puppies

so i am currently sick, and because i haven't been resting, i have just been moping around work, doing things at a  colossally slow rate and complaining with my friend about how much we want to be at home. yeah i have the weekend off so hopefully i can get better by then. i have paw paw ointment all over my nose and mouth, because they become sore when i'm sick, i don't know why my mouth gets sore but i use crappy scratchy tissues on my nose and it goes pretty red, like in those kleenex commercials. i really just want to stay home, i don't really care about the money anymore, i want to get better and make my nose unblocked.
i wish my life was more eventful, but i'm a pretty boring person who spends way too much time on her laptop and in bed. i can't wait till i get more time off work, so i can start doing the things my friends and i had planned for the holidays. there are a lot of things that we wrote down, mostly random and most likely end in giggles and plenty of laughter, or maybe some humiliation as well.
Love Squealer.

Tis the Season

Merry Christmas! Keep safe and have fun with whatever you have planned.
Christmas isn't much of a big deal in my family, its really another day, i mean we celebrate Christmas but not exactly on Christmas day. that kinda makes me feel sad inside, the feeling that it should be something special but isn't validated. it makes me think about my future and how i am going to celebrate the crazy out of every holiday/birthday. i love gatherings and celebrations but i am also socially awkward, so maybe it depends on the gathering. i love being with my friends, its an indescribable feeling to be around them, its just makes me so happy. i wonder where i would be if i didn't have any friends and i know i wouldn't be able to get through a lot, especially this year.

on monday i went to my friend's house for some hanging/bumming around time. hehe because i have work in the evening, i spent more time on public transport than i did at her house, usually i leave pretty late so it was so weird to leave so early. anywhoo we spent half the time transferring our videos files and then watched Get Him to the Greek, which i must say was a major waste of our time. It's one of those dirty humor comedies which personally i don't really enjoy, about halfway into the movie, none of us really understood what was going on or the point of the movie. Then we watched 10mins of Dorian Grey, which seemed intriguing. we should have watched that movie instead of get him to the greek. then Y and i had to leave which was sad because we probably won't get together until news years.

then i had work pretty much everyday this week, its been pretty intense and there were so many people doing some last minute shopping. however i have been in the shop lately rather than outside so its not too bad but i am starting to miss the outside because it does seem more fun and i'm closer to the promo people. But its so crazy, the customers always block the walkways and you get some pretty annoyed people. when it get busy, you basically shout to get testers and i think that scares some of the customers, yeah it does look a little unprofessional but at least the system works. whenever i work with testers, i always spray them in the wrong direction either in my hands or face, and sometimes its gets in my eyes even if i am wearing my glasses. also i have a rash on my hand and it stings when i get perfume on it.

on thursday, was the pharm people christmas party organised by Y, who did an amazing job by the way. there were heaps of food and stuff. i felt a little bad that i made basically no contributions. i was able to use the barbeques and i made myself being in charge of turning it on. Also i appointed myself foil and oil person, but i couldn't spray the oil properly so the oil mist didn't quite reach the foil and would blow in the direction of certain people. apparently some people got sunburnt because of the reflection of the foil and and oil, but i swear it wasn't my fault. it took a while to cook the food, it kept sticking to the foil so i went crazy with the oil spray. then it started spitting at one stage so we had some umbrella holders. i had a sausage but i was full after that, i think i have lost my appetite because of work, i don't feel like eating much anymore, or when i am hungry i usually just ignore even if my stomach is grumbling like crazy. there was a playground and that was pretty fun, i love the swings and i was able to take some photos, although the sun was a little too bright. it was sad that i had to leave early because i had a 12 hour shift afterward 4pm-4am, which means i shouldn't have been out in the morning but i should be getting some sleep. but i really wanted to go to the party and i am so glad i did. it was sad that i missed out on hanging with V and R but hopefully we can have another thing soonish so i can see everyone again.

my long shift at work wasn't too bad, it got really busy right up to 2am, and i was like why are there still people going shopping, and some of them were families with kids, and i felt sorry for them. by then i was pretty tired and i was working at a really slow pace. but luckily there weren't that many people. there was this one couple who were being annoying and i didn't really have the energy to deal with them. they were frustrated  because they left the christmas shopping to the last minute and didn't like most of the perfumes that i had shown them. but in the end they finally got everything, and i made a pretty big sale. i knew i shouldn't really be tired because thats the time i stayed up everyday for swotvac (not because i was studying though). yeah so i'm just taking it easy before boxing day, where i have another 12 hour shift, which i am actually looking forward to because its triple pay. although i don't get to go shopping its really ok because i don't need much. except for a few certain products that i have my eye on that i would like to buy but i don't mind if i don't get it. i usually like going op shopping more anyways, so i cannot wait till i can go op shopping again and get some summer clothes.

on a random note, there has been a lot of spiders in my house lately and it is scaring the creeps out me.

