Burning Up the Night

Sorry for the lack of updates, or the fact that the last fews posts have been mainly been posted for myself and no one else (cept maybe M). I haven't done anything worth mentioning, i have been glued to my laptop. I usually am watching tv shows mainly 30 Rock and Life Unexpected and watching all the new episodes of the tv shows that i  keep up to date with. Have any of you watched Life Unexpected? Basically its about this 16 year old girl, Lux, who finds her birth parents after being given up at birth. Her parents are then given custody of Lux and so the story begins.The first couple of episodes were really good, i guess its so that it hooks you in, but now i'm starting to dislike Lux, she is quite annoying, yeah i know she has been through a lot but still. I guess you guys have to watch to understand what i am talking about. I'm nearly finished with season 1 and it's okay i guess, i think i'm still persisting in watching it is because i think Lux is quite pretty.
Also i would like to mention something about the latest episode of Gossip Girl, so has anyone else been following the show. So it came back after a little hiatus, and is it me or has it changed? Why does the characters seem different and very annoying? I think its like the writers/creators/producers/directors(whoever comes up with the direction of the show) is running out of ideas for the show. I mean the first part of the season wasn't too bad, but i dunno, should this be a show that i stop watching? Although I admit it was fun watching it with Y, it's nice to have someone there to hear/ignore my every opinion that immediately pops into my head. Yeah i can be annoying when watching things, i always talk to myself when i have opinions and i have to vocalize them, its hard for me to let them stay in my head, i just need to react.

Yesterday, I spent the day doing nothing, that's what i usually do in Bendigo, but it feels so much better doing nothing in the comfort of your own bedroom. I thought i would take a couple of days off before i start digging through my assignments and studying that i hope to get done before the end of the break.

 Also i managed to make another tshirt, which prompts me to say that i should organize another t-shirt making day, its really fun and it kinda sucks to make a tshirt by yourself. I finally made a We The Kings design that i have been meaning to make for a while, since last holidays. I didn't do the print that i made then but i came up with another design because it was easier to work with. the one i had previously was too small and way too frustrating and hard to cut out. I enlarged the words so i can cut it out relatively easily. There's a couple of mistakes such as me painting outside the border and i only did one layer because i was too lazy to do a second coat. But i like to think of the tshirt having a grungy look, if you know what i mean. Those black blotches were meant to be there ;)

Yay, I cannot wait to wear it, i've been living in tshirt and jeans, it is my go-to outfit everyday, and besides the fact that it is so comfy, i think i'm going back to a punk/rock-y phase, well sort of, maybe, more like dressing how my band people would wear. I need to get a new pair of black skinny legs though because my current one is getting a massive hole where the thigh is, now if only the hole is where the knee or some other not so awkward position. There's a problem with wanting to dress like the band people, mainly because they are guys and what they wear is somewhat masculine. i'm still into vintage stuff but they take much more of an effort in the morning to put together than just tshirts and jeans. There's another reason why i want to wear my band tshirts, i'm hoping that someone will come up to me and say that they like the band too. Actually i did have one person who did but the conversation didn't really go anywhere, partly because she didn't seem like she was into them, she probably does like them as much as do but it didn't show in her voice. But thats not why the conversation wasn't so successful, i guess she is one of those few people where i don't feel comfortable with even with a mutual interest. Well i think i am being too judgmental because i've only said about two sentences to her but i have observed her though and i don't think our personalities mesh. Anywhoo moving on, i know i can find someone else who likes the same music as i do, who i see everyday. I do show Y the videos but she looks at them in a different light.
Oh yeah, so i found out that Dashboard Confessional merch has a flat rate shipping fee of $7US which is such a bargain, i can't believe that i didn't know about that before. So i ordered a tshirt, some CD's and random stuff to make the most of the shipping. I felt a little bad because i had already spent some money on the This Century pack but i couldn't resist. And after i made the order, they gave me a 20% voucher for me to use next time so i cannot wait to use that, i want to get a DC hoodie so i'm waiting for an appropriate time to purchase that. I remember when i was around year 7, and i was in Off Ya Tree in Highpoint (which has now closed down) wanting a DC tshirt but it was $40, i still remember the design as well. Its funny how the prices haven't changed that much since 6 years, actually prices have decreased. I haven't been in Off Ya Tree for a while so i wonder if they still stock the tshirt. I try to avoid going into Off Ya Tree because i think its aimed for more hardcore bands people and the one in the city, has the piercing studio/tattoo palour without walls, so i can see what is happening if i wanted to, and that kinda crepts me out.
So this is what i ordered from DC, i hope it arrives promptly, its too bad that i think that i won't actually be there when it comes, i'll be in Bendigo. I hope it comes when i'm home though, so i can sign for a package, that would be so fun!

