Nearly Witches

I have been listening to P!ATD's new album Vices and Virtues, and I'm in love, new music for listening. I think i shall buy the album, its quite exciting really, it's been a while since the last album. Although i am quite sad that they half broke up, but the music is still quite very P!ATD, maybe its because its still Urie doing the vocals. Its kinda like Brandon Flower's solo album, kinda just sounds like The Killers. Anyway the music is prompting me to study because its makes me feel motivated and happy. 

On Monday, I hung out with the Monash crew for a couple of hours before i had to make my way back to bendigo. I went dress shopping with R which was pretty fun, i just like looking at clothes in general. There was this horrific sight that i don't want to witness again. R and I were going back up via the escalators and there were these two young girls about 3 or 4. then suddenly one of the girls tripped and toppled over a couple of steps, you know the sort of scene you see in the movies. She rolled over a couple of times as the escalators were going upwards. I was so shocked for a moment, i couldn't move. She started crying and we ran up to her, and i checked her head to see if there was any bleeding, luckily she seemed fine. R and I were really angry at the parents because they weren't watching their children, they were standing at the top to the side smoking, and they just seemed to brush off the incident, but they didn't know what had happened. I felt so frustrated, i wanted to confront them but they looked intimidating. Yeah so that wasn't a good experience, there were so many worse things that could of happened to the little girl. 

Today (yesterday) was a pretty hectic day. I had a late start at 1 and all day i've been kicking myself for not planning out things better hence making me miss out on certain things. Anywhoo its all over so nothing I can do about it now. Tuesday was the start of our housemates cooking dinner for each other day, and i decided to make teriyaki chicken with vegies on rice and sushi, yes i stuck with what i know. It all turned ok, thank goodness, although it did take me longer than expected, it made me appreciate my parents more, and how this is something that they do everyday. Man, don't know how i am going to cook for my children when i become a mother. So dinner went by smoothly and i hope that no one gets food poisoning, there seem to a positive response, so thats good. Then we had a movie night with Y's friends, we watched Valentines Day which i like, but its not of the best movies out there. And now here i am writing a blog post while doing my chem questions. 

I'm feeling a little confused at the moment, I think back at my actions and behavior in the past couple of weeks and i feel detached from myself. I'm not sure how to describe it, maybe because i am changing quite suddenly, I feel like my old self is disappearing quickly, or i'm wondering this changed side of me has always been me and whether my old self was a lie. Hmmm sorry if that didn't make any sense. I guess i am still going through that awkward teenager phase, because i never really went through that phase years ago, and now every thing seems to be catching up. I'm uncertain about these changes in behavior, let's hope i can do some tweaking so i can be a person that i am truly happy with, although i didn't mind how i was before but i didn't really approve of my old self, but i was happy with it. Ok yeah so this whole paragraph didn't make any sense, it did in my head though, so sorry to waste minutes from your life.

Love Squealer.