Alter the ending 2

Me and the grampians,
it looks so much better in real life,
the photo just doesn't translate the sheer size and space of the mountains and the view


I don't really have much to add to the last post.
geez, when did my life become so boring?
when i was at school at least i had a purpose,
somewhere to be. now that i've had over a month of holidays
i don't like the drifting but then again uni starts in about 6 weeks,
and by then i guess i would miss the holidays.
i just miss seeing everyone everyday,
i should really catch up with my friends soonish
because i haven't seen them in forever
i want to go a beach house with them as my aunty owns a house in lakes entrance,
so it might be fun but a lot of them may already have plans and stuff
and i wanted to plan an intimate sleepover at my house
but i highly doubt my mum would let me
not that i had asked or anything.

Did i mention that i finally found matte grey nail polish?
i can't remember if i did,
but i'l say it again because i was really excited when i did.

I'm also addicted to op shopping now,
i love spending hours in the stores
i actually having spent hours in an actual op shop
because i usually go when my mum/brother is visiting a place near an op shop
so i go while i wait for them,
but i have bought a lot of clothes.
i'm trying to break into vintage stuff
and i'm not that great but i do try.
i just like vintage patterns and wearing oversized things.
i just can't seem to put together vintage outfits seamessly
i guess a lot of people have a clashing style
i don't think it really works on me.
other than 'vintage' stuff, i also bought a few functional pieces
such as cardigans and tops.
i found another colourful and bright cardigan
(although not as cool as my orange one)
so i can't wait till winter to wear it,
i have so much winter stuff, that i'm desparately waiting for winter to come.
i'll upload pictures as soon as i can,
or when i actually come up with outfits for them.
i would like to turn my blog into a partial fashion blog
because i've been reading a lot of other fashion blogs
and they look so pretty.
darn, why does my fashion sense suck (or is really childish)??

And and i bought a heap of shoes because they were relatively cheap.
i got some booties thing, scandels, formal shoes(i didn't really need them but they are my just in case shoes, and they were really really cheap and very pretty)
It's really weird because only 2 years ago i only had probably 3 pairs of shoes
but now i have too many and there's not enough space in the cupboard to fit them all.
i'm trying to wear more heels, but there're really uncomfortable
and i'm not very stable.
(pictures to come)

My best friend and i bought matching t-shirts a couple of weeks back
now we're waiting for an opportunity to wear it.
the t-shirt is pretty cool and it was cheap.
i bought a size that was double my normal size
but the bigness of it makes it really comfy to wear
although it does make me look a tad shorter
coz it's longer than most t-shirts.
hopefully we can wear it on tuesday
when i'm watching the 'princess and the frog' with my friends.
definetely upload photos of us wearing it.
( i should really stop saying i'll upload photos)

I rented some movies to watch as well,
Princess Protection Program, My sister's keeper and bandslam.
PPP is a typical disney movie, it's just a fun movie to watch if you're into that sort of stuff.
Bandslam was ok, wasn't really funny. i only watched it because it had vanessa hudgens in it.
My sister's keeper was the better out of the latter.
I cried a lot in the movie even though i didn't think it was that emotional.
it wasn't how i imagined the book to translate into film
but overall it was pretty good. Personally i liked the novel better.
i thought it was weird that cameron diaz played the mum.

That's all for now.

Love Squealer.

Alter the Ending 1

Hello guys!
It's been ages, hasn't it? Well partly because i'm so tired after work
And i'm too lazy to do anything, so i just eat and sleep.
And partly my life isn't really that interesting so nothing much has happened,
unless you want to hear about my boring tales at work,
it's better left unsaid.

