you're whacked.

i ate alot again 

and now i'm sitting here 

drenched in shame that i ate something unhealthy

and know i shouldn't

boy i never learn, 

but the food is so good 

i mean it's not gourmet food or anything

it was just chicken nuggets

but i had cravings so i caved 

i'm not a very strong person 

i give in to anything really. 

do you guys day dream a lot? 

in addition to my normal sleeping dreams 

which are surprising normal, 

like me going to school or going shopping 

or talking with friends, 

i do have weird dreams but never like supernatural or magical ones

if you know what i mean

yeah i'm not crazy or anything

but for some reason, some dreams

i think really happened 

like once my friend said she was on a cover of a magazine 

(in the dream)

and so (in real life) i was going to the library 

to check out the magazine, 

seriously i was walking towards the magazine section 

(with the intention of looking for the magazine)

and then i stopped and realized it was a dream, 

yes freaky and i reiterate i'm not crazy. 

anywho whenever i'm bored 

i always let my mind wonder 

and dream of different scenarios 

just relating to my life, 

like what would happen if i lived in "highschool musical" land 

and let me tell it was great  =)

and what would my daughter look like and

what happened if i had a daughter at 16 

(yes obviously influenced by gilmore girls)

and where would my life be in five years. 

point is...that it's fun to dream 

but just don't blur that line between dreams and reality 

and this is seriously bordering onto "whose reality" topic from year 12 english 

so i should stop here. 

(from we heart it)

crazy lights, 

which is the opposite of what i am 

ok ok i may be a little crazy 

but my grasp on reality is perfectly fine. 

Love Squealer. 

teach me tonight

one of my favorite scenes from gilmore girls 

it might sound silly but whenever i watch gilmore girls 

i try to avoid the episodes where Rory and Lorelai are fighting

because it upsets me. 

i think my favourite scene would be in season 6 episode 8 (i think)

where Rory and Lorelai are reunited after a massive fight

 cried so much during that one scene 

i also cry during Rory's graduations. 

ahh gilmore girls, how i love you so. 

i cannot find a balance

i'm usually dead mute or really really talkative

and today i was really loquacious

maybe it was the last day of classes and i was excited 

i don't know why because exams are coming up 

and i am so screwed, she said for the umpteenth time. 

i feel so sorry for my friends especially V 

who unfortunately is at the receiving end of everything 

see now i see her more hours a day than last year 

coz we only had two classes together last year 

oh and i keep saying 'dude' a lot today 

have no idea where that came from

anywho we were having lunch 

and for some reason i kept questioning everything 

my friend did for lunch 

what she had, why she had it, how she ate....

you see i would stop myself but i seriously couldn't 

so then we established that i have no brain-mouth filter 

i just say things the instant they come to my head

which put me (and my friends) in quite awkward situations later

at least i haven't done my referencing everthing to

gilmore girls thing that i did to T.(yes you know who you are)

anywho we were on a tram 

and we started talking about a guy that my friend was just talking to 

the thing is i think our conversation was pretty loud 

and turns out the guy was still on the tram 

so he may/may not have heard us 

yes embarrassing moment one

and then another thing happened, 

a guy was trying to walk past us to get off 

and when the tram stopped he lost his balance and tried to grab a pole 

instead he fully grabbed my friend's shoulder 

and literally seconds after that happened 

i say rather loudly "did he just?"

because i initially thought he touched her shoulder on purpose

and i'm pretty sure the man was still within earshot. 

nice one jenny. 

badminton was pretty fun but due to my suckyness in the sport 

i was overly reliant on my partner

meaning that they did most/all of the work 

i'm sorry, but you guys are just too good, 

i really need some people who are at my levels. 

i came home earlier than usual with the intention of extra studying time 

but here i am, procrastinating once again. 

the only picture that i found most relevant to my post 

in the short amount of time 

because my internet is capped

and i'm really impatient. 

Love Squealer. 

snow and i are through

oh why is it so cold. 

and i cannot find a good neutral temperature

when i turn on the heater it's too hot 

and when i turn it off, there's a cold breeze coming from nowhere. 

not much to report here, 

uni's going ok though it couldn't hurt to be more interesting 

i've settled into a routine 

and i'm slowly able to open myself up more

oh that sounded weird, 

what i mean is that i'm able to be myself more

you know, that squealy, sometimes lost/stupid, 

high school musical obsessed girl that i was in high school.

oh i finally bought band hero over the weekend 

it's so fun but not so much when you're playing by yourself 

singing is so much easier in band hero, 

you don't actually have to have the right notes

(in beginner that is) dude i am tone deaf 

so i will epically fail in hard mode

and the drums are so hard as well 

i'm so un-co and also the guitar is hard

man i need to practice more

but i have to wait until after exams.

holidays are coming up so that means i can host a party 

and i have entertainment so that's good

i love hosting parties

and hopefully everyone will come 

i seriously don't have the best track record

for the percentage of people who actually rock up. 

a random photo of some of my bracelets

i like wearing bracelets 

but i'm scared that the noise that make will annoy people

in the lecture 

and i hate it when other people make noise. 

