Light It Up

Oh wow, it's been a while since i've update, considering i went through i phase of updating twice in a day, granted that phase didn't last very long. It's really freaking me out how fast the weeks are passing by, and as it gets closer to where i am trying hard to be, i'm finding it very scary, so much so that i want to hide under my bed away from the world. But obviously that is not an option, not at the moment anyways, i have been buried by homework and assessments which surprisingly haven't sparked much stress as it usually does.
There isn't much to say about last week, i feel like everyday is feeling very monotonous, I go to uni and try to get home as much as possible, I'm really enjoying the alone time but that is hurting my social life, the very little one that i have anyways. I'm still finding myself in the mood to be alone a lot more which puts up barriers between a lot of people, i just need to get over the bump with a lot of people so then i can be my anti-social but still have friends.
I had a biology test on wednesday which i hope went okay, some of the questions were weird but i still answered them, although the answers are quite questionable. Wednesday are my least favourite days because there is double Intro to Pharm Practice which was basically like Pharm, Health and Society (for all those Monash kids) but with an IT component which makes it infinitely more unbearable. The lectures are filled with me on facebook, band stuff and general internet surfing but what's really killing me is that i can't go on tumblr, and my friend next to me goes on tumblr which makes it worse, i find it very hard not to sneak a peak.
I was looking forward to thursday because it meant i got to home, yay! Nothing much happened though, i had my classes, and and I got my name badge which was the other highlight of the day. I love name badges, they are just so awesome, it makes you feel special :)

On Friday, I got to visit my Monash friends, they had a test in the morning so there was a little stress in the air, well maybe there was more but they seem relatively calm so maybe they were internalizing the fear. Anywhoo,  i hung out with them for the first lecture but had to leave for the second lecture as it was their test time. I hung out in the library trying to finish off my essay, i did manage to write something but it wasn't really good and need major editing. Then i took a 20 mins nap because i didn't have enough sleep the night before. Luckily i woke up in time for when they finished. We had fries at primary cafe which are the most awesome fries ever, and comes at a good price as well. So we stayed there for about an hour, just talking. Afterwards we parted ways, i took the train with V to South Yarra, and caught the train back. I had some time before i had my placement so i went to Safeway for some lollies, and got 2 rolls of Rolos which i love because they are awesome, I love the fact that its like chocolate in life savers form. And i got changed and made my way to the bus stop. I was planning to sleep on bus but the half hour ride took quicker than expected, it was quite easy to navigate my way to Altona North. The placement was nothing special, there was a sheet that i had to fill out and the pharmacy was small, so i was looking at the same products for the two hours, and half watching the patient interactions. The communication was very casual and friendly, the sort of conversation that i won't be able to make anytime soon. I'm quite scared about the communication component of the course, its something that doesn't come to me naturally, i find it hard to spark up a conversation with customers. Although it is something that i am trying to improve on when i was working at My Chemist. I just hope that i will get to the point where i can joke around and be social and comfortable in communication situations. I quite liked the pharmacist, she was very nice and friendly. The conversations we were having, well with her and the other placement student doing most of the talking and me nodding awkwardly, it made do some reevaluating. Also she was sort of criticizing Monash students, which makes me feel so sad and a 'knife in the gut' feeling every time, but in my head i am very defensive and having all these comebacks, and assuring myself that my friends are definitely not like how the pharmacist describes. So when that was over, i took the bus home and this time  i was able to sleep, i kept waking up at intervals, and one time i saw a person sitting next me, which made me freak out inside because i didn't feel the person sitting next to me. I was incredibly tired when i got home so i took a nap.

On Sunday, M and I went to the retrostar sale. We were very excited to go because we have been meaning to go for over a year. There were so so many clothes, but they were still a little more pricey than what i would pay for vintage clothes, there was an awesome selection but nothing really caught my eye so much. The band t shirt range wasn't so great, i didn't know any of the bands bar a couple. Luckily M found me a P!ATD tshirt which is the same one as hers, which got me more excited because i love matching items. We were having a look at the sunglasses, they had a quite a range of colours of rayban wayfarers copies. The colours although were not fluro were very bright when we tried them on. I ended getting a greyish clear one and M got the geek glasses one and a tortoise shell one. So we didn't end up buying nothing so its all good. We took the tram back in the city while typical us, talking about band related stuff, somehow that topic will never get old. I think because i have no one else to talk about that stuff with, i channel all my energy into the conversations with M. We saw the new food court at MC which looked so pretty and the food somehow looked yummier, i was thinking it was the cleaner and new setting. Although we didn't end up eating there, i just had a cone and M had a chicken foccasia sandwich. And then I had to go home because i had a family party, where i was awkward as usual. It funny because all the kids have nintendo DS's and ipods so each one of my little cousins were holding an electronic device. I was trying to subtly take a photo of one of my little cousins who i adore because he is so cute, but he kept moving and i couldn't use flash so most of photos were blurry. Its so funny to be watching a 2 year old competently playing with an iPad and iPod, yeah it also made me jealous too. I never really had a desire to get an iPad but seeing the talk about it and the fact of having one really makes me want to have one too.

Boy we are awkward photo people.

Love Jenny.