Black & White

Hello All!
Just thought i do a quick post before i get back into studying. It feels like ages since i've written a post.

Monday:
I woke up at 6 to catch the 6.38 train, might not seem that early for some people but it is uber early for me especially since i haven't gotten up before the sun rises in at least a year. I didn't get much sleep, i must of fallen asleep at around 2 i guess, which is a little earlier than my normal bedtime. I know i had my full stages of sleep because i was dreaming about spiders or something that i have forgotten about. So uneventful train ride, i couldn't sleep though, usually i sleep on the train so i was feeling a little annoyed because of my sleep deprivation. I got to my bendigo house at around 8.30, i was tempted to sleep but i had a 9am lecture to attend which as predicted turned out to be a waste of my time. I needed to go grocery shopping so after the lecture, i caught the bus into town and went to Safeway and Coles, bought some food, more junk food though although i did say i was banning myself. But i restrain myself from buying some items, so i am showing a little more control. Also i bought a Soundwave Edition poster magazine, i don't think it was that worth my money because i used less than half the posters. I got annoyed when they put two bands that i liked together. Anberlin was on the back of We The Kings and 30Seconds To Mars was on the back of The Gaslight Anthem. I chose the WTK side because the Anberlin poster looked old as Stephan had long hair. And I choose Gaslight because i know them better as a band, but i might alternate sides when i'm bored.

Then i got home at about 12, and was motivated to do my laundry. I was so proud of myself, this was the first time that did the laundry using the washing machine, i used to hand wash my clothes. Then i cleaned and vacuumed my room, it really annoyed  me when the vacuum didn't pick some of the dirt. Then i put up the posters in my room, which made it more 'lived in'. I need to print out more pictures to put up so it looks a little more full. But atm, it makes me happy looking at my wall.
Oh yeah, i'm so stupid, I had a black and white image which i printed off to a colour printer which means i had to pay an extra 4.5 times for printing it in 'colour'. I didn't realize until after i printed it, well makes me think next time.

After all my chores, I made myself lunch, i bought one of those pasta in a bag and i think i added too much water so it took way more than 10mins to cook, so the pasta was overcooked and the sauce was runny and watery but i managed to fix the last part. I realized it would have been quicker if i made the pasta myself, well live and learn. And I made a chicken wrap to go with the pasta. By the time I was finished with everything, it was time to go to my prac. It was boring and went for three hours, which is way too long. I miss doing the pracs as fast as you can and leaving. Everyone gets dismissed at the same for the biology prac.

When i got home, i took in my laundry and folded/ironed my clothes and put them away. Then i took my much needed nap for an hour or so. I had dinner which was leftovers from home and tried to study afterwards. Since i bought so many snack foods, i've been snacking constantly which is really bad, i shouldn't put the food in such easy access.

Tuesday:
Nothing much happened today. I was very bored and frustrated when i was doing titration in my chem prac. I couldn't get the three concordant results after 5 tries, so i gave up and packed up. I wasn't sure if i was supposed to leave or not but i saw other people leaving so i followed. At least i got to finish an hour early, it would have been earlier if my results turned out properly and i was working pretty slowly because i'm not used to the labs. its quite different to the ones at Monash. And we had to work on our own, i miss having a partner, it just makes it more fun.

My housemate made dinner tonight, it was green curry and rice which was pretty good. i really look forward to tuesday dinners because it means that i have someone else cooking for me and i get to try different foods. Although i think its my turn again in two weeks and I'm not sure what to make because all i can make is sushi.
So after dinner, i went for a walk because i haven't had any exercise so i felt bad for eating so much. Which leads to me right now, taking a break from studying.

And you guys are pretty much caught up.

Love Squealer.

We Are Birds.

I am currently listening to my psych lecture which i have been skipping because the lecture goes for two hours and i can't pay attention. Also it gives me a four hour break to myself to catch up on my sleep. I've been sleeping really late for the past couple of weeks, so i'm quite moody and tired and quiet in the mornings. So i am using this weekend to catch up on everything, which so far isn't working so well because i keep getting distracted but i am getting there very very slowly.