Love Squealer.

end of a decade

on thursday, i went on an adventure and it meant waking up early. i thought we were going to sleep on the train but i think we were too excited to see each other, i know i was because its been a while since we have caught up. although i was pretty tired and sleepy, i didn't feel like sleeping. it was nice to have my friends come along, it would have sucked if i had to go by myself. one thing i would like to mention, there were so many locusts flying around, one of them flew and banged into my face and it make me feel so disgusted. i'm not really a fan of insects, i wish i wasn't so disgusted/scared by them. anywho, i would like to apologize to my friends, the process took way longer than i thought compared to how i had done it before. it made me pretty annoyed and that may of shown. i hate it when i'm in a bad mood. afterwards, we went to have lunch and make nachos and go exploring. overall, it was a pretty fun day although i didn't take many photos, and my backpack was pretty heavy. hehe all of us brought our backpacks along. i would like to say more about that day but i really can't.

so basically, thursday was the only non-work related thing that i have done this month.
i was working yesterday, and it was extremely busy, and it's so hard to keep track of everyone and everything, hope nothing was stolen. i've forgotten how busy it can get, and it's going to get crazy in the next couple of days and especially boxing day. everyone is rostered on for boxing day and apparently you get triple pay, so i'm excited to get paid. also i can't wait to do my tax return this year because i have quite a bit of tax deducted from my pay this year. and i have to do my tax return from last year which i am pretty sure you can still claim right? i think my other friends were able to do that, because i have quite a bit of money from tax deductions last year, and i can put it towards my new camera.

i've been thinking a lot about my life lately at work, because there's alot of down time, so i kinda just stand there and think/daydream which i think looks bad to customers because it takes a while to capture my attention. customers always catch me at the wrong moment, when i'm yawning or fixing my hair, gives the wrong impression. anywho, i am thinking about the direction i want my life to take and i was thinking of what my life would be like in the near future and it has made me a little sad. i'm just really grateful for the life i have now and i don't want it to change because i don't adjust well to change, or its take me ages to adjust to change.

Love Squealer.

Floriental

So at the moment, i am juggling reading three books: Elixir by Hilary duff, 7th Harry Potter and The Unbearable Lightness of being. I am most further in the Hilary duff book, it is pretty good so far, and the writing isn't to bad but i don't quite like the pace of the novel, it seems to have a slow development and the novel isn't that long. I take ages to read nowadays because when i get home from work, i'm too tired to do anything using my mind. Anywhoo i can give a better review when i am finished with the novels.
One of the things about working in mychemist, is that there a lot of nice giftsets especially this time of year and it makes you really want to buy them. i don't need it myself but i always wanted to get it as a present for someone else and then i realise that i have no one to give it to, also i can't keep it myself because i have a lot of perfumes but then again.... There's this mens giftset which is a Ralph Lauren one, and it has miniature bottles of the pony perfume range and it is so cute, quite useless for me because i am a girl but i really just want to buy just to have but its also $70, i would get it for one of my guy friends but i think thats a bit much to spend. Also in addition to the giftsets, there are also cheap perfumes that i don't need but also want to buy, like the burberry london and versace bright crystal, but if i were to buy them, it would be for someone else. when i used to work at spotlight, i used to love looking at the fabrics and wanting to buy a lot of them as well. i should work in a place that takes temptation of buying stuff. My friend was telling me about the staff discounts at other mychemists and chemist warehouse, and usually the staff discount only applies to non sale items, but apparently at chemist warehouse in footscray, they're dodgy and do the discount on sale items as well. i really want to try this out. so if you guys are with me and need to grab anything from the two stores, i can get you guys a discount because sharing is caring and i like the feeling of using the staff discount, makes you feel like you're part of a club. yes i know that sounded lame. i like to avoid buying things from the actual mychemist that i work at though, for some reason i find that awkward, its the same reason why i don't go to the spotlight i use to work at anymore. oh yeah another observation this year, less Vietnamese customers have  been asking if i speak viet this year, last year i kept getting asked that. anywho i like to pretend that i don't speak Viet because its pretty bad and i don't like anyone else hearing it. or maybe its just that i don't look Viet?

haha, just used my voicemail for the first time, i sound quite scared in my message. anywho i just listened to one of the messages and it felt quite weird. i wonder if any of you guys ever leave messages, because i know in america they use it a lot, but that is my generalization from watching gilmore girls. i never leave a message when i get prompted to a machine, because i sound awkward and i don't know if anyone actually checks them.

Love Squealer.

Still Breathing

today was the christmas family picnic thingy that we have every year. i like going to these things because i get to see my second cousins who i only see a couple times a year. they are so cute that i want to squeeze them to death. oh yeah the reason why we have these gatherings is because we have KK thing in our family. there are a lot of kids in the family so this way it saves us money and everyone can get presents. But when i grow up and have my own family, i want to do the whole christmas thing and buying presents for everyone, because i like buying presents for everyone even though it can get frustrated when i don't know what to buy but its usually fun. the gathering was at a park in kew, and for some reason it's fun going through rich suburbs and lusting at the houses. anywho i have these two cousins, lets call them A and B who can get attached to people and this time it was me. no offence i like them and all, but they were annoying me. they kept wanting me to push on the swings and they were so demanding, like saying "higher, higher" and i'm like "you gotta be patience" but ignored me as well. also they were perfectly capable of swinging by themselves so that annoyed me even more. also i wanted to hang out with my other cousins who i haven't seen for ages and i see A/B quite often. i know they're still young and all so i felt a little bad about the way i treated them, i wasn't being mean or anything, i just ignored them a bit, which made them more angry.
i should have brought my dslr but then i decided against it, but now i'm kicking myself for not bringing it. it would be nice to have some photos of my cousins and plus i haven't use my camera for a while now.
it was a really nice day and the weather was so good, maybe a little too hot because i was in my jeans. and i got sand in my flats, i didn't like that feeling.