L-R: T-shirt, Alter the Ending album, Shades of Poison Trees album, badges, logo, logo. 

Love Squealer.

Kisses.

I was watching one The Maine's old update video and this part came up, and my mum watching it too. She didn't say anything but i wonder what she was thinking.

Yes awkward indeed, i was surprised she didn't question what the heck i was watching.
Anywhoo i can't stop watching that scene as creepy as it sounds. NSN looks really young in this video, even though his older than us.
Man one day when i'm older i'll look back on this blog and think "That's why she doesn't have many friends."

Well I had my first shift back at work since i stopped last holidays, and it was pretty boring, it puts me off working in a big retail store, there are so many products that you have to know and keep tidy. I wouldn't mind owning a little quirky weird little shop that requires minimal cleaning, maybe i can add that on my already long list of things to do in the future.

So yep, another weekend wasted when i'm meant to be finishing up on my work so i don't have to do anything on the mid semester break. why oh why am i so lazy? And why did i download all those TAI and WTK podcasts, i think i intervention from the internet, anyone feel like holding one for me?

Love Squealer.

The Acts Of Desperation

So for the past few days, I've been going on a downloading spree of new music. I usually find out a band's name and then go on their wiki/myspace, and eventually download all their albums. Then i would listen to them and watch their youtube videos (if they had any). And then i find out that some of them have already been to Australia in the recent years which kinda sucks, it makes me kick myself for not knowing about them then.
So yeah that makes me feel sad.
Another thing that makes me feel sad is that I liked This Century on facebook, and they keep putting updates about their upcoming shows and how awesome they are going to be because of the special guests, meet & greets and new merch, etc. Its sucks because I'm all across the world wishing so badly that i could be in Arizona for the next couple of days.

Anyone want to join me on a very spontaneous trip with me to America today? 
yes that would be nice. i guess i can only dream. 


Love Squealer.

Who Needs Air.

Last Thursday night was the Classic Crime (TCC) concert which i have talking about for the past couple of weeks. Many little interesting events happened, awesome live music and a refreshing change of pace all strung together to make a very fantastic night indeed. There were four bands playing, the three local bands and TCC. The smaller bands were Almaria, Darcee Fox and Chemical Transport, if you guys do feel like stalking them. Interesting things that happened throughout the night included talking to one of Almaria's guitar player's dad, and finding out his son is not included on the band's myspace page, little awkward laughs, subtle maneuvers to take down the concert posters and as always inappropriate behavior and thoughts. The difference in venues was a nice change, it wasn't crowded and the vibe was mellow and relaxed, most of the crowd were probably Caucasian and mid twenties or older. So we basically stood out, i reckon. The venue was quite small and the stage was tiny, not much room for the band people to fully rock out. I quite liked this scene, we could sit down and still enjoy the music, and the members of TCC were just casually walking in and out of their dressing room. Its nice for them to be able to walk freely and not be overwhelmed by a bunch of teenage girls, although i do believe i fit in that criteria.

L-R (Alamaria): Ben, Shelby, Mike, Matt, Anthony. 

The local bands put on great sets although i didn't know any of the songs, though i tried to mouth the words and guess the lyrics. The singer for Almaria sounded like an american which was nice and he looked very young, about 16ish but he can't be because he has a tattoo. Afterwards stalking on facebook revealed that the members of Almaria were our age so that was pretty cool. Darcee Fox was the next band, they had a more rockier sound rather than pop, i think. The lead singer was wearing very tight skinny jeans which i found it hard not to look (in a non creepy way) at . There was this middle aged drunk man talking to the bands about getting signed and record deals but he obviously was just talking crap, he is also a character in very disturbing incident that i will explain later. Then The Chemical Transport played and again i didn't know any of there songs, but for this set, M and I stood on the steps about 3 metres from the stage. There wasn't really a mosh pit for the bands. 

