saturday's the day of pre-rest

geez my weekends have been blurring into one

every one is the same

i always spend time contemplating things to do

but end up watching stuff on my laptop

i wanted to go to camberwell market but sleep in till 11

i was gonna go highpoint but realized i'm a tad broke

there was a makeup sale i wanted to go to

but guess what? it didn't happen

also planned to do all the textbook questions

well i did half, is that good enough?

apparently not because i don't understand what i'm doing

and exams are creeping up very quickly.

but i did go op shopping

and here are some of the things i got.

well some i got on my other op shopping trips

but i have time now to take photos and post them

so why not? and it makes my post seem longer. =)

I'm going to crop this shirt/jacket 

hehe, a tad wrinkly.

yay another vintage bag!

i never seem to have much luck when finding these vintage bags 

so i was pretty happy to find this one and at a really good price. 

add in a little studying and

a bit of liar game and to finish 

a dash of my inspiration. 

you get my weekend. 

Love squealer.

vindicated

hehe look at our feet

looks gross, eh?

yeah i didn't do the beep test

i did the 1km walk instead

so much better but i kept trying to run

yeah exercise is not for me

even when i try to exercise everyday

never happens...

well it was raining this morning

and very very cold!!

and yesterday it was pitch black.

and yeah i know excuses excuses.

anywho i calculated VO2-max which indicates your fitness

and guess what, my fitness sucks,

i was hoping for something a bit better

and also i think i have high blood pressure

and i wasn't even excited.

knock knock

who's there?

pineapple

.......

(from gilmore girls)

Love Squealer

but i'll be on the floor dead

stupid stupid stupid

note to self: never volunteer for any sort of physical activity 

especially if that certain activity will kill you. 

yes yes tad overdramatic, 

but i volunteered to do the beep test 

which is very stupid because

a) i suck at running

b) my fitness level isn't that great

c) i tend to hyperventilate and sweat heaps by the end

thus combining to create a very embarrassing moment in my life 

man i don't want to look like homer simpson, 

getting tired after running 2 metres!

i didn't mind doing it in school sport in front of people i know 

but this is uni and i hardly know these people. 

enough rant, suck it up.

for some reason, i always think that people have this grudge against me 

i think it's in my head, as it usually is, but i can't help but to feel tension

hmmm, confrontations aren't my thing 

also it could be my imagination.

i really like demi lovato 

love love her voice 

except for the fact that she's dating joe jonas 

not because i wanted to be his potential girlfriend 

but i just don't like him, he annoys me 

well i'm just judging from my limited view of him 

but i'm sure if i got to know him, he is an alright person.

nawww. puppies!

i really want a Pomeranian, 

but mum says i would never look after it. 

Love Squealer 

the bendigo life

last weekend, i went up to bendigo to visit my best friend 

along with three other friends. 

it was one of the best weekends of the year 

quick outline: 

caught 7.15 train to bendigo 

took 2 hours to find my friend's place

(got off wrong bus stop and had mislead directions)

nonetheless, let's just say that was an adventure albiet a very tiring one

spent the day watching videos

found out that vampire diaries is very boring 

had a nap, had a short walk in the night to pick up some friends

tried to take photos with my new slr. 

some friends laid on the road. 

stayed up to 4 talking 

complaining about our lack of new uni friends

and how macrob girls always hang out together. 

my best friend somehow guessed my mystery friend.

sunday morning: 

pancakes for breakky 

make orange and poppy seed cupcakes

added too much orange rind and juice 

was very bitter and gross

also shoved in a bunch of poppy seeds hehe

but smelt nice though. 

and then went home.

we had so much fun and it was sad to leave.

thanks Y for the weekend. 

hopefully we can crash bendigo again 

and actually do some sight seeing. 

making sushi in Y's room 

jelly joys we ate, man that stuff is addicted

sorry for the bad photo quality

making breakfast and cupcakes

stayed tuned

love squealer. 

we're all in this together

i've been really happy lately, 

and no it's not because of uni

i'm still waiting for that day

well technically, a part of it does make me happy

i get to see my friends and it gives me routine, 

so so so i'm getting there but still need a big big push. 

and and i saw my friend today and i haven't seen her in ages

and and i'm going to bendigo this weekend to visit my best friend

oh yay and chorals this friday

ohh i might just burst of excitement!

a big ball of happy

and if that wasn't enough, 

i took the plunge and bought a dslr camera

i made the decision and had to act fast 

otherwise i will talk myself out again. 

i love love love it, 

if only i could use it properly 

but i haven't time to take some good photos because lighting hasn't been good 

and i've been coming home late so really crap lighting

but i've got to stop thinking about that 

coz it drowning my happy spirit.

my new baby...

it came in so many different colours

which unfortunately wasn't available in australia

it's like my laptop all over again.

but i have taken heaps of photos

though they're pretty bad and useless. 

i got the camera for $680, 

and i feel kinda guilty for getting it at that price. 