Love Squealer.

Rooftops and Invitations

i want to run away to america and start my life again, but with no disposable income and being quite immature, that plan would most likely fail. most of the decisions in my life have been relatively easy despite me being indecisive and usually i've always had the path carved out for me and just really taking life as it comes. so referring to the decision i have to make in the previous post, i still don't know what to do and i think i might choose the wrong choice for the wrong reasons because i tend to do that. anywho it would be nice to run away to america, or at least go to america sometime soon. there's an exchange program in pharmacy where you can go to work in america which i am really hoping i get into when the time comes. i think my friend and i made a pact that if we don't get in to the program, we're going to go to america anyways for holidays that end of the year. but then i realized that is still 2 years away which is really a long time to wait for something that i've always wanted to do since i could remember. i wish i could live with my cousins in america for a bit during holidays, but i'm not really close with them so it would be a bit awkward, and i think they're second extended family if that makes sense, so not really intermediate family (wait, is your intermediate family just your own family, ok that didn't make sense, so hopefully you guy understand the jist of what i am trying to say). yeah that would be nice, but i don't think i would be allowed to do that.
also if i do go to america, i want to try to be an extra or random in as many tv shows as possible, especially glee, and i would like to be in gilmore girls but you know thats not possible.
i feel a bit guilty since holidays started, i've been pretty much working, and doing basically nothing else. just work, eating, sleeping and copious amount of lounging around in bed and watching videos. i think i'm going to gain quite a bit of weight which is bad because i was hoping to do the opposite.
oh yeah i'll let you in on some work drama, but too bad i missed it. a new girl got fired a couple of days of ago, apparently she didn't show up for her shift and didn't call in or anything. so my manager called her up and the new girl asked if she could come in later, and my manager said "don't bother coming in at all." so yeah, my manager is getting more stressed out than usual because she has to do the timetable again and she needs more staff. anywho there are two new girls working and they're so young, still in highschool and all. i haven't actually worked with them yet but apparently coz they're new and all, they're very shy and still unsure of working with customers, which was like me when i started. but i think the staff are really nice and really helped me learn a lot. so hopefully i can be that helpful to the new girls, also i may kinda like that position of power and all-knowing-ness. i think i am really fitting in with work, much less awkward than last year, i'm able to talk more comfortably with the other girls. there's also another new girl, who i really enjoy working with, but she i am kinda jealous of her because she's really good sales person and gets along with others so easily even if she only just started. but i am always jealous of really sociable people, not fully jealous because i've dealt with the fact that i am always going to be socially awkward and uncomfortable. anywho, this new girl is pretty helpful sometimes i pawn some customers so her so i don't have to deal with them. thats sounds really bad but i think  the customers are better off with her. it sometimes really good because you can get some annoying customers who get mad at you even when you have no control over the situation. so you guys know that i work with the fragrances, and for some of the perfume, we don't have any testers and that really makes some people annoyed and mad but its something that i can't control. i always suggest for them to go to the perfumer store which is like only 30 seconds away to try the perfume there, but they're still pretty angry. seriously if you want the perfume to be that cheap, don't you think it's worth it? But those type of customers are minor, most of the time they are really nice.
I shouldn't really use this blog as a ranting outlet.

Love Squealer.

4 5 looks

so i had a work meeting today and it was alright, nothing much happened, just the usual reminding of the runnings of the store. other than that, my day has been quite boring just lazing around and watching tv shows. i've been meaning to go out on an op shopping adventure but i have been quite lazy and oh yeah i haven't found the time as well. yesterday i went shopping with Y but i didn't really buy anything, just a couple of books because it was cheap. we signed up to the borders vip club because you get a $20 voucher so everyone get to that stat. Y went dodgy and took a couple of cards but i only took two. so i cannot wait to spend the voucher, also i haven't received some of my books i ordered yet and in a couple of days i have to email them to complain, i was really looking forward to reading Hilary Duff's novel, but the thing is, the whole time i'm reading it, i would be wondering if it was Hilary who wrote or her ghost writer, but i like to believe that Hilary wrote all of the book, and the ghost writer edited the novel.
on sunday i had the Christmas work dinner, which wasn't too bad, i'm still the quiet awkward one. i ordered a chicken parmigiana and it was so so massive, i wish i had taken a photo of it, i only ate a quarter of it because it was just so big. actually their portions are pretty massive, so it was pretty good value, but we didn't have to pay for the food anyways. i felt kinda bad because the waitress asked us if we liked the food and i was like "yeah it good" even though my plate was practically still full. i don't really like it when people ask how the food is, because i will always say its good unless it was really really bad.
i was looking forward to having an op shopping trip tomorrow but my manager called me up to ask me to work, so i'm really itching to go op shopping. at least on friday, i am going to badminton in the morning, and if i get asked to come in earlier, i am going to grow some balls and say that i can't work. i mean, all of the time that i have been called in for extra work, i obliged because i really had nothing to do anyways.
i'm looking at my work timetable for december and i am working like crazy which isn't too bad, because then i would be saving up heaps of money, i'm trying to beat the amount of money that i made last year because uni really eats away with my money, with all the going out and stuff.

