different place, same reaction

well i know i've said this a billion times

a billion and one...

i wish i was more witty or talkative in general 

i know there some close friends whom i can always keep talking 

but most of the time i'm a mute

it's because partly it takes me ages to think of something to say 

or i really don't have anything to say at all 

sometimes i feel so awkward hanging out in big talkative groups 

because i usually don't talk and i feel self-conscious 

and that i'm not contributing anything 

except for the rare yes/no, that's cool 

you know those generic phases that i oh so rely on 

i used to be not so bad in year 12 but in uni 

for some reason it's so much harder for me. 

yeah that has always been a problem for me 

and i have no idea how to fix it 

i guess i don't mind spending most of my time 

studying by myself in the library 

but i don't want to be like that in 5 years 

heck i don't really want to be like that at all. 

and it's making uni that much harder

because i already don't like my course. 

in other news, i think i'm going to fail my exams

i seriously don't know anything 

and whatever i try to learn never sticks 

and exams are so soon, i'm starting to freak out. 

but but the bright side is my mid year break. 

so heaps of time for laziness, op shopping and hanging with my friends. 

part of my wardrobe, i'm hoping to accumulate more clothes so i can colour coordinate them 

and it actually looks like a rainbow or you can actually see the progressive colours

my favourite celebrity couple, i do have real life favorite couples too 

does that sound weird? 

i was going to put up a picture relating to the actual post 

but i found nothing relevant, 

hence the random pictures. 

Love Squealer