Reflections on 2009:
Well the year went really fast and i'm really sad that it's over,
because 2010 means a lot of changes for me that i'm not ready for.
i've have grown to love school and love my routine and seeing all my friends everyday.
Year 12 has been so much fun while at times it was a tad stressful,
i never thought i have so much enjoyment and evolve as a person,
i have tried not to be as socially awkward and unsociable such as avoiding people,
well i guess that part has improved and i have built closer relationships with certain people
and expanded my social network. I'm going to miss everyone so much.
It's hard to find a group of friends that accept that way that i am
because an 18 year old squealing and whinging is annoying,
and where can i dress like a child and not be judged?
I don't think i can wear my fluro orange cardigan in uni.
Well things didn't turn out the way i wanted (results and stuff like that),
I've learnt to realise that i always have options
and while my future is still undecided and i dunno if i'm going to get into dentistry,
i'm not that fussed and i'm not that worried.
As a bonus this setback reminds of Rory Gilmore,
who has a setback in season 7, where she didn't receive the internship that she wanted,
therefore i am becoming more like her which is great because she is my idol.
Anywhoo, i'm going to miss my classes,
where we basically sat around talking and mucking around,
you're not allowed to talk in lectures, well at least people will hate you if you do.
well i don't specifically remember much,
but i feel happy when i look back and i do have heaps of photos,
granted not much of me though but oh wells.

Resolutions for 2010:
1. Be more social and not so quiet.
i guess the reason why i'm so quiet is that i'm not witty or anything so i don't have much to say, plus i talk really quietly around unfamiliar people so it kinda gets un-noticed anyways. But i did make more friends in 2009 allowing to be more open and comfortable.
2. Learn to be witty.
I love gilmore girls. if i only i was well-read and smart.
3. Exercise.
I've stopped going for runs because i'm so exhausted from work
but now that work has finished and i just bought new proper runners, i should put them to good use.
4. Re-learn the guitar.
i never really practiced much when i had lessons, so i'm really bad. i hate short stubby fingers.
5. Get ears pierced.
i always sigh when i go past really pretty earrings.
6. Accept change more openly.
i love my routine and if i do go to bendigo, that's going to be a huge change for me. Living in a small town is kinda not that appealing but it will peaceful.
7. Try to be in the top10 in my course.
i dunno how i will do in uni, seeing that it's so different to highschool but hopefully i keep my work ethics and study hard.
8. Get a fashion sense.
I need more pretty clothes.
9. Make more clothes and actually finish the project.
I always start making things but i never finish. short really increase my concentration span.

I can't think of anymore but i will keep adding when something pops up.

Work:
Working a lot has made me appreciate perfumes,
that doesn't really make sense, what i mean is that i pay more attention to them
and i getting the hang of perfumes and knowing them and recommending them.
i used to use marykate and ashley perfume and hilary duff perfume
but those seem so immature compared to better perfumes,
so i bought the ralph hot because it was pretty cheap.
another bonus is that i made heaps of money
but that is tempting me to spend more though,
so hopefully i can save at least a bit of it.

Grampians Weekend:
The grampians is amazing and really makes you appreciate nature.
it is massive and i really want to go again with my friends
but the thing is that none of us can drive so that's a big setback.
i went with my cousin and her friends,
because i'm really socially retarded, i was basically a mute the whole time
but i did have heaps of fun.
Another thing is that i had my first drink: soho with lemonade.
it was nice but i usually only like melon/watermelon favoured things,
and i thought my first drink would be those vodka cruisers/alcopops,
but i guess this is more 'sophisticated'. we all stayed up really late but it was ok.
i was thinking how much fun it would be if i was with my friends.
the accommodation was a townhouse and it was so pretty and modern.
we saw waterfalls and that was so pretty and spectacular
although the walk there made me realise how unfit i am. there were a lot of stairs.
plus i had volleys which aren't the best shoes to walk/hike in.
i did hike a really hard trail, it was steep and lots of rocks, no flat ground.
it was meant to be for an experienced hiker but i made it.
it was so worth it. the views were breathtaking and it was high.
it's so weird hanging out with older people (no offence)
they were about 10 years older so there wasn't much connection, but i managed.
they tried to include me in so i'm grateful for that..
otherwise i could imagine how awkward it would be.

Another thing is that i went to a club filled with Asians,
my friends kinda know me for my 'racist' comments
but i try to explain that it wasn't racist but they kinda over ride me,
so i better refrain from saying anything that will incriminate me.
i've never been to a club before but it's all the same.
it's just like social and formals.
i don't like people touching me and i can't dance so i was really self-conscious.
the music is too late and the space is really small,
i also learnt that alcohol is very expensive, for something that make you more stupid.
i could think of heaps of things that i could use the money with.
i also realised that if i opened a bar/club i would be rich.
that could be another thing for Hilashry. (only my friends would get that but you could try)

yes it was a lot of firsts for me.
it was kinda sad, because i wanted to do those things with my friends.