So hopefully i can go out somewhere and take some photos so my posts aren't so boring :)

Love Squealer.

can't think of a title.

Sorry for the lack of updates, its been a hectic week after finishing my exams on tuesday.
so ok, let's go back to tuesday. the exam was not too bad but it wasn't great either, kinda suffered from a mental block so that wasn't too good. after exams we went for dinner at Red Silks, which i have never been too. the food wasn't too bad but it was a bit pricey. my friends and i shared a six person banquet which we didn't quite finish. tis was quite fun but i was excited for my wednesday.

so wednesday was the day that i start back at work, it wasn't too bad but i had to adjust to spending a lot of time on my feet. time went by went a bit slow because it wasn't that busy but it was okay, i was a little impatient for what was going to happen that night. so i got home and Y and M were already there, they were early but nonetheless i was very excited to see them. so they bought some stuff for their costumes, so we were painting the ties with gold, because wait for it... we were dressing up as Harry, Ron and Hermione for the 12am viewing of HARRY POTTER. i'm not a harry potter fan fan but i love getting swept up in the craze and its fun when you're with friends, also because we haven't seen each other for a couple of weeks. Also we watched the latest episode of glee together and it was pretty good, the miniature characters. after that, we went to safeway to stock up on some food for the movies. it's so fun shopping with friends, we got a big bottle of coke and decided to bring some cups into the theatre with us. before we left to go for the movie we watched a quick running of the sixth harry potter movie to catch me up. so we all got dressed up and made our way to the cinemas, when we saw the carpark and it was packed, we got a little worried. we arrived at around 11 and it was pretty packed and we were scared that we weren't going to get good seats. so we got tickets and lined up, the theater was pretty crowded but we got some seats at the back, wasn't too bad at least we were at the front. we were like, "next time, we are going at 9." oh yeah when we arrived, everyone looked normal and we started to feel like losers, but that feeling died because we were buzzing about the movie. a couple of other people were dressed up too so it was ok.

so the movie was amazing, even if you're not a fan of HP, it is still really good but thats really my opinion. the plot was close to the book (according to my friend and now coz i am halfway through the book i agree, its weird reading the book after the movie) and the extra stuff gave it a really exceptional touch. You guys just have to see it for yourself and tell me what you think of it. i might want to start reading Harry Potter again, darnnn why do i get soo into HP when in six months it would be over which btw i cannot wait to watch part two.
So we went home at around 3.30ish and had a little photo session outside. we were taking photos next to a tree until M saw the biggest slug on the tree which made us all feel instantly dirty and grossed out.  but we did get some good photos. but for the next movie we are going to have the most epic costumes with robes and whatnot.

ewwwwwww.

Then i went to sleep at around 4ish because i had work at 10 the next day and had to wake up at around 9. so i was a bit sleepy and tired at work but i got through the day even if i was a bit slow and out of it.
And the next day i also had a twelve hour shift which was not too bad because i can use the register now, and i got to work inside the store for half the shift which was so much better. you can move more and lessen the monotony of working with just the perfumes. now i've got a couple days break until i start work again. i'm going to actually start my holidays and go out and have fun. however my legs ache a little so hopefully that will go away soon.

Love Squealer.

the story of us

Need copies of Harry Potter and The Order of the Pheonix, Half-Blood Prince and Deathly Hallows stat.
I realised that i needed to read three books before wednesday night. i don't think i will have time. ok so i kinda already knows what happens in the five book and i downloaded the sixth movie. hopefully that will catch me up, i want to make the most out of this Harry Potter experience i as i can, even if i'm not a hardcore fan. its not too hard to get swept up in the fever. seriously i can get myself into anything if everyone else is, unless its something that i really don't like. i was thinking of getting the box set of HP but it doesn't come with the original covers that i wanted and plus its $85, which is pretty cheap but i'm not sure i want to spend all of that money in one go. ok so  heres the game plan, try to go to highpoint tomorrow(today) to buy a copy, if i cannot, then on monday before my exam, i will wake up early to buy a copy, get to caulfield racecourse early and start reading my brains out. i don't think that is a really smart idea because i might be a little stressed out just before the exams but its just a plan for now, and i hardly ever follow through on my plans anyways.

yep thats pretty much an update of my life, am currently cramming some PHS info but i'm not too worried. just wait till tuesday and then summer holidays for me :) although i have work for the rest of the week starting from wednesday. hope i can still remember how to sell perfumes and actually sound legit when i make recommendations, i don't think customers believe me when i say a perfume smells nice, i thinks its my tone. even though i would like to be working at the back with medicines, working on just the perfumes is less pressure packed.  hopefully i can get to use the register this time, i hate it when its busy and a customer is looking at me and waiting for me to serve them but then i just stare back at them. its not my fault i can't serve you. deal with it.

and so its not a image-less post, here's a photo from the past. i like how it squeezes everyone in, that didn't make any sense, but looking at it makes me feel nostalgic even if it was only 5 months ago.

just for kicks, you guys can play a guess who game. ok so this game is highly bias and i doubt i have any readers that i don't know in real life so it shouldn't be too hard? or you can just totally ignore me.

Love Squealer.

