Rooftops and Invitations

i want to run away to america and start my life again, but with no disposable income and being quite immature, that plan would most likely fail. most of the decisions in my life have been relatively easy despite me being indecisive and usually i've always had the path carved out for me and just really taking life as it comes. so referring to the decision i have to make in the previous post, i still don't know what to do and i think i might choose the wrong choice for the wrong reasons because i tend to do that. anywho it would be nice to run away to america, or at least go to america sometime soon. there's an exchange program in pharmacy where you can go to work in america which i am really hoping i get into when the time comes. i think my friend and i made a pact that if we don't get in to the program, we're going to go to america anyways for holidays that end of the year. but then i realized that is still 2 years away which is really a long time to wait for something that i've always wanted to do since i could remember. i wish i could live with my cousins in america for a bit during holidays, but i'm not really close with them so it would be a bit awkward, and i think they're second extended family if that makes sense, so not really intermediate family (wait, is your intermediate family just your own family, ok that didn't make sense, so hopefully you guy understand the jist of what i am trying to say). yeah that would be nice, but i don't think i would be allowed to do that.
also if i do go to america, i want to try to be an extra or random in as many tv shows as possible, especially glee, and i would like to be in gilmore girls but you know thats not possible.
i feel a bit guilty since holidays started, i've been pretty much working, and doing basically nothing else. just work, eating, sleeping and copious amount of lounging around in bed and watching videos. i think i'm going to gain quite a bit of weight which is bad because i was hoping to do the opposite.
oh yeah i'll let you in on some work drama, but too bad i missed it. a new girl got fired a couple of days of ago, apparently she didn't show up for her shift and didn't call in or anything. so my manager called her up and the new girl asked if she could come in later, and my manager said "don't bother coming in at all." so yeah, my manager is getting more stressed out than usual because she has to do the timetable again and she needs more staff. anywho there are two new girls working and they're so young, still in highschool and all. i haven't actually worked with them yet but apparently coz they're new and all, they're very shy and still unsure of working with customers, which was like me when i started. but i think the staff are really nice and really helped me learn a lot. so hopefully i can be that helpful to the new girls, also i may kinda like that position of power and all-knowing-ness. i think i am really fitting in with work, much less awkward than last year, i'm able to talk more comfortably with the other girls. there's also another new girl, who i really enjoy working with, but she i am kinda jealous of her because she's really good sales person and gets along with others so easily even if she only just started. but i am always jealous of really sociable people, not fully jealous because i've dealt with the fact that i am always going to be socially awkward and uncomfortable. anywho, this new girl is pretty helpful sometimes i pawn some customers so her so i don't have to deal with them. thats sounds really bad but i think  the customers are better off with her. it sometimes really good because you can get some annoying customers who get mad at you even when you have no control over the situation. so you guys know that i work with the fragrances, and for some of the perfume, we don't have any testers and that really makes some people annoyed and mad but its something that i can't control. i always suggest for them to go to the perfumer store which is like only 30 seconds away to try the perfume there, but they're still pretty angry. seriously if you want the perfume to be that cheap, don't you think it's worth it? But those type of customers are minor, most of the time they are really nice.
I shouldn't really use this blog as a ranting outlet.

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