Darcee Fox. (there's also another guitar player and the drummer)

The Chemical Transport. 

When TCC played, people started moving closer to the stage. Their set was so so good, they are pretty amazing live, and i love not being squashed in a crowd. The lead singer Matt was pretty funny, i liked the story/s he told and I kinda wished there were more people who came to see them, because i was expecting something more crowded. But I think TCC were grateful that people actually came out to see them, because they consider themselves a small band from Seattle. They played most of the songs that i liked, although i still didn't know some of the lyrics so as usual i moved my mouth along. During their set,  band members of The Chemical Transport kept walking past us, and every time they did, i did a little squeal. So I haven't really gotten a grasp on how to handle myself in front of band people. Oh and a creepy thing happened, during one of the songs, i felt someone tugging on my pony tail, i thought it was S or someone i knew, but i turned around and it was the drunk guy i mentioned before, and that freaked the heck of out me. But obviously i didn't show it on my face, i just did an awkward smile and move myself away from him, he went past me and beckoned me to dance, which freaked me out even more, i kept shaking my head and refusing hoping he would go away, luckily he did. After M and I looked at each other with the most shocked and scared as looks. It creeped me out so much that he touched me hair. But i had to shake that off and enjoy the rest of TCC. After a song, they suddenly left the stage but then they came back and played one last song and said that they will be hanging out after the show. 

The Classic Crime: (L-R) Robbie, Matt, Justin, Alan, Skip

We waited around, and Robbie the TCC guitar player, came out and was shaking people's hands. I wanted a handshake too, so i feebly held my hand out when he walked past. I think i said Hi to get his attention, and he suddenly gave me a hug unexpectedly, which made me lose all control of my speech abilities. i was muttering something along the lines of "awesome show" and "thank you". And then he hugged M, who also experienced speech difficulties as i had. I think we were shocked that he hugged us, totally wasn't expecting that, so we immediately really liked him, he was nice too. M and I met up with S and J (we are also coincidently are the group who went to soundwave together) and waited to get 'our' posters signed. TCC were so nice and talking to everyone, except M and I had trouble thinking of what to say to them, i think that is my biggest problem, making proper non-awkward conversation with band people. I think Justine asked us where we got the posters from, and we were like we took them off the wall, and he replied "oh so you stole them, you thieves. Nah its ok, its not ours anyways" in a jokingly way. Then i got my poster signed by the drummer and this was our conversation: 

Drummer: Hi, I'm Skip 

Me: Hello

Me (as he was signing): Is your name Paul? 

Drummer: Yeah, can you read my signature? 

Me: No i already knew your name. 

Drummer: How do you know?

Me: Because i stalk you. 

(In hindsight that was a bad response, but i think he didn't hear what i said so Phew!)

Drummer: Ok. 

Yeah Skip was pretty awesome. And then after the signings, we wanted photos with the band members. So we waited around for them to finish. One guy was talking to Skip, and then Skip gave him a set of drumsticks and we were wondering what he had said to get free drumsticks. So yeah that made us like Skip even more. 

We first got a photo with Skip and Robbie but my camera was in the wrong setting so the flash didn't go off, but i think i was able to brighten(haha) the photo a little and make it more photo-worthy. One guy got a photo with the whole band, so we quickly asked for one. They were so friendly, they said come to the front. Afterwards when J looked at the photo, she told us there's only four guys, and it turned out that Robbie wasn't in the photo :( 

So i'm going to end it here. I should learn to write shorter concert posts because they drain so much energy and time although i don't mind writing them out. 

Love Squealer.  

start, end and middle.

YAY A new The Maine Update Q & A, something i would wake up at 7.30am for!
They're just amazing, nothing more i can say.



Though i will probs be paying for the consequences later, and falling asleep in random places.


Love Squealer.

Sound Of Fire

YAY! :)


And i'll just add in an interview with Travis from We The Kings, I liked his story at the end.