Slow Decay

so very lack of substance today (yesterday). i spent most of the day lounging around watching daria. i have been going on a downloading spree and after exams i have a list of shows that i want to download. they are mostly childhood cartoons like pepper ann, rugrats, arthur and sabrina the teenage witch. except because they were made before the time of digital stuff, its hard to find the files to download which is really a bummer. I've watched half a season of daria and i can actually appreciate it now because i can fully understand it. the last time i watched daria was in primary school, so i couldn't quite understand it but now i do. i cannot wait to start reliving my childhood :)

can't wait to watch all five seasons and the movies, i have a feeling i will go through it pretty quickly, luckily there are other tv shows i can watch at least.

Oh yeah, i had a major breakthrough today, i think i am ready for my physiology exam, i suddenly realized that i know most of the material and i just need to touch on a few things. so that made me feel not too bad, but i am still a bit iffy about PHS, most of the psychology stuff i can make up and because i did psych before it won't be too bad, but there is so much stuff to remember. hopefully i can get it all it in my head.

well off now.

Love squealer.

this is absurd.

helllo.
i would really like to go to spotlight now because i got a voucher but it ends on sunday and the only thing stopping me from going is that i have an exam on monday which i am so not prepared for, darn that guilt. anywho i'm hoping that i have studied enough so i can go to spotlight on sunday, now i just have to explain my absence to my parents and why i would be going out on the day before my exam. i hope i can sneak out, i would be able to stock up on some fabrics in time for holidays sewing sessions, also because of the voucher, i can spring for the more pricey fabrics which is always a bonus :)

i went to school for a study session this morning, tis was normal except everyone was filling a little dead. I didn't have enough hours of sleep so i was feeling a little dead too. My mind felt weird, kinda feel it wobbling around in my head, also kinda hurt a bit. it was such a good day today so it was nice to be out, i would have stopped by spotlight but i was hungry and wanted to go home and plus i was tired.

so i was in a mood for fried stuff because i haven't eaten much fast food lately and so i had really bad cravings. i decided to make some nachos chip, kinda inspired by lord of the fries except way less healthy. i think lord of the fries is relatively healthy, or is that just something i have been telling myself to believe. also after the chips, i made some icecream cookie sandwiches, to really top off my unhealthy meal. it was all pretty yummy, but now i feel so bad because i haven't been exercising lately, but i told myself to exercise and diet after exams. the weather is warming up so it would be nice to go for runs in the good weather.

now these are my tickets, boy i feel so rich and powerful having this, totally invalid and superficial feeling though.


Love Squealer.

PS. My blog titles comes from songs so they are mostly irrelevant to the post itself, so maybe now i should really note where the title comes from.
Long Live-Taylor Swift.

Long Live

hello, haven't posted in a while. my life has been boring.
on sunday night i had food poisoning which didn't really feel good, only had around 2 hours sleep and had to get up the next morning for a study session. The whole day i was feeling really down because i wasn't really feeling like myself but it was alright because i was spending half the day with my friends. when i got home, i didn't really have any energy so i just slept for ages. I tried studying at night but then i was still really tired so for the first time in years i went to bed at 10.45 and slept for around 12-13 hours, woke up, showered and here i am.
i was a bit annoyed because i missed out on a half a day of studying which is going to put me behind, and i feel like i am not going to remember anything by the time the exam swing around. but its only a week until exams are over and then i can look forward to Harry Potter, which reminds me, i haven't gotten around to reading the books yet and i don't think i am going to have time, hopefully i can squeeze it in somewhere.
so yeah that was probably the most exciting thing that has happened to me since the last time i have posted.
oh yeah i start work straight after exams, which money flow, which is very much needed for the summer holidays.
i am in the mood for some really nice expensive decadent cake, maybe a chocolate one.

Love Squealer.

Please Don't be in Love with Someone Else

So today i woke up early to snag some tickets to The Maine, We The Kings and NeverShoutNever sidewaves concert which i am so so looking forward to, the only problem is that its under 18, so i spent the rest of the morning learning how to make I.D cards and searching up high schools. Hopefully our ID cards are valid because i am looking forward to concert even more than Soundwave itself, but only by a tinsy bit. So i have the tickets, and now a three month period to wait and have some anxiety attacks over, lets hope it would all be worth it and you will see me moshing like there's no tomorrow :)

These aren't mine, i got it from tumblr. But i wonder how they got the tickets already?? My is taking about 2 weeks to get sent and the tickets just got from released this morning. Nonetheless, I'm excited to receive these in the mail.

my crappy collage that i whipped up because there is no poster of the concert yet. hmm wonder if i could steal one from an info pole if they ever stick up a poster...

I am in love with Taylor Swift's new album, my favourite song i think is "Haunted." Well you guys should give it a listen if you liked her previous music, its very typical taylor but the songs are a little more mature.

Oh yeah, i was watching the first episode of Hellcats, and at the start they played "I like to Dance" by Hot Chelle Rae and had a mini fan girling moment, but i had to do it internally because it was 2.30 in the morning. i love when things happen like that, when a song you love/like gets played on a tv show, like i remember watching a korean drama and "the Climb" came on in the background, i don't think the music was meant to be there but yeah i had a little spaz.