I'm tired of typing so i'll add a part 2 one day.
Stay safe guys.

will add photos later, they take ages to upload.


Love Squealer.

Busy bee

I can't remember my last post,
Was it pre-exams or post exams?

Well things that have happened is:
I got a job, it's ok, the pay is ok, I'm working heaps
And weekends so that's more money
Which is good.

I got my birthday party, not as many people as I expected showed up
But it was alright and everyone wouldn't have fit in the room
So maybe that was a good thing. I had the treasure hunt
And I found it fun but I already knew where all the clues were
So it wasn't as fun
So now I'm going to make someone else make a treasure hunt for their party.
There were heaps of food and my piñata worked properly
And less trouble hanging it up unlike last time,
It took my friend and I forever to hang the string over the wood peice
It was higher than expected and the piñata I bought was cheapo
So it kinda fell apart early, so that didn't work out.
The food was good and even though I had catered for 40
At least I think so, most of the food was gone,
Which is good, I don't like leftovers that much.
I made a bunch of sushi, like 18 big rolls
And it was all gone. I think I tired everyone out with the treasure hunt
As it was hot and some the clues were hard to find.

Well that's all for now,
I need to remember perfume stuff to work
So I can actually help the customers =]


Love squealer

Written in the Stars

credits to http://sugarock99.deviantart.com/art/High-Tea-124437871
Oh dear she's drinking pool water
but she doesn't look wet.

YAY, i feel so relieved.
no more exams and no more studying at least
until uni but that's ages away.

well after chem exam,
we didn't really do much we spent an hour at melb.central food court watching mtv partly
because the tv was on that channel
and partly because the shows are really lame and weird. "Sex...With Mum and Dad"????? where the kid talk about sex with parents and the camera films it, that was pretty stupid i don't know who came up with that.
the only reason we were at the food court was
because our friends said they were coming and never showed up until an hour later.
so then we went to borders to look around and then sat around on the couches.
i really wanted to do something i suggested to go to crown put money in the slots and then run away but one of friends is not yet 18 and apparently you're not allowed to wear thongs which my other friends were wearing.
so i decided to find a hidden resturant and eat so we walk around in the city to find it but it turns out most of them were closed
(it was around 3, so the staff were having their lunches)
so we walk a whole circle and then ended up back near melb.central we ate at 'yourthai' and the food was pretty good and i was full and then we went home which then i went to spotlight
but there was no sales so i went into dfo for 20mins,
and managed to buy a dress and vest,
nothing fantastic i was hoping to do some more intense shopping in the holidays.


well now i have to make invitations for my party which i really can't be stuffed doing so maybe i'll just print them out on the heaps of paper that i bought off my friends because i have no idea what to do with them.
Well if you guys have any ideas about my party, give me a heads up or comment. i'm not that great at parties.
i want a tea garden theme with pretty florals and springy setting,
but i also want a jumping castle as well because jumping castles are really fun, very bouncy.
i've got all the food prepared so that's ok, just need activities.


yesterday i went to highpoint to hand out resumes,
we ran out of paper at home so i only had four resumes to hand one i had to print double sided so hopefully that doesn't reflect too unprofessional i guess they could see that i'm environmentally friendly which is always a plus. i'm excited because i got a lead on a job at 'my chemist'
the thing she said she will call one of my references,
but i kinda didn't notify that person that she was going to be my reference and i'm hoping that she will remember me otherwise i will look really bad.
well i can say that i made the reference a long time ago and a bunch of other excuses,
but i'm really hoping for this job because i rather work in a pharmacy than in a clothing store.
she said she'll call me on monday morning so hopefully i get the job or at least an interview.
which reminds me how bad i'll be at interviews,
i'm not a debater and i can't say instantly witty things ro be funny under pressure.
but yeah, i'm really hoping i do get a job,
i just need money right now considering i plan on buying heaps of things and i've got buy a lot of birthday presents as well.



Well that's all for now,
have fun in whatever you guys are doing.


Love Squealer.

