the Big One

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MELS FOR TOMORROW.

ok, i got my mid-year results,
and it was what i had expected,
but when i found out it was what i had expected,
it felt a million times worse because it was true.
i was kinda hoping by luck that i would get higher,
but oh wells. i keep saying that physics will be in my bottom 2 subjects,
so i don't really care as long as i get over 40,
well hopefully i get 43, which is still possible.
i'm so jealous of the people who did really good
in their subjects. But i guess there's nothing i can do.
i am quite calm about this, i remember last year
for psychology, i was devastated with my results.

well now i've got a physics SAC tomorrow which i should by studying for,
but it's so boring,
i really regret not doing physics last year,
it also would mean that
i would be able to do uni chem this year,
which i would have loved.
anyways electromagnetic induction
is really stupid, like i care about that.
i don't like unit 4 physics,
its too random and weird
and not much maths.

well i guess i'm over that hump,
now just wait till enters come out...

i guess i can concentrate on trying harder,
especially English which i majorly suck at.

and and i can really start planning my party.
i want to have a smallish party on my actual birthday,
to celebrate and get out of the tedium of school.
maybe we can go eat dinner or something or a picnic,
but something small.
i love planning,
i should become a party planner in my next life.


Love Squealer.