Love Squealer.

i am screaming inside

quite possibly had the worst exam ever today. and there is nothing more i can say about it except it was bad.

Anywhoo, don't really want to dwell on that, so i i'll tell you about another thing, I went to the lolly store this morning to buy some racing cars lollies as a treat for the exam but then *drum rolls* i found some relatively cheap heartbeat lollies. so after 3 years, they finally kept their word. See, i have been looking for heartbeats for a while and i asked the lolly store if they were ever going to stock them again and they said yes, but then they never did. so yeah now they have heartbeats. i don't why i am so obsessed with them, they're not even my favourite lollies but i think that fact that they were scarce is the reason why i wanted them so much. You know that thing about "wanting what you can't have" jist.
for those who don't know what heart beats are, they are a hard lolly in a shape of a heart individually wrapped, inside the wrapper, there is the most lamest saying about love. i like the strawberry flavour the best.

this one says "True love...nature's second sun".

ok there's nothing more i want to say. but i just want to bash every gossip girl character, they are seriously annoying and have very breathy whispery/whiny voices. I'm only watching it because i really want to know what happens, even though i can maybe guess, i just have to know.

Off to recoup for my next exam.

Love Squealer.

a shot

Being anal when it comes to buying new products is such a pain, you find fault with every product you look at and then you end with no options. This happened to me when i was looking for a new phone, and when i eventually bought one, it turned out to be a not so fantastic phone, and after all that researching i did looking for new phones. Well I am going through this process again searching for a new digital camera because it seems like time for a new one, and also i have had my canon for 4 years and it has served me pretty well. Anywho, everytime i settle on a camera that i want, it is either not sold in Australia or it is too expensive. But i have decided on one camera but i am leaning towards not buying it, because when you use the flash, the lens obscures the sides. I know i should be studying but it is bugging me that i have not settled on a camera yet. i have a few models in mind, so i think i am going to the store to try them out. But i hate going into the store and bothering the sales person when i think i won't even be purchasing the camera, or i would feel forced to buy the camera. i guess its the only way i can tell if the camera is right for me, anywho these are my options, i am really leaning towards the pentax one but i already have a pentax slr and there hasn't been many reviews about this camera, but i do like the colour.

pentax rz10

canon powershot s95

sony hx5v

sony wx1

panasonic tz10

I might like to mention that half of these are out of my price range, but there's really no rush to buy the camera. i just have to buy it before march/Soundwave. So hopefully i can expect some price dropping because there's always new technology coming out. Also if anyone has an opinion to which one i should choose, please help me. 

I have been really slacking off studying even if my exam is literally tomorrow. i feel like i know the material well enough but then i get stressed out when i am trying to recall the material and i feel like i cannot remember anything. oh well i have all day tomorrow to study, so i'm really not worried. Just trying to convince myself that i really do remember the material and that my "worriedness about not remembering anything" is impeding my recalling abilities. 

i feel like i need to get out of the house, all i have been is studying, eating, napping and catching up on tv shows, its not my fault my brother just got a better internet deal, very bad bad timing, i have downloaded so many tv shows. 

Oh yeah i forgot to mention, i ended up going to my work place on thursday, and after an hour of wandering around and sitting outside the store, i finally worked up the courage to go inside. i felt so nervous, it was kinda the feeling i get before an exam that i haven't really studied for, i kinda felt sick. i hate socially awkward situations and because i haven't been in my workplace for a year. But i have done it and i still have my casual job which is good and means i can refresh my bank balance. so i guess that's settled and i don't really have to worry anymore, but i kinda still am, because i said i can work from the 16th of Nov onwards, meaning excluding that day, but i think my boss took it as i can start working on that day, and i was too nervous to correct that so now i am hoping so hard that i do not have work on that day, i mean i did say after the 16th. oh dear, why can't i handle myself better???

Oh yeah Happy Halloween!!!

Love Squealer. 

haunted

taylor swift's album came out yesterday and while i have listened to it, i haven't really heard it because i like to multi-task so my concentration doesn't really focus on the songs. i guess the songs are a bit more mature and there are not as many 'up-beat' songs as her last album and yes they are all about love. anywho when i have had a proper listen, i shall let you know my opinions.
so lately i've been studying but i feel like it hasn't really been productive but i am getting there, i wish uni had more practice exams and that they have answers to them.
I've been sleeping really late these past weeks, at around 4, i do try to sleep earlier but i can't. i am so awake at that time and i try to force myself to sleep. i think i have too many thoughts running through my head so my mind is quite stimulated. so i'm forcing myself to sleep earlier so i get enough rest for the exams, luckily my exams are in the afternoon so i get a sleep in and also theres less chance of rocking up late. but also during that time, its is also my sleepiest time or the time when i take naps. i hate how it is so easy for me to sleep during the day but so hard during the night.
Oh yeah i been having weird dreams where Veronica Mars was my friend.
In one dream, we trying to solve a case about this man who had killed someone. we were at a swimming carnival and trying to take some photos of people, i got to hold her camera. i don't remember much after this.
in another dream, we were at melbourne uni and looking for another guy. he went up in the elevator, but we didn't make it on, so we took the stairs. then we had to climb through a window but i got separated because i couldn't fit through the window, so the rest of the dream i was looking for her. and i did end up finding her, she was outside and hanging out with friends from real life. ohh trippy. ok so maybe i should stop watching so much veronica mars.
on another note, i want to start bringing disposable cameras around with me, they are so much more fun to use and it doesn't matter if you lose it as well, better than losing a digital camera.

