use.
i feel bad because i really haven't done much,
but i am trying,
it's just that i think illustrator hates me
and always screws and hence makes me lose my file
which means i have restart the page,
and i have restarted my page so many times.


and and i have another idol,
well i did like her before but i wasn't really looking up to her.
well it's vanessa hudgens.
i watched her on ellen,
and she's just really poist and bubbly.
i thinks she handles herself so well.
and i love how she talks,
she's so confident and fun and very sociable.
despite all the scandals.
if i was on ellen, there would be many awkward silences.
yes i kinda have a thing for debaters/talkative people,
in non-weird way...




i'm tired and should be studying,
so laters.
sorry for the lack of flow in my post structure.



Love Squealer

i solemnly swear...

SACs are fun.
at least they would be if instead of writing whatever,
we could play games or do something fun,
like i dunno buying lollies in a candy store.
that's fun.
well i guess that would be weird if you were graded on buying lollies.
like what would the standards be?
hmmm, that's a funny thought.
well the reason for the above pointlessness,
is that i had two sacs today,
i'm not so sure about physics due to the fact that i hardly studied
and didn't really understand the whole topic, so yeah
probably get my results tomorrow,
because as relax as Mr.R is, he always corrects things really quickly.
which is really weird because i reckon it would be the last thing he would want to do.

today i was working on the yearbook
and my hate for illustrator grew,
because it kept not responding
which made me really scared that i was going to lose my data.
it already happened a couple times before,
and i'm so irritated about it.

the senior dance off was today,
it was really good
and made me add another thing on my 'to-do after yr12' list.
i'm going to take dance lessons.
the easiest type of dancing there could possibly be,
due to my lack of coordination and control.
watching the dancing made me feel very incompetent.
another highlight was watching student leaders dancing.
J.T was so cute when she was doing the dance.
also i've decided that she is also my idol
(the list keeps keeps getting bigger)
she's so smart and amazing and very involved in school.
i hope she doesn't read this because it's kinda creepy.
back to dance off. macrob won.
so we had to paper-rock-scissors to decide the winner of the Senior Cup,
which sucked because we lost. darn.

i also sold some chocolates today,
but most of them were I.O.U's.
hopefully i will be an amazing chocolate seller as S.Z
she sold like 4 boxes in 4 days, which is crazy.

and and we're ranked 62nd for the nike challenge,
the macrob team B that is, team a is like miles ahead.
but the first rank school has ran like 8100km
which is shifty
but who am i to question it,
seriously who wants to run a marathon a day,
excluding some health freaks(well freak in a good way.
don't worry, i'm a freak too.


love Squealer.

We're born, we live a little while, we die

today in physics, our group had a very philosophical discussion , relatively considering we were in physics.
it was interesting to listen to
though i didn't really say anything.
i cannot be bothered going into specifics of the talk,
but it did get very existentialist,
like how do we exist the way we are,
if technically matter is basically empty space,
then wouldn't we be empty space?
then Mr.R says that its the interaction of atoms
that make us appear solid.
and then we starting pressing our fingers together,
as if to confirm that it isn't empty space
and it was somehow thought-provoking.
well i guess that didn't make any sense,
i didn't explain it properly but oh wells.



studying streetcar has made me realized how ignorant i was,
i read the play before but i never read anything into it.
then my teacher pointed out the sexual innuendos,
like when blanche shrieks when the coke bottle overflows
and foams over the edge,
we weren't convinced until
stanley enters with a bottle of coke under his belt.
we just accused Ms.A for reading too much into the play.
which reminds me not to read to much into anything
otherwise i will find out things i never wanted to know.
now off to finalise university applications.

credits to gingerlilytea on flicker
http://www.flickr.com/photos/gingerlillytea/3559031419/in/set-72157604915680665/

Love Squealer.

the big one

my teacher says we have 17 more school days left,
to which my friend says "we're screwed, let's stop trying."
i think it is a way of forcing us to work more,
given that we hardly worked during the year.


i hate how everything is determined on the upcoming exams,
a lot people say that your enter doesn't matter
but then those people have already done their vce
and don't need to worry.
right now i'm feeling very indifferent about school,
there's a millions things going on
and i feel like i'm drifting through it all.
i'm immersing myself into the wrong things
and yet i can't help myself.


we're doing streetcar and exploring the concept of "whose reality?"
i was thinking what would happened
if i just created an alternative reality
and never leave it.
apart from the fact that i would be institutionalized,
i cannot grapple with the idea someone being in an alternative world,
what does it feel like?
and how would you be in the 'real' world?
sure you would look crazy to some people,
but maybe it is our pretentious perceptions that are crazy.
if i wanted to be in a fantasy world,
i would be in high school musical,
as in my life would be like that
as if i'm living in the movie.
i like being sheltered and happy and light-hearted,
but i guess that comes from the immature and childish nature of mine.
there's just too many horrific issues in the world,
and it seems like it's plunging into a decaying heap
where society has polluted it so much
that's nothing we can do but watch the unravelling of our actions.


i also decided that i want to be a Doctor,
i'm sorry i keep changing my mind,
and don't ask how i'm going to deal with the gory details,
i would like to work in the children's hospital,
it is emotionally and physically draining
but the rewards exceed everything.
being a dentist is also great,
but you don't have the same impact and contribution to society (no offence)
i hope i don't miserably fail umat
so i get a chance of being interviewed.
it would suck that i failed before i started.

fingers crossed i will stop changing my mind.