Lately, i have had far too much fan girling, so i'm thinking i need to go on a detox. Sometimes its really hard when the bands makes videos that induces so called fan girling. I think i just need a break, because every time i fan girl, i run through an excessive amount of emotions, a general euphoria, but there are definitely moments of sadness. I get insanely jealous when there are clips of their concerts because it is a harsh reminder that my experience is over and slowly becoming a faded memory. So hopefully this detox can help get back to my normal self, and keep me not distracted and help me concentrate on studying. In saying that, knowing me, i know i will find another distraction somewhere in some form or another. 

My perfume collection has expanded which i am really happy about although i did invest quite a bit of money into getting them. So there are about 6 or 7 more perfumes that i want to get before i will be happy with my collection, but the bad thing is that they are all pretty expensive perfumes so it will probably take me a while to buy them all. Also I'm in a spending ban, after purchasing all those perfumes, so now i can only spend money on food, actual food not junk food.

Am currently craving blueberries with pancakes, too bad i don't have any blueberries laying around.

Love Squealer.

I May Never Sleep Tonight

So lately I've been doing nothing but sitting, eating and on the internet. I'm not quite in the mood to go out for walks yet because I'm too lazy to leave the house. So being inspired by the dance videos by The Maine, i thought of a fun way that i can get my heart pumping and have a fun time while i'm at it. I thought it would be funny to record myself doing funny and stupid dance moves along to songs that i love, and then i can watch it afterwards. So far its been quite hilarious, nothing better than just laughing how idiotic you look. And its getting me out of chair yet still in the safety of my bedroom. Let's hope that no one walks in on me. 

It may look like i have a lot of time on my hands but really i'm just procrastinating. 

Yay my bracelet collection is growing. 

I have a feeling that half these bracelets will fall off because the string is pretty crappy. 

Love Squealer. 

Do a Little Jig.

YAY! New The Maine update, and to make it even better, it's a day in the life of Kennedy :D
Also this is another fan girling post which may lead me to say inappropriate things.
So here are the highlights of the video.

Oh no words, just incessant fangirling squeals.
I think he is trying to kill me.

I love how everyone else is just doing their own thing, as if Kenny dancing is the most normal thing, which may be normal but heck i think i have to a groupie (minus the sex part) to find out (or his wife, actually i would prefer the wife bit).

Love Squealer.

Shh, Just Go With It

Oh i feel so full, i ate too much but it was satisfying and i think i am loaded up on sugar so i'm on a buzz. Hehe let's hope i channel this energy into studying, just right after i get exhausted with the internet.
I should be concentrating on my other blog for school relating with pharmacy but that's no fun. It's my turn to write up a post and I've done half of it but i need to finish it by tonight. I also have an essay that i am meant to start but i am putting it off because i have no idea how to start and what to include in the essay.
Uni was pretty boring today, i skipped a lecture because i realized that it was the same lecture i had at Monash, so there was no point in me being bored twice. I was basically on the internet for all my lectures, and in my workshop i barely said anything, i think the people in my group probably think i'm a little behind because i can't come up with an opinion about anything, its because i don't have much of interest on our discussion, and i am not quite comfortable with my group yet. I think today was when i had the most thoughts about wishing i was at monash, usually i'm ok and don't really like to dwell on that fact but i was quite internalized today and in a pretty bad mood. Luckily the workshop finished early so i had another half an hour to myself, so that lifted my spirits a little. So i went to the library and try to print out some pictures. So I chose this photo of Kennedy i took at Soundwave to print out on an A3 sheet, i should have really sharpened the photo before hand because i was blowing up the photo quite a bit. So i printed it off and went to the printer to collect the picture. But it never came out. So i went back to my computer and suddenly i heard the printer started printing something, this was probably 7 minutes after i clicked printing, luckily i was still there, otherwise it would be embarrassing to have my picture there. Actually that has happened before when i was at Macrob, it took forever for the printing. It was a picture of high school musical. When i came back into the library a couple of hours later, my thing was there in the uncollected printing pile, i hope no one could trace it back to me. So back to Latrobe, the photo came out pretty blurry when you look up close but when its from a bigger distance it looks pretty good, i'm happy with it, i just wish that the paper was a little thicker though. So this is the poster.

