i'll bleed my heart out just for you

sorry for the lack of updates, but i wanted to let the previous post sink in and stick in your minds because that night was very important for me and one of my best experiences.

just also wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY R!

so basically the past couple of days i have been in a post-concert sadness mood, i cannot describe how much happiness i have from the concert and i miss it terribly. starting uni a week earlier than most of my friends didn't help my mood either. uni is alright, just the same as semester one, but i am still not motivated to learn or study or pay attention. you see, when i got my results, i did pretty well considering my lack of studying so that wasn't really a push to try harder this semester. i thought i did really really bad so i didn't study the UMAT all holidays because i thought it would be pointless but now i'm kinda wishing that i did. ahh why do i make such bad decisions?? yeah so back to post-concert sadness, i've been listening to the songs non-stop and even during lectures to try to bring back the memories. two of my favorite songs by Hot Chelle Rae is Bleed and Distance. bleed is quite sad and i was in a store and the song came up and i was on the verge of crying. partly because i miss the Hot Chelle Rae guys and partly because i questioned why i can't find someone that i love that much. most of the music is about love and for some reason i can relate to the songs even if i haven't experience of those emotions. i do have a crush but that is not really as close to having an actual relationship.

on monday, the start of semester 2, i convinced my best friend to come visit my uni. she only stayed for a couple of hours but it was still fun and i was really grateful that she was there, even if she was bored out of her brains. so that was a nice start to the week. tuesday and wednesday nothing special happened only had a couple of lectures that i didn't really pay attention in but then what else is new?

i put a photo wall because i wanted my room to be more personalized with things that were important to me. so now i have all these photos stuck up on the wall in front of where i'm studying, so i will be staring at Martin Johnson a lot, and reminiscing about the fun times.

i will do an outfit post soon, i've been too lazy to actual take photos of what i'm wearing, it hasn't been that special. i wanted to wear my boys like girls t-shirt everyday but i think people will notice and think "gross".

also i would like to add because me and my friends' resentment for not making the street team for Hot Chelle Rae, we decided to make our own fansite for them, so i would working on that as well, so go to my tumblr for more updates on my bland life. also visit the fansite here and become a follower, i would be very happy.

this is guitar pick that i got from the concert, hehe it actually says "where's paul?" (he is the guitarist and is really cute). now only if i could actually play the guitar and excuse my chip nail polish, i've been telling myself to redo for the past week.

PS. I'm in love with Martin Johnson, meeting him has totally changed my expectations of my ideal boyfriend.

Love Squealer.