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no checkpoints

i haven't bake anything in ages.
if only my cupcakes looked as pretty as that.

this morning i had physics tutor,
which was boring as usual
and i really see no purpose of me going there,
not in the sense that i'm too smart to go
but we just sit and do questions
and basically can be self-taught.
but now i realized that i have only about 10 more lessons.
so i might as well keep at it,
and in a couple of months i will never go tutor again.
which is kinda scary
because i have been brought up around tutoring,
never since school that
i could imagine a time without tutoring.
i was thinking of tutoring after i finish as a job.
hopefully i will be ok.


and and i did go for a run/walk/jog,
more a power walking because i was lazy.
i was hoping to calibrate my sportsband,
but there was no distance signs
so i didn't know how long i ran,
the sportsband said i ran 4.47km
but i think it was around 3km or something.
i want to see if i can reach pipemaker's park,
but that's about 8km away
so then i would have walk 16km and would therefore die.


i also went to highpoint today,
i bought some pens and highlighters.
i wanted to buy the scribblers pens
but it was a 25 pack and
i knew i didn't really need all those pens
so i settled for a 5pack form BIC,
on the plus side it's eco-friendly and it was on sale.
it writes really well too, like the soft-feel one
which is my signature pen for which i use for everything.

that is all,
my legs also feel funny.
and look, i actually posted labels for the post.


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Take the deviled eggs

i like bumming around school during frees,
i also want to go home but i could never be stuffed.
well i had a double free on friday and i did have plans,
but i never did follow through.
i left just before period 6 and then went to DFO,
i wanted to find some necklace chains at forever new
because they sell cheap faulty jewellery,
and it's cheaper than buying the chain in spotlight.
and i did (find a chain).
then i walked around for a bit and walked into the cosmetics shop,
and again i got my hopes up
because because in the distance,
it looked like a grey matte nail polish, like grey,
not light purple or white.
then i looked at it closer and it turned to be shiny,
not metallic but that tiny dotty shiny if you know what i mean,
so far that's the closest i've found.
i would have bought it but the bottles looked old
and they were laced with pink for some reason.
so i'm going to wait till more stock comes in
and then i'm going to buy it. it's only $2
so that's ok, better than the opi one
which is actually matte grey but it's $20.
and i haven't seen the opi one,
i just saw it on the internet.
yes well that was my friday,
i did plan on going running to calibrate the sportsband
but it started raining and was really windy.
and yes, i did make up excuses.


the exams are getting closer,
and i think i should really start my hardcore studying...
but i never get around to it,
next week i have so many sacs,
which sucks and means i really have to study,
i've been busy with yearbook stuff
because it takes me forever to do the pages,
i'm so bad at photoshop.


anywhoo,
eat lollies.


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Songs about Home

today was the day i went to spotlight,
and it was also the day i vowed never to catch the 903 bus.
i had to wait so long for a bus
because two of the scheduled bus didn't arrive on time
well they didn't arrive full stop.
the one thing that i really don't like is waiting,
and that's all i did today,
i only spent about 10 mins in spotlight.
so yeah so more 903 unless
desperation or boredom is the reason.
i would rant more
but i have already ranted in a previous post,
so feel free to read that.



lately i have feeling so indifference about everything,
you know that feeling where
you don't know the purpose of anything,
and the time so slow,
you want to crawl up in your bed and sleep.
(well i always want to crawl up in bed and sleep)
I want to get myself out of this phase
but i am still unsure how.
my friend Y hid the new copy of seventeen for me,
which made me happy because i have this thing where
i always have to be the first person to borrow a magazine,
although my interest in the magazines have declined,
i still want it first,
i would say that's a middle child thing
but i'm not a middle child.
so that event boosted my happiness,
and the fact that tuesday i had four frees
and this friday i'm going to have a double free.
which also makes me sad
because i don't feel as excited about them
as i used, but i will try to
make good use of this double free,
(not good use as in studying-wise,
i don't study during frees, unless i have to)
i'm thinking of going op-shopping to buy books,
i like second hands books because they're cheap
but they are always put randomly on a shelf
so i never know where to find things,
and i don't know what books are good, too.
so maybe i'll leave at the start of lunch to increase book-searching time.