I have quite a liking to taking photos on the webcam, its so much easier even if its really dodgy quality, but next week i will bring up my dslr so i can take better photos, i quite miss it when i'm here in bendigo. Sorry for the uber graininess of the photo. 

BTW, Heaven vanilla icecream is really nice, it has that authentic vanilla taste to it, if you know what I mean. 

Love Squealer. 

Empty Room

Ahaha, it's been a while since I have written a post during a lecture but I'm feeling quite restless and can't really pay attention and I'm not accustomed to his lecturing style. I rather be reading from the textbook. I'm now halfway through the fourth week and the amount of work and assignments is really getting to me, last night I had a list of things I have to complete but alas most of the work remains untouched. I think I have an addiction to the Internet, I cannot stop watching YouTube videos and last night it wasn't until 2.30 am where I was able to pull myself away from my laptop and tuck myself into bed. I'm going back to my old habits where I hoped I had left behind at monash but I still have my staying up late and waking early and groggy in the morning.

Y made dinner yesterday. She made veggie lasagna and garlic bread. It was so funny because everyone kept questioning whether she actually made it or not. I'm still anoittle unsure, maybe I need to actually watch her make it, yeah where's my trust? But the lasagna was pretty awesome and I love garlic bread in general. I felt quite bloated afterwards,I had eaten too many carbs but i guess it was worth it.

Then Y and I watched Pretty Little Liars season finale. I thought it was pretty good, although it didn't really answer a lot of questions. I accidentally spoiled it for myself a couple of days before when I googled The Pretty Littles band but google search came up with search for PLL. However there are quite a bit of revelations and the ending was not too bad but the ending was a bit anti-climatic. You need to suspend your belief quite a bit when you're watching PLL because sometimes they can be so stupid.

Love Squealer.

I Still Remember.

I love my bands, they are just awesome and so gorgeous.
Well because i've restricted my tumblr access, i have turned to stalking band's twitter and watching their videos and starting my silent fangirling. Wish i could express my squeals and squeaks of delight but its late and i have housemates who i am not really ready to show this side to, plus i can get very loud when i want to be.
When you think that they (the bands) cannot do anything else to make me love them even more, but yet i am constantly surprised. I think i love everything mundane thing they do, like swearing or even just saying hello, or laughing, oh i melt at their laughter.

hehe i liked this interview of The Maine, especially the end part where they played "Rock it or Fuck it"

The Maine - Interview by LeDailyLiveRockIt

And just for kicks, here's another video of The Maine doing an acoustic song,


Oh and this one of Garrett from The Maine dancing, they have more dance videos that i have watched countless times but i like this one for obvious (albeit creepy) reasons.

and this is me fan girling, i could show a full un-edited version video of me fan girling but i still have a little pride left in me, imagine my squeals coming out of my mouth (yeah where else would they come from?)

Oh for those looking for an update on my life,
Basically they have been consumed with music and watching these band videos and doing some general stalking. I should be studying more, but darn internet why are you so addictive? I thought with less time on tumblr i would concentrate on studying more, but i find myself looking through other blogs and chatting on msn to make up for my lost time on tumblr. The assignments are starting to pile up and i wish someone would tell what exactly needs to be handed in, they (latrobe) are so vague about assignments. Anywho these things are keeping me distracted from a lot of things that i have been trying to push back in my mind, which i am so grateful for, i hate getting stuck in a tangle of my own thoughts.

Love Squealer.

Without Hesitation

I've been watching the official video by Every Avenue for "Mindset". It was quite unexpected but i still love it. Dave looks especially dare i say hot in this one, looks younger.

I really like Dave's facial expressions and the other band members are so gorgeous. And i love when Dave was trying to eat the bubbles at the end. As you can tell, i am currently in fan girling mode. There are so many little moments about the video that i loved but i cannot be bothered listing. The girl was freaky when she was creeping up behind Dave. Although there was just a smidget of too much pink/girliness. Man i wish they would come back to Australia.

Love Squealer.

Ready To Go

I alway look forward to fridays, it marked the beginning of the weekend, where you can take a break from school and well do basically nothing and hang out with friends. This year, fridays are especially special because it means coming back to Melbourne. 