i should of done better research, 

i just assume jb hi fi would have the same prices

but turns out the city was the cheapest 

and i found that out after i put a deposit on my camera

well i bought my camera in a package 

and tried to haggle down the camera price, 

then i went to refund the additional items the next day 

so that's how i got that price, 

but should i feel guilty? 

jb hi fi in the city was selling for $680 with no haggling 

so maybe jb hi fi east keilor should feel bad.

here are some of the better photos 

nothing mind shatterring but i'm still learning!!

ahaha, that's right, 

the famous fluro orange cardigan

oh how i love you so. 

it's even brighter in real life 

i would get a better photo 

but as i said there wasn't much good lighting 

so i just took it with a flash, which in dlsr cameras

don't look so great. 

or maybe that's just me. 

hoepfully i can get better 

otherwise i would be wasting money. 

this may seem old news buttttt

i finally got glee off my friend (thanks VAN!)

it's really good, but personally i like high school musical better 

but this comes a close second

i love how off-centred it is and all the remake of the songs

problem is i should be studying......

Love Squealer.

Obsessed

Why do I just lie awake And think of you. I need some sleep Tomorrow I have things to do

Everytime I close my eyes I see your face So I try to read But all I do is lose my place

Am I obsessed with you? I do my best not to want you But I do all the time, I do all the time

Obsessed By Miley Cyrus

this is exactly i feel about a certain someone these days.

actually i think this is the first that i've told someone,

yes to you guys, don't you feel lucky?

i'm not the sort of person to divulge in the personal details of my life

yes yes, let's fester our problems and thoughts into a tumor.

i don't really have anyone that i can talk to about these things

well there's my best friend

but i hardly see her and we haven't been hanging out

just us two lately.

i think i come off as really needy in my messages to her

but i miss her so much and i don't have that many friends

and certainly not many friends that i can totally relate to.

well yeah but that someone, i think it started as a little crush

but it's grown everytime we meet,

(granted we haven't met for that much)

i feel so happy whenever i'm with that someone

i dunno, i'll probably never initiate anything

because i'm really scared of rejection

and i guess not having anything

is better than risking everything for a maybe good outcome

but there's the rejection which i don't want.

yes i'm chicken. yes you can cue the chicken noise.

but that's all i'll say on that subject.

because sharing this makes me feel really weird.

i'm so glad this week is over,

i had two assignments and a test to do

ok i think i failed the test because i didn't really study

properly, ok shoot me but i don't like physiology!

that's why i didn't do biology

and i don't like learning a chunk of information

and regurgitating it out. i hope i passed

but there's a huge chance that will not

so that means i have to really ace the exams

so that means i have study,

which is not really working at the moment

because i'm not that dedicated

and nothing sinks in when i read my notes

and do questions so i don't know what to do.

ekkkk, help me please!

and its 3 day weekend which means i shall try to study

wish me luck and hope that i won't be sleeping that whole time

or blanking staring at my notes and then getting angry

and resulting in me ripping up my notes.

poor notes it's not their fault

that their owner is crazy.

ohh i am soo excited for chorals,

which my high school's musical/dance/acting thing

it is so cool and always so funny

and the singing is so amazing

yes i do have a soft spot for really good singers

they give me chills because they're sooo good

but then it reminds that my voice sucks

and makes me depressed that i can't sing.

anywhoo it's on in one week

and i can't wait!

here some outfit posts,

just some outfits that i wore to uni.

sorry for bad photo quality,

i really want a slr camera

but they're sooo pricey.

nothing fantastic but i thought you guys might appreciate it

or not, up to you.

t-shirt: op shop 

jeans: cotton on 

hat: op shop 

knit jumper: vintage from op shop 

jeans: sportsgirl

Love Squealer.

we've got magic to do

hey guys

sorry for the lack of posts, i've been pretty busy lately

studying it up (not really) for uni

because i have been slacking off for the first couple weeks.

anywhoo not much has happened during the past couple of weeks

i haven't seen my old school friends in ages and i'm really missing them

i keep saying my life sucks

because nothing is going the way i planned

and the only thing i guess is keeping me going is that

hopefully next that i will be in bendigo next year

with my best friend.

right now i'm in a lecture

and it's really boring,

i'm finding it so hard to pay attention in lectures

i have a really short attention span. hehe

although i know i should listen

because exams are coming up sooon.

on another note, i've been planning my 19th birthday

i still have no idea what to do

because i can't decide what to do

there's too many choices

and i can't decide whether to have a small intimate party

or a big one

not that i can ever have a massive one anyways

because i don't know that many people

darn me being antisocial

i love being antisocial it's fun,

though it does't help with the awkward silences

when i'm with someone

most of the time i have nothing to say

it's only to a few people that i can talk to

but it's like i'm not trying,

i swear i try, granted not very hard.

i've been going op-shopping a lot

because it's one of the few things that make me happy

and i want to start up a clothing line

so i can sell some of the clothes that i make

but i never have time

i hate being so lazy and plus i've got to concentrate on my studies

otherwise i will fail in which i will fling myself off the building.

i don't think i have accomplished any of my resolutions for the year

here's hoping that i find happiness with my life soon.

Love Squealer.