Love Squealer

Wonder Why

Its always amazes me how i can never really wake up earlier than i have to, for the past couple of weeks i have been setting my alarm about an hour before i really have to wake up but all i do is turn off the alarm when it rings and linger around in bed. Although i have woken up early a couple of times to do some extra studying but those times were rare. I try to wake up about an hour before uni starts which gives me plenty of time to get ready and have a proper slowly eaten breakfast. Why can't i be an early bird? To be happy and chirpy so early takes a lot of energy and frankly i have better things to channel that energy into.

Today was a pretty standard uni day, prac and lectures and internet on the ipod.
My housemate had a little gathering with her dent friends and they were coming around 8ish. I was making some chips to eat because i needed to get rid of my potatoes and chips were the easiest option. By 7.40, so people came and i let out a little squeal, and talking to the stove "Come on, cook faster!". Yeah i was still cooking my chips and the kitchen is right where the entrance is so i was bound to be seen. Luckily they came early to buy some alcohol, so finally i was alone again (with my other housemate). Its kinda sucks that I don't have a socially awkward friend to hang out with, i haven't found someone to connect with.
So while the gathering was going on, i was in my room, having my own little party, which just consisted of me dancing along to The Maine and pretending i was on stage singing their songs, it felt pretty awesome even though i probably looked like an idiot.
I didn't really want to study so i decided to clean up in the kitchen, there were heaps of cups left from the party so i clean those up and the rest of the dishes. then i wiped down all the benches and changes bags for the bin. I would have done a vacuum but its late and i didn't want to make a lot of noise. Man, i can't believe i would choose cleaning over studying. Although i found that cleaning has a therapeutic effect on me, very calming and soothing. I think there's just something about cleaning by yourself at night, anyone feel the same way?

So I was mucking around with the camera, i think i am a closet camera whore, though the photos i like to take of myself usually are made to be laughed at or me doing funny expressions.
So this is my post its, i love writing little notes for myself on post its, i think its the best reminder system for me and it works. i basically put anything that comes to mind on a post it.
I made a "WTK" bracelet but unfortunately the lettering didn't come out that clear. And most of the photos are me mucking around, i really like the panoramic feature though my hands are really shaky.

Love Squealer.

Chasing the Night

"There's a reason why God gave us two ears and only one mouth. Listening is twice as important as talking...

But he gave us 10 fingers, he must really want us to poke things."  

Kenneth, 30 Rock.

30 Rock is awesome.

Love Squealer.

What's A Kid To Do Now?

Hello Guys!
I have a special treat prepared for you small number of people who read my blog, due to my insane boredom (i actually should be studying but procrastinating is so much more fun) i decided to make a little video for your viewing pleasure, this is partly inspired by all my bands who make their own way more interesting videos. But one day, when my friends and I start a band and become famous, we will make videos updates for all fans and try for it to be funny and random.

Sorry the video quality is pretty bad, i compressed it heaps but still watchable i guess. 

Nothing much happened at uni today, i had a four hour break which i now dedicated as my chores time where i do my laundry and vacuum my carpet and also grocery shopping time if needed. I only needed tomatoes and eggs so i went to Strath Village and while i was there i popped into the op shop, nothing much caught my eye. Except i spotted this kids dress which sparked my childish tendencies, it looked quite big so i tried it on, trying to subtle and hope that no one noticed that i was trying on a kids' dress. I was so happy that it fit, it's a bit tight at the bust but thats understandable but still wearable. I think its awesome, i rarely fit into kids dresses but i love them so much, brings back those youthful days (which coincidently didn't happen that long ago).

It doesn't look that kid-ish does it? Luckily my mum isn't here to tell me off for buying such things, she's always telling me that i don't clothes that are age appropriate.

Then I had to run off to do my prac, turns out i suck at writing prac reports, i did pretty bad. Although its only a practice one so i can at least improve next time, and i really rushed through that prac report, so there's my excuses.
I got home and saw a spider, and usually i would call Y to take it out of the house but she wasn't there, and i didn't want the spider to go into my room. Also i never want to kill spiders because i have an irrational fear that it's family will come back and haunt me. So i used the old trapping it under the container method. I couldn't slide the lid underneath the container because i was too scared so i slid the box along to the door, but while on the way i accidentally ended up killing the spider, so i hope 'they' know it was an accident and don't take revenge on me.