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a lot of milk is heavy

everyone avoids eye contact with me
when i ask to watch this movie with me...

her eyes look amazing here,
the website i got it off says it mary kate
but i think it's ashley
but they do look amazingly similiar nowadays
so correct me if i'm wrong
it's been a long time since i've taken an interest in mka
after my obsession faded at the onset of my hsm phase.

"Too many people grow up. That's the real trouble with the world, too many people grow up. They forget. They don't remember what it's like to be 12 years old. They patronize, they treat children as inferiors. Well I won't do that." Walt Disney
The last line makes him sound condescending. =]
i want to buy disney when i grow up

we have nearly finished watching A Streetcar named Desire
in english class.
it's really good although blanche is annoying.
vivien leigh does an amazing protrayal,
i mean i tried reciting the lines and it was so wrong.
and whenever someone mentions marlon brando,
i just shout 'STELLA'.

and the sportsbands for the nike challenge arrived today,
luckily me and S went 'early' and we were able to get some.
i feel terrible because
i forgot to write my other friend's name.
can't wait to try it out and try to get some exercise done.
i've just been eating, studying and sleeping.

I miss being a child.
i miss the freedom and carefree attitude.
at the moment, i still act like a five year old,
i know that i should grow up but i can't break free of that.
it usually around my friends that i am a five year old,
i tone it down around others because it's quite annoying.
but i can't imagine what i'm going to be like next year in uni.
i've grown in this school environment and it has become a part of me.
i hate change but it seems next year is inevitable.
hopefully i will learn and mature.
(but that doesn't mean i will give up high school musical)


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your legs are short

"The world comes to life and everything's bright From beginning to end When you have a friend by your side That helps you to find The beauty you are, when you open your heart And believe in the gift of a friend The gift of a friend" The Gift of a Friend




(why can't my room look like that??)

yay, no more SACs for the next couple of weeks.
it gives me time to concentrate on the yearbook.
which due in about a month!! i feel really bad
because i haven't done much,
i want to write an article but i'm not very witty
so i don't think people will like it.



i went op shopping on wednesday after school
as a treat for finishing my sac,
which by the way i was so relieved that it's over,
but am now thinking about all the mistakes i made,
well my treat was going to spotlight
and i decided to go to the one in brunswick
because i haven't been there in quite a while
(ahem a couple of weeks).
i was a bit upset as there was nothing to buy.
and thinking i should have gone to essendon instead.
so then i went op shopping.
i brought a belt and a chunky knit cardigan,
it very big and comfy and has a cool winter print on it,
but it's not as cool as my bright orange cardigan,
that was a good find.
i really want to get into vintage shopping
but i just don't have the time to go around looking,
so next year to add to the things-to-do after year 12 list,
i shall regularly go op shopping (and drag my friends along)



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Deer Hunt

i should really concentrate when i'm studying for english.
i just get so distracted,
i mean i'm distracted in other subjects,
but it really shows in my english.
i keep say thats there only 10 weeks to go,
which means i have only 10 weeks to get my essays writing
in the time limit of 1 hour to an A+ standard for the exam.
it's looking quite bleak but i am trying so hard,
well relatively hard according to my standards.

we were in physics today,
and playing with slinkies,
imitating waves and stuff life that,
and someone got the slinkies tangled
and Mr.R got really mad,
seriously i think
it was the only time i have seen him annoyed,
well relatively speaking,
he was furious, because he's always so mellow.
i remember the last time he got annoyed was in yr9
when my friends and i got the slinkies tangled.


well its going to be an english filled weekend.
and i have no tutor in the morning,
which means i can watch HSM1 on tv. YAY.
i'm looking forward to that. =]


(yes i know that's from HSM2, i just like picture)

Oh and yearbook preparations are underway.
i feel so bad because i don't have any photos,
but i will try my best.
hopefully everyone will like the yearbook.
and and the senior school breakfast is coming,
we're getting it catered so the food
is going to be really good.
i can't wait.



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Hard Times

I'm trying to learn the hoedown throwdown dance,
but i am epically failing.
i can't even jump to the left!!
it's not even a hard dance routine,
but i'm just so uncoordinated,
darn me and my underdevelopment movement skills.
and the moves are done so fast,
i can't keep up.
i look like an idiot doing it.


The Adelaide Exchange ended today,
i must say i regret not doing being good at a sport,
because i want to be a part of the team.
it was really fun watching the sports.
theatre sports was really good, it was hilarious.
the team was so witty and smart to come with impromptu scenarios.
basketball was pretty aggressive,
for some reason i never pictured basketball to be aggressive.
i just pictured tall people bouncing the ball.
overall macrob won for the ninth consecutive year,
which i must say is pretty good,
but adelaide played quite well,
we got trashed in football.
but we did win chess, 15.5-0.5.
typical macrob.

well only a couple more months until exams,
i have decided to start practice exams now.
don't know if i would actually follow through on that.


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