Today i was meeting up with S just to catch up and whatnot. I wanted to eat wedges because i have been craving them for a couple of weeks, so we went to buy some. But unfortunately there wasn't any sour cream which was partly what i was looking forward to, however there was sweet chilli sauce so its all good. Then we went to JB Hifi so i can buy PATD's Vices and Virtues which i mentioned in the previous post, and whose album i am currently listening to. It was exciting as i haven't bought a CD for a couple of years. I also found out that S hasn't bought a CD ever and that was shocking. So we were looking for some advertisements for the new cd but we couldn't find any. The CD was just located where the everyday CD's were, i was a bit upset because i thought they would have made a bigger deal out of it, maybe it was just this particular store? Then we browsed through some bargain bins  and we decided to live on the edge and buy a random CD, but S backed out but i got a CD for $1 so it didn't really matter my opinion of it anyways, fingers crossed they don't sound too bad. (avert your eyes from the photos below, if you plan to buy the album and haven't yet because there are some images of inside the album). 

Then S went to buy some wedges for herself and then we did our usual hanging out spot at Borders. I found that Miranda Cosgrove makes three times that Miley Cyrus and Selena Gomez make combined which i still don't believe but that's what Seventeen Magazine says. That is really shocking because she is not nearly as popular as the latter and she doesn't do as much as they do either, it was quite puzzling. 

I forgot to mention that on monday, i found a tshirt that says "Don't Stop Now" in Giordanos, which made me go in fangirling mode and had to buy the tshirt, Its meant to be an over sized tshirt but it fits like a dress on me, like the top part fits fine but its just extra long. But i might add The Maine symbol onto it to make it look more band-tshirt like, not just another slogan tshirt. I guess those who are fans will understand. 

Love Squealer. 

Nearly Witches

I have been listening to P!ATD's new album Vices and Virtues, and I'm in love, new music for listening. I think i shall buy the album, its quite exciting really, it's been a while since the last album. Although i am quite sad that they half broke up, but the music is still quite very P!ATD, maybe its because its still Urie doing the vocals. Its kinda like Brandon Flower's solo album, kinda just sounds like The Killers. Anyway the music is prompting me to study because its makes me feel motivated and happy. 

On Monday, I hung out with the Monash crew for a couple of hours before i had to make my way back to bendigo. I went dress shopping with R which was pretty fun, i just like looking at clothes in general. There was this horrific sight that i don't want to witness again. R and I were going back up via the escalators and there were these two young girls about 3 or 4. then suddenly one of the girls tripped and toppled over a couple of steps, you know the sort of scene you see in the movies. She rolled over a couple of times as the escalators were going upwards. I was so shocked for a moment, i couldn't move. She started crying and we ran up to her, and i checked her head to see if there was any bleeding, luckily she seemed fine. R and I were really angry at the parents because they weren't watching their children, they were standing at the top to the side smoking, and they just seemed to brush off the incident, but they didn't know what had happened. I felt so frustrated, i wanted to confront them but they looked intimidating. Yeah so that wasn't a good experience, there were so many worse things that could of happened to the little girl. 

Today (yesterday) was a pretty hectic day. I had a late start at 1 and all day i've been kicking myself for not planning out things better hence making me miss out on certain things. Anywhoo its all over so nothing I can do about it now. Tuesday was the start of our housemates cooking dinner for each other day, and i decided to make teriyaki chicken with vegies on rice and sushi, yes i stuck with what i know. It all turned ok, thank goodness, although it did take me longer than expected, it made me appreciate my parents more, and how this is something that they do everyday. Man, don't know how i am going to cook for my children when i become a mother. So dinner went by smoothly and i hope that no one gets food poisoning, there seem to a positive response, so thats good. Then we had a movie night with Y's friends, we watched Valentines Day which i like, but its not of the best movies out there. And now here i am writing a blog post while doing my chem questions. 

I'm feeling a little confused at the moment, I think back at my actions and behavior in the past couple of weeks and i feel detached from myself. I'm not sure how to describe it, maybe because i am changing quite suddenly, I feel like my old self is disappearing quickly, or i'm wondering this changed side of me has always been me and whether my old self was a lie. Hmmm sorry if that didn't make any sense. I guess i am still going through that awkward teenager phase, because i never really went through that phase years ago, and now every thing seems to be catching up. I'm uncertain about these changes in behavior, let's hope i can do some tweaking so i can be a person that i am truly happy with, although i didn't mind how i was before but i didn't really approve of my old self, but i was happy with it. Ok yeah so this whole paragraph didn't make any sense, it did in my head though, so sorry to waste minutes from your life.