Love Squealer.

i was enchanted to meet you

so this week i have spent more time on tumblr than i have on studying, which is pretty bad considering that i have an exam in a week. i'm just not feeling the stress yet which means i won't start fully cramming and studying properly until i feel that stress. i just can't get off tumblr, i have to leave my laptop downstairs when i'm studying. man where was my life before tumblr???

anyways, i'm sure i am going to hardcore study soon... maybe..
theres only a couple of weeks left until summer holidays, and i am meant to go my work and let my boss know when i can start working but i haven't been in there for a year and it will be awkward going in there, so i keep putting it off but i told myself to go on monday, otherwise i will punish myself by maybe banning myself from tumblr or something. well my life has been pretty boring lately, i think after exams i should start doing some more outfit posts and make use of my tripod and go on a photo taking day . my friends  and i have list for the holidays and maybe i can add some sort of checklist on this blog so we can make sure that we set out to do everything that we had planned.

i have this craft itch lately, i want to do anything crafty but i cannot commit any time at the moment you know coz of exams. i keep seeing pretty invitations on tumblr and i have been inspired to make some. but the thing with making invitations is that you kinda need a purpose for them like an event. so i cannot wait to host something to make some invitations. my birthday party this year i just the oh-so-original facebook event, so i didn't quite get the chance, also i wasn't in the mood to make invites and also because my friends are kinda separated (as in i don't see them every day, not in the sense that they are divorced :]) so it was hard to make invites. maybe i can make a masquerade party, i've always wanted to go to one, its like in the shows and movies and the instant you put on a mask, you cannot tell who the person is. and i always thought that it is so so so so obvious who they are!!!!!

Also i am in love with collars, on my tumblr dashboard, there is a billion posts about girls in pretty clothing, and i really love all the different collar designs, i especially love peter pan collars, i think that has a lot to do with the child in me who is still refusing to grow up. i was just wondering there are so many photos of people on tumblr and most of the photos don't really credit back to the original owner, so i wonder where all these photos come from and i wonder who is the person in the photo, and when i am bored i like to come with their life story which is a pretty fun past-time.

I was on the train on friday and a group of high school girls came on so naturally i was staring at them, no ok so it didn't come naturally, it was because they were talking pretty loudly and they were putting on makeup. i thought to myself, i feel so much younger than they are, and they were probably around year 11, and i don't want to sound judgmental and mean but lets just say look "mature". but then i was thinking to myself, do i look older than them? because they looked pretty old, according to me but then i am incredibly bias. i tried not to stare at them well looking at them without them noticing because they look like a bunch of girls who could beat me up. anywhoo that was pretty pointless paragraph.

sorry for the lamo post, but thats all i can offer you now, unless you would like a detailed account of my studying hours.

Love Squealer.

p.s all images from tumblr, let me know if i violated some crediting issues.

Elixir...

HILARY DUFF WROTE A BOOK!!!!

I cannot believe i did not know about this until this morning, i think its only been released for a week and i am so jealous of the people who got to the book signings, hehe imagine that "I met Hilary Duff in Borders!". But yeah why can't she come to Australia to promote the book, or come to Australia in general, more specifically in Melbourne so i can stalk her, or get the chance to meet her. Apparently the book has been getting pretty good ratings but i told myself that i can only order the book after i finish my exams, otherwise i would be so tempted to read it, i am so so looking forward to reading it. I'm so excited. Hilary is so amazing, she has always been my idol, although i find it a little shocking that she didn't go to college which is a bit iffy for me but she is still amazing. oh wells, she has done basically everything, i think she now needs to write and direct a movie or something. Anywhoo just thought i share this piece of information to the world.

I should really get back to studying now, I'm not being very productive, I keep forgetting everything I'm learning partly because i didn't really learn it well in the first place. well i've still got some time before exams to study so i am not very worried. i usually get around to doing the things that i need to and it has worked for me all my life.

Love Squealer.

Speak Now

I should really stop listening to Taylor Swift's leaked songs from her album because by the time the album comes out, i won't listen to it anymore. anywho i'm listening to "Speak Now" which is apparently the new name of her album. Its obviously about love but its like grown up love well not love in high school anymore. "Speak Now" is about a girl stopping a wedding because she liked the guy and she knew the bride wasn't right for the guy. I like the song itself, but something about the message bugs me. I don't like the whole idea of showing up to a wedding to stop it, except maybe in Shrek. I mean i would hate for someone to interrupt my wedding and tell me that the guy that i am marrying is the wrong guy. And also if the guy didn't want to marry the girl in the first place, why didn't he just say something? Nooo he is going to be a weak person and let his lover do it for him. Ok maybe that was a little harsh and maybe i don't know the whole story and its only a song. Other than that, if you take the song for its love value, its pretty sweet i guess.