The one album that always makes me happy is The Maine's Black & White, i think now i consider it my favourite album, it is the album that i turn to when i listen to my ipod or the songs that is sing when no one is around and i don't have any musical device, or the songs that i sing in my head when i'm in lectures or without my ipod, basically the songs are constantly on my mind. i think it's 'The One'. =P

(not actually my album/my image, i don't own a physical one yet but i plan on getting one as soon as the price drops below hopefully $20)

Love Squealer.

We'll All Be...

Yesterday I caught the train home with the usual people, whom are a guy and some randoms, it changes. Not a very eventful train ride, i took a nap for the half the time and listening to music. I got off at watergardens, and decided to walk around the shopping centre for a bit because i had nothing better to do. I found out that there are two safeway's in the center, i thought that was a little obsessive, i guess it is at opposite ends of the center but it is quite small compared to highpoint or chadstone. i wonder if they make enough business, it seems to be quite busy at both stores so maybe somehow it works out. while i was in safeway, i bought a blueberry bagel. it was so nice, considering it was from safeway, i mean its just tasted like bread with a hint of blueberry flavour but there is just something about the dense texture makes it awesome, or maybe i'm just a person who loves her bread too much? Anywho i decided to try bagels at an actual bakery or cafe place that would theoretically make better bagels, and i want to try it with cream cheese and everything, so i'm looking forward to that experience.

Also, i made my first purchase from an american website, its call 'hellomerch' and it stocks band merchandise, my kind of website :) The band stuff is much cheaper in American than it is in Australia. For the past week, i have been going to the checkout page, to the point where you put in your credit card details to pay for the purchase, but i always clicked cancelled. So i asked M if she wanted to buy a package with me, and she agreed so i decided to take the plunge and buy the thing, otherwise it would be running through my mind for ages and bugging me like crazy. We bought the same package, and it was such a good deal even with the shipping price. So for $30US, you get TWO TSHIRTS, A BRACELET, and the ALBUM, and let me put that in perspective for you, i paid $40AUS for my Mayday Parade t-shirt, just the ONE tshirt! So i think i'm getting a pretty good deal, with the additional shipping, it worked out to be extra $12 anyways so still better value than the merchandise that is sold in Australia. The package is a pre-order one as the album comes out in April 22nd, so the package will be shipped on April 15th, so fingers crossed that we will get it at the start of May. I'm so so so excited to be getting the stuff, i think the first thing i will do is smell the stuff when i receive them, i'll try to sniff in all that American air =P

This thursday, i have The Classic Crime concert with S, M and J, i've been looking forward to this concert for a couple of weeks and was really excited. I have psych tute at 4-5 on thursday which i was going to skip until i realised that there were debate presentations that week.The order of presentation was going to be in random order, so no one knows when they will present until they show up to the tute on thursday. I was freaking out because it means that i would miss the bus and thus miss the train the miss the concert!  I thought about all my options, i was going to order a taxi but they are quite unreliable and there is a small time frame between when i finish and the train time so i didn't want to risk it. If i knew when i was going to present, like say if i were to present early i could sneak out or "go to the toilet", but nooooo they just had to make it random and leave me hanging. My other option was to ask my friend's friend who i feel really bad for asking but i was very desperate at this point so my shame and humiliation were the least of my worries, although i asked Y to ask her for me because i wasn't going to see her until wednesday, and i couldn't wait until then, i would go crazy. So Y asked for me and she agreed and now i have plan and i'm happy. I'm going to get her chocolates as a big thank you gift, and i vowed that when i get a car, i will help out everyone who are in my situation. 

Also i haven't been studying anything for the past couple of days, darn you internet!! So i should at least do a little bit of studying now. Also how do you guys like my pokemon shirt, i got it ages ago when i was eight or something, when pokemon was all the rage. It's an Asian rip off though so not actually the real thing, but oh wells, at least you can tell its pokemon and there's no weird colouring or weird sayings or they spelt pokemon wrong. 

And on a final note, i redid my nails, thought i go for a colourful approach.

Love Squealer.

Too Much

I just watched an update from Pat (The Maine) and this bit sent me in a silent fangirling/uncontrollable bursts of laughter, i kinda fell off my chair and was on the floor, silently laughing. i just love how he's just chilling on his bed.

Love Squealer.