Love Squealer. 

SOUNDWAVE 2

Well here goes, the final part of the Soundwave post. After a bit more than a week has past, the experience still rings in my mind, a constant reminder of the fun and excitement and all the fangirling.

SIGNINGS:
I was so excited for this, we had tickets to the signings of Mayday Parade and The Maine, and i was equally excited to see both. Mayday Parade was first, and boy was i estastic inside, they are one of my favorite bands and theres just this feeling of meeting them in real life.

So M, S and I waited in line, and we were coming up with different conversations we could start with them. I really wanted to address them all as "sir" but M and S said i shouldn't. I have this thing about calling older men Sir. So it was my turn, and i walked up to Derek (singer) and said hi and asked how he was going in a very high pitched voice, i did this with each of the band members and each of them looked up at me and gave me a weird look before replying. I then talked about their concert the day before and asked them if they were tired or not, and yes they were. They're weren't as talkative but Jeremy and Jake were nice and talking a little bit, i didn't mind coz i knew they were tired. I just loved staring at them, its the best thing ever.

Then we went into merchandise shed, and i got a Mayday Parade tshirt which was way too massive but i really wanted it, i contemplated getting a Soundwave tshirt but i didn't like the design. We then went back into the line for The Maine which M and I were super excited for, we love The Maine, the one of the best bunch of people ever. So we were eagerly waiting until it finally our turn, i went first. I can't remember much about talking to them, but the order was Pat, Kenny, John, Jared and Garrett. I basically asked them how they were all doing. I also said that i loved them at their concert last night and how it was so so short though, i was too mesmerized to actually remember their response. I was internally gushing over Kenny because he looks amazing in real life, well more gorgeous than he does in videos and photos. Then i asked for photos with Pat and Kenny, but couldn't quite get photos with the others because the security lady told us off, so i got scared. i asked Kenny for a photo, but i was shaking so much that i got a blurry one, then i apologized for shaking and he said its ok, i'll take it for you, and that made me heart melt. I got to John, and he said the tshirt i made for them to sign was cool, and i said thank you. i really wanted a photo yeah the lady was bothering me. I was going to go but then i waited for M because she was talking to John, and i half listened and half took awkward photos of Jared and Garrett, i wasn't sure of how to talk to them, i used up all my social skills by the time i got to them. But yeah afterwards, I just felt this immense electricity and rush of euphoria through my body, like i was in such a disbelief that i had just met The Maine. 

photo i took 

photo that Kenny took, isn't he hot? X)

After our signing, we had a little break so we just stared at The Maine through the window. it was such a good sight, but i wished we were besties with them so we could just follow them around. We walked around a little and then it was off to another band. 

30 SECONDS TO MARS: 

Well i only stayed for about 2 songs because i wanted to see another band. They were pretty amazing, the crowds were crazy and massive. I didn't know any of the songs, but i bopped along. We were pretty much very far away. Jared Leto's outfit was very nice, i liked his blue jacket and red gloves. I didn't stay for the whole set, but in the last song, Jared got people to come up on stage and everything. Apparently the things that Jared said were pretty random and funny. 

EVERY AVENUE:
I was looking forward to seeing this band, i loved their songs and i missed out on going to their signings because of some clashes. When the lead singer came out, i thought, oh my. And then they started singing and it was amazing, it was so good. He didn't say much to the crowd but the music was just the best, i loved their live music, and it made me wanting to go their sidewave even more. Well theres not much else i can say but there was this girl in front of me who was so tall and she had her hair in a pony tail and when she moved along to the music it kept going into my face, and that really annoyed me but i couldn't move around. I swear i just wanted to rip the pony tail out.