Love Jenny. 

you're doing what?

yesterday i went to our weekly badminton playing 

well weekly isn't the most accurate description 

(for me anyways) 

but i will try to make it every week now. 

it was pretty fun but everyone plays really well 

and i really really suck 

first of all, for some reason i am now scared of the shuttlecock 

second, i can't aim the racket and shuttlecock 

and third i can never be bothered to run. 

although i am getting better, 

so hopefully i can be able to play more proficiently by the end of the year. 

oh and another, i got wacked in the arm by my friend

she was smashing the shuttlecock and hit me along the way. 

yeah now that spot in my arm is sore

but surprisingly there is no bruise

so that's a plus i think. 

oh and a funny thing is 

that whenever i see someone i dunno 

usually a friend of a friend, we start talking but i have no idea who they are

and our mutual friend doesn't give any introduction

so we actually don't know each other's name 

someone didn't know my name until we met the third time 

but i knew their name through my stalking 

haha not really, my friend told my who they were. 

anywho that has happened a few times 

and i feel so awkward when i introduce myself 

because it feels like i'm doing it at the wrong time 

which i guess i am, 

but it's better than referring them to "hey....um..you...".

a few days ago, 

we were having a discussion about emma watson

about how pretty and rich and smart she is 

just pretty much admiring her. 

and thinking she's the richest teen in the world 

but i chose not to believe that because i think miley cyrus is the richest.

which was time to turn to trusty google...

by the way, emma watson was born in france.

but we didn't find out much current news

except the fact that she is very rich and so is miley

i had no idea there were opening a harry potter theme park

pretty cool for someone who was never really into harry potter.

(referring to me)

whoa the phone's so loud,

it sounds like there's another person in the house 

my mum is talking too 

and she's downstairs and i'm upstairs.

EDIT: i now have a bruise.

Love Squealer

PSAT-errific!

today was a pretty boring day 

nothing much happened, except i was able to crash a melb uni chem lecture

yeah it was boring but it was fun for the first five minutes 

there's so many people in the lecture theatre 

compared with pharm, oh and there are less asians. 

and i can tell that everyone is smart 

so that put a little damper on my spirits

not that they were high in the first place

i'm on a shopping ban at the moment

because savers is having a 50% off sale soon 

so i need some money to spend 

and i'm using it as a reward system 

so the more i study the more i get to spend 

but the thing is reward systems never work for me 

because i give in to myself and just end up rewarding myself 

even if i didn't do the thing i was meant to. 

i guess especially with exams coming up, 

that should be motivation to study 

i mean my mind is telling me to study 

but my body just ain't in sync with my mind 

i always have these day plans and to-do list 

in my head but you know

my body won't cooperate. 

it's been a while since my outfit posts 

partly because i couldn't be bothered

and i need to get a tripod so i can adjust my camera to a reasonable height 

blue cardigan: red berry 

shirt: vintage(thrifted)

skirt: vintage (thrifted)

tights: big w

you can see a hole in the toes

my stocking always get holes

even when they're really think 

also note the shirt is the cream one from 2 posts ago 

so have a look there for a closer look 

also i didn't actually end up wearing this 

because i usually take photos the day before when i'm deciding what to wear

i changed into black skinny legs. 

also i don't really like taking photos like this 

but i haven't learnt the focus properly on my camera

so this was the easiest way. 

cream blazer: mum's

dress: thrifted (more photos from two posts ago)

grey tights: big w 

yeah i also changed a bit with this outfit 

i wore a denim jacket instead of the blazer

it's weird because i haven't worn a denim jacket in a 8 years 

i felt really self conscious wearing it. 

Love Squealer

different place, same reaction

well i know i've said this a billion times

a billion and one...

i wish i was more witty or talkative in general 

i know there some close friends whom i can always keep talking 

but most of the time i'm a mute

it's because partly it takes me ages to think of something to say 

or i really don't have anything to say at all 

sometimes i feel so awkward hanging out in big talkative groups 

because i usually don't talk and i feel self-conscious 

and that i'm not contributing anything 

except for the rare yes/no, that's cool 

you know those generic phases that i oh so rely on 

i used to be not so bad in year 12 but in uni 

for some reason it's so much harder for me. 

yeah that has always been a problem for me 

and i have no idea how to fix it 

i guess i don't mind spending most of my time 

studying by myself in the library 

but i don't want to be like that in 5 years 

heck i don't really want to be like that at all. 

and it's making uni that much harder

because i already don't like my course. 

in other news, i think i'm going to fail my exams

i seriously don't know anything 

and whatever i try to learn never sticks 

and exams are so soon, i'm starting to freak out. 

but but the bright side is my mid year break. 

so heaps of time for laziness, op shopping and hanging with my friends. 

part of my wardrobe, i'm hoping to accumulate more clothes so i can colour coordinate them 

and it actually looks like a rainbow or you can actually see the progressive colours

my favourite celebrity couple, i do have real life favorite couples too 

does that sound weird? 

i was going to put up a picture relating to the actual post 

but i found nothing relevant, 

hence the random pictures. 

Love Squealer