Like We Used To

Today was such a relaxing day of doing pretty much nothing. My essay was due today but i had pretty much finished it the night before with much head ache and frustration, all i had to do this morning was format it properly and proof read for the umpteenth time. i got to the point where i was so tired of reading the same thing and feeling so helpless because i don't have a clue on how to improve the darn thing. Oh wells, its all handed it and now i have a bigger version of the essay to look forward to, which is worth 35% of my grade, so i actually have to put more effort than usual for an assignment.
I woke at 7, and laid around in bed for a bit, and then watched the latest glee episode for the millionth time, for some reason i love it, its not as good as some of the previous episodes but somehow its the episode i watch when i want to watch glee. I acutually got out of bed at 10.30, had breakfast and started to put the finishing touches on the essay. I love having the house to myself, it means i can actually sings more loudly and turn my music up, its a very soothing feeling.
Then i had to go to lectures, which was boring as usual but i was half paying attention. Then i started reading harry potter on my ipod during biology. I have the best times during lectures.
It was housemate dinner day, but my housemate didn't have enough time to make dinner so she ordered in pizza which was good, we let her slide this time, but we told her she should make something next time.
There's not many tv shows coming out the next couple of weeks which leaves me not much to look forward to, but i was able to watch the latest episode of make it or break it, i really like the show, but some of friends can't watch it for some reason.

Here's a photo of myself (coz i'm vain like that). But yeah the point of this photo is to show you my outfit, its not fashionable by any means, but for some reason it looks childish, and makes me feel so much younger, maybe i should have sold the look with pigtails? i don't like my face, hence the scribbles.

Love Squealer

Is Anybody Out There

Boy was i moody today. It started off with me feeling indifferent about the day, as i always am with uni. Then i started getting annoyed at myself mostly and my procrastinating, i was rushing to get my lab report written before my prac. I did manage to finish it but it was probably really badly written. And the biology prac was really bad, we were working with microscopes, and we had to make our own samples but my slides didn't work and i couldn't see anything under the microscope which really frustrated me. Then on top of that, i could work out the scale for my drawings, it was really confusing me and i wasn't in the mood to have a proper think about it, so i just scribbled down some numbers and hope for the best that they are somewhat right. I got home feeling really down, and that hiding under your bed feeling was overwhelming. I tried to restore my moods by watching 30 Rock, it helped a little bit, i also climbed under my bed covers and watched it there, like i was in a little tent, away from everything.
Then i was feeling hungry so i went out to make some dinner, i have a plan for the rest of the week of what i was going to make. Today it was teriyaki veggies with noodles, this was inspired by Kennedy's choice of takeout food, well if you watched one of the band videos, he had teriyaki chicken, broccoli and noodles. I didn't have any chicken at home and i wanted to try a vegetarian week, well sort of. I was tempted to take a video of myself eating it á la Kennedy, but as most of you guys haven't watched the video, i don't think you will understand, although if you did look to the right of the page, you will see what i mean. It tasted not too bad, the whole time i was eating it, i felt like there was something missing, when i nearly finished it, i realized i needed some pepper. I made a heap of the noodles, so i guess i will be having leftovers for the next couple of meals.

Yeah so i hung out with Y for a bit and that bucked up my spirits, and so here i am, gotta get a roll on with my essay.

Love Squealer.

Light It Up

Oh wow, it's been a while since i've update, considering i went through i phase of updating twice in a day, granted that phase didn't last very long. It's really freaking me out how fast the weeks are passing by, and as it gets closer to where i am trying hard to be, i'm finding it very scary, so much so that i want to hide under my bed away from the world. But obviously that is not an option, not at the moment anyways, i have been buried by homework and assessments which surprisingly haven't sparked much stress as it usually does.
There isn't much to say about last week, i feel like everyday is feeling very monotonous, I go to uni and try to get home as much as possible, I'm really enjoying the alone time but that is hurting my social life, the very little one that i have anyways. I'm still finding myself in the mood to be alone a lot more which puts up barriers between a lot of people, i just need to get over the bump with a lot of people so then i can be my anti-social but still have friends.
I had a biology test on wednesday which i hope went okay, some of the questions were weird but i still answered them, although the answers are quite questionable. Wednesday are my least favourite days because there is double Intro to Pharm Practice which was basically like Pharm, Health and Society (for all those Monash kids) but with an IT component which makes it infinitely more unbearable. The lectures are filled with me on facebook, band stuff and general internet surfing but what's really killing me is that i can't go on tumblr, and my friend next to me goes on tumblr which makes it worse, i find it very hard not to sneak a peak.
I was looking forward to thursday because it meant i got to home, yay! Nothing much happened though, i had my classes, and and I got my name badge which was the other highlight of the day. I love name badges, they are just so awesome, it makes you feel special :)