SPOTTING PAT AND KENNY:
After Every Avenue, I met up with S and M and we were talking for a bit and suddenly S pointed out that The Maine well Pat and Kenny were outside. So M and I immediately ran outside, naturally. we were waiting to get our turn for another photo. Then i started stroking Kenny leather jacket, it was quite soft, M was like WTF are you doing?? And i told her to join in so she did. There was this girl next to us who was laughing.
Then we got our photos and i wanted to touch Pat's hair but M said not to, otherwise he would be freaked out. So yeah that was a good experience, then they had to go, so followed them but they went to backstage area which obviously weren't allowed to go.

FOXY SHAZAM: 

This band by far is one of the most unique and interesting bands that we have witnessed. Each of the bands members were quite eccentric except maybe the drummer. The lead singer would say the most random things, i have no idea how he came up with it, and he had the weirdest dancing ever, his body felt very fidgety. It was intriguing to watch and definitely entertaining. I guess you just have to watch the videos to see what i mean, but i can't be bothered uploading them, maybe in the next posts. Also the guitarist had interesting pants on. And i liked their mustaches, music wise they were pretty good, but i think the antics of the lead singer kept me entertained the most. 

THE MAINE:
What i have been waiting for all day long, luckily as soon as Foxy Shazam finished, M and i got to the front which meant we were pretty stoked because the best unobstructed view. But the bad thing was that we had to wait a while for their set to go on. We were waiting, and then we saw Derek, we shouted to him and then he looked and gave us a wave and smile, which set us into fangirling mode, that made us very excited and happy. And then Pat came out to tune his drums, which was pretty awesome, it just made us more excited for the set. Then it was finally time for The Maine, they all walked out to a crowd of screams and cheers including a fair share from M and I. They pretty much had the same set as the previous night but with two more songs. I loved that we were in the front way, it gave us such a good view, and i could take more photos. It was so so amazing and good and fantastic and basically every other synonyms for such words. i was so into it and the best thing was that it was much better being pushed against the barricade than into other people. John said the most random things, and we cheered for everything that he said. He was drunk on stage hence explaining his randomness, and he was still drinking. But he still awesome and seemed liked he had control. Kenny was so good, we had a great view of him because he was in front of us, i kept staring at him, oh man can't wait until we get married, then i can stare at him as much as i want and our children would be the most beautiful. Getting sidetracked. I loved how Garrett was moving around the stage, he was getting really into the song and just going crazy with his movements, which was fun to watch. Again i thought their set was also short but at least we were at the front so that made it alright.

MAYDAY PARADE:
Another band that i was really looking forward to and they didn't disappoint although i wanted them to sing more songs from their new album because i was more familiar with that one. Most the old songs that they sung were from their old album which i didn't really know the words to i just made them up. The guitarist and singer made a lot of eye contact with us and i just mouthed the words when they looked over, i like how they walked to both sides of the stage and gave us sufficient time to have a look at them and whatnot. While they weren't much for talking, there were still captivating to watch on stage, its is really amazing to see them having so much fun on stage and how much they get into the song. it makes you love them even more and appreciate their music. I loved every moment of it, and i was just so happy to see them. They sung kids in love which is one of my favorite songs, and i was ecstatic, singing like crazy. Also found out that i don't have the best shouting singing, you would know what i mean when you hear one of the videos.

THE GASLIGHT ANTHEM:
This band has a funny history with us. we acutually discovered this band in Myer when it was playing but we were too scared to ask for the band name, we got some lyrics and googled it. By the time we got to see them, they were already playing, we just in the back and listened. They were pretty good but i didn't know much of their songs even though i have listened to their albums. But they did sing the '59 Sound which is one of their hits and i got really into it and singing along. There was this hippish girl who was really into the band, moving along and singing. And there was this group of guys in front of us who were in about in their late twenties, and clearly drunk, but they must of been fans of band because they were singing along. Anywhoo they were doing funny dances, they kept us entertained :) It was a nice ending to our day, we were tired but felt so so satisfied and just so happy. 

There you go, my Soundwave experience, just keep in mind that this is not a detailed account of what the day truly was but it would take me forever to get that post written, you guys just have to know that it was one of the most epic experiences of my life. I think we were spoilt with the line up with so many of favourite bands. I hope that one day, you guys will be able to experience what i have, or if you already have, snaps for you. You're probably sick of my talking, so i'll sign off here. 

Love Squealer.