The past week has been pretty uneventful, the last week of first year uni went by normally, nothing special happened. thats the thing i miss about high school, when it is coming to an end, you can tell with the less amount of work and celebrations but at uni, its just like any other week. The last day was pretty fun. we did the whole badminton as usual and Y finally came after a year of forcing her to come, i wasn't really playing very well so i just spent most of the time with Y. Its sad to know that i would have to wait another month to hang out with the group but i guess it is something to look forward to. i wish i did a course that didn't have exams but i'm not really creative, artistic or can write which are the usual courses that have assignments. anywhooo, after badminton, half the group went with B to his sister's apartment, it was raining pretty heavily and hung out in the foyer which was really warm and nice waiting for B. I pretended that it was my house and we were watching tv, ok so i like to use my imagination, i loved playing house as a child.
so then we made our way to lygon street to eat at universal. the food was pretty good, but i wished i bought an entree because i couldn't finish the main. i ordered a chicken, mushroom and bacon in cream sauce pasta which after a while got a little too creamy which usually happens with creamy stuff. Then we went to Koko Black for dessert, they told us to sit outside because our group was a little big, i think some people didn't want to eat there anymore, so they got up and left, me and nug and V kinda felt bad so we decided to tell one of the staff because they had turned on the heaters for us. So we made our way to Max Brenner, where i had chocolate licks again but me and Nug wished that we had sneaked in strawberries like last time :) Then we all split up to go home, i got home at around 9.40, i didn't realized it was a little late. Yep overall very fun day though very few photos.

Over the weekend i did pretty much nothing except go on tumblr and watch Veronica Mars, because my friends gave me season 1 for my birthday. then i started making my friend's birthday present late sunday night because i didn't think that it would take that long but indeed it did. i made a set of pjs and a tshirt and half a dress. (i hope she doesn't read this because i've only given two thirds of the present ). i thought the t shirt was awesome, i made a mustache tshirt, wish i had taken a photo of it but i finished it really late last night, like really really late. (if you're S and you're reading this, please skip the next three lines :]) when i was making the dress, i didn't realized that it would turn out to look like a school uniform because its a blue dress with a white collar but i hope that once i make the scalloped hem, it would look less like a school dress.

 this is the fabric i used for the pjs, i have a huge roll of this fabric sitting in my room for a couple of years now

this is the cut out of the mustaches i used for the t-shirt, so imagine this in black felt on a white tshirt. 

So i went to sleep at 4.40 and then had to wake up at 7.30. And i have been feeling weird all day. i couldn't really concentrate while i was studying at school. i think i fell asleep while listening to a lecture. yeah i am doing pretty badly with my studying, i keep forgetting everything that i write down and its so hard to memorize the equations and mechanisms. oh wells i've got two weeks. oh yeah i met up with S in the morning which was pretty good but it was quite short because my train was running late, haven't seen her in a while and don't think that i will until after exams, maybe i could organize a study date and J too. ok so my study dates are an excuse to meet up with friends during exam period but i swear i do get some studying done.

Oh Veronica Mars, how can you be so awesome??

So basically this week will be full of cramming for my upcoming exams. Hopefully the studying works and i get into exams actually know what i am doing.
I better go now because my head feels funny, the feeling i get when i haven't gotten enough sleep.

Love Squealer.

again i go unnoticed

 My form group. 

my methods class. 

coincidently around 13% of this class is doing pharmacy, 3 including me, there's a fun fact for you, see if you can guess who as a fun game if you're very bored. :)

Its weird that just a year ago i was graduating high school and thinking that my life would be going downhill. i loved high school, a place where i got to spend copious amount of time with my awesome friends, being ahead and actually knowing and understanding the school work that i am doing, participating in events and just having the time of my life, where i was still a child and the responsibilities weren't such a burden. I will always miss year 12 and its weird i was not ready for uni, partly because it wasn't in the course that i wanted to do but i guess i eventually gotten used to it. i mean uni feels like highschool anyways with less contact hours. i wish i could have that full uni experience where i feel like i'm part of a special community with its own facilities and vibrant life. but instead i'm stuck on small campus with nothing, luckily melb uni is just down the road, but i haven't been there for a couple of months anyways. anywho i am down to my second last day of my first year of uni, and boy it has gone by so fast, and then the much anticipated summer holidays, where i will working again (i hope, i'm not quite sure if i've still got my job or not) and making money and so so so much time to hang out with friends.
ok i'm sorry guys if i mention my much anticipation for the summer holidays, but seriously it is all i think about. if you could divide up the attention of my brain it would 50% summer holidays, 20% tumblr, 15% soundwave, 10% friends, 4% uni work and 1% other random things.

I got my book (perks of being a wallflower) yesterday which was quite bad timing, i had two tests today which i had to study but i was so eager to read my book so i did that instead. Very bad idea because i was so clueless in the tests, oh wells, i always say i'll make it up in the exams which i surely do hope for my sake that will happen. I need to maintain my average if i want to be considered for the exchange program in third year which i am so so excited for even if i haven't been accepted yet. but i told my friends that if we don't get into the program, we have decided that we will go to america for holidays that summer holidays. I cannot wait and in anticipation for my american trip, i am trying to immerse myself in American culture and try to speak with an American accent but i am failing horribly. Me and accents don't mix, i have the worse accents, they don't even sound like anything, maybe i should get a speech therapist? are they expensive? well the reason for the immersion in american culture is because i don't want to look like a tourist and i want to blend in and be an American. Do you guys have any tips on how to be an American?

Love Squealer.