On Friday, I got to visit my Monash friends, they had a test in the morning so there was a little stress in the air, well maybe there was more but they seem relatively calm so maybe they were internalizing the fear. Anywhoo,  i hung out with them for the first lecture but had to leave for the second lecture as it was their test time. I hung out in the library trying to finish off my essay, i did manage to write something but it wasn't really good and need major editing. Then i took a 20 mins nap because i didn't have enough sleep the night before. Luckily i woke up in time for when they finished. We had fries at primary cafe which are the most awesome fries ever, and comes at a good price as well. So we stayed there for about an hour, just talking. Afterwards we parted ways, i took the train with V to South Yarra, and caught the train back. I had some time before i had my placement so i went to Safeway for some lollies, and got 2 rolls of Rolos which i love because they are awesome, I love the fact that its like chocolate in life savers form. And i got changed and made my way to the bus stop. I was planning to sleep on bus but the half hour ride took quicker than expected, it was quite easy to navigate my way to Altona North. The placement was nothing special, there was a sheet that i had to fill out and the pharmacy was small, so i was looking at the same products for the two hours, and half watching the patient interactions. The communication was very casual and friendly, the sort of conversation that i won't be able to make anytime soon. I'm quite scared about the communication component of the course, its something that doesn't come to me naturally, i find it hard to spark up a conversation with customers. Although it is something that i am trying to improve on when i was working at My Chemist. I just hope that i will get to the point where i can joke around and be social and comfortable in communication situations. I quite liked the pharmacist, she was very nice and friendly. The conversations we were having, well with her and the other placement student doing most of the talking and me nodding awkwardly, it made do some reevaluating. Also she was sort of criticizing Monash students, which makes me feel so sad and a 'knife in the gut' feeling every time, but in my head i am very defensive and having all these comebacks, and assuring myself that my friends are definitely not like how the pharmacist describes. So when that was over, i took the bus home and this time  i was able to sleep, i kept waking up at intervals, and one time i saw a person sitting next me, which made me freak out inside because i didn't feel the person sitting next to me. I was incredibly tired when i got home so i took a nap.

On Sunday, M and I went to the retrostar sale. We were very excited to go because we have been meaning to go for over a year. There were so so many clothes, but they were still a little more pricey than what i would pay for vintage clothes, there was an awesome selection but nothing really caught my eye so much. The band t shirt range wasn't so great, i didn't know any of the bands bar a couple. Luckily M found me a P!ATD tshirt which is the same one as hers, which got me more excited because i love matching items. We were having a look at the sunglasses, they had a quite a range of colours of rayban wayfarers copies. The colours although were not fluro were very bright when we tried them on. I ended getting a greyish clear one and M got the geek glasses one and a tortoise shell one. So we didn't end up buying nothing so its all good. We took the tram back in the city while typical us, talking about band related stuff, somehow that topic will never get old. I think because i have no one else to talk about that stuff with, i channel all my energy into the conversations with M. We saw the new food court at MC which looked so pretty and the food somehow looked yummier, i was thinking it was the cleaner and new setting. Although we didn't end up eating there, i just had a cone and M had a chicken foccasia sandwich. And then I had to go home because i had a family party, where i was awkward as usual. It funny because all the kids have nintendo DS's and ipods so each one of my little cousins were holding an electronic device. I was trying to subtly take a photo of one of my little cousins who i adore because he is so cute, but he kept moving and i couldn't use flash so most of photos were blurry. Its so funny to be watching a 2 year old competently playing with an iPad and iPod, yeah it also made me jealous too. I never really had a desire to get an iPad but seeing the talk about it and the fact of having one really makes me want to have one too.

Boy we are awkward photo people.

Love Jenny.