Liposuction kills, stay fat

Hello
Methods exam today
It was alright, no graphs!
Yay, whenever there's graph I spent half my time drawing it
Because it always looks dodgy and so being a perfectionist
I rub it out like so many times.
Although it might mean that exam 2 would have heaps of graphs.
Yeah nothing else happened today
I went to the lolly store and I haven't been there for a while
It was good, I finally bought the allens racing cars
Which I deceptivelly always thought was expensive
So I got home and counted how many pieces there were
And there were about 80 whichis about the same price as he milkbar
The place which I thought was cheap
I used to buy heaps of lollies from the milkbar
Until I moved about five years ago
Anyways the prices at the milkbar used to be 5cents a piece
And I thought that was cheap but the lollies are the same price.
Yes I like my lollies and am obsessed with the numbers.
So yeah I still need to find a place that sells cheap heartbeats lollies
The lolly store at essendon used to sell them but they stopped
Also they lied because they told me that they were going to restock it


But they never did. So now I have to find a place that sells 5 cents heartbeats.
The thing with buying too much lollies and only eat a part of it
And give the rest away or I eat the good parts
And then give the rest away.
Does anyone like lollies like me?
Also the pineapple lollies were cheaper than the racing cars
I don't know why
But I don't buy allens brand pineapples because the cheaper brand tastes the same

Anywho three exams left! So close....


Love squealer

A girl can dream

I've been in and out of studying today
I just not in the mood for it
I studying for half an hour and take a nap
Then come back to studying and find myself staring at the page
Not good considering I've still got exams.

I've been really into reading blogs and stalking people lately
There are so many amazing blogs
Which make my blog seem insignificant
Which I guess it kinda is but I like it nonetheless.
So many people have such a good fashion sense
And such cool clothes, my wardrobe isn't that great
Just a mash of clothes, so i'm going to try to find a fashion sense
As my friend would say.
I also blame my stingy asianess because I don't buy anything that's way expensive
Like over $10 even $5 seems like lot,
I mean I do have clothes over that amount but very few.
I can't wait to go op shopping, I want to buy a heap of clothes and books
And I want to redo my entire room
Because it's quite cluttered and juvenile
I want to redecorate my small room into those white vintage-esqe study rooms
Actually I don't know If I would need it
Hopefully I'll be studying in bendigo next year
Not my first perference but it's the only place with dentistry undergrad
I think the only thing getting me through this
Is that there is a spotlight in bendigo.

I feel gross now so off to shower.

Love squealer

kicking and screaming

Credit to http://fuckyeahamazing.tumblr.com/page/14

ok i know that i'm too academically orientated
but that is so true.
i'm going to miss the MGHS class of 09,
because they let me be who i want to be
and made me the person that i am now.
actually i'm going to miss highschool in general,
the future's looking scarier and scarier,
considering, well something.
(i won't go into details)

it's been a while since i've blogged on a computer.
well the two hardest subjects are over...
wonder what the next couple will be like...
i didn't feel like studying after the exam
not that i felt bad or anything
i'm happy with how i handled it
and fingers crossed, everything will fall into place.


i went into school early to study a bit
but that didn't really happen.
i spent the time talking with friends
basically doing nothing, as usual.
the year 10s were having their exams
and because it was quiet
(duh! it was exams,
i can't believe that didn't cross my mind)
i walked through the corridor and got told off by a teacher, sif, i've graduated,i'm a high school graduate
no-one tells me what do to...


oh and i feel so bad i forgotten a friend's bday
i knew it was her birthday but because of english
i totally forgot!
i was going to facebook her, but then it was already after 12. darn.

i'm just marvelling at the amount of time
i spend watching gilmore girls and other tv shows
more than i did in my younger years
which doesn't make sense,
i think macrob has me made a tad lazy,
well very lazy.

sometimes i wish i wasn't so self conscious
that i would be able to wear that orange cardigan
without feeling everyone looking at me
(i don't mind at school,
because you could wear anything and not be judged,
i hope or at least i like to think that,
i think its true nonetheless)
I love that orange cardigan
but now it's getting so warm
which has made it redundant
so i'll wait until next year
which means i'll be that childish dentistry(hopefully) student
who still likes high school musical or hannah montana
(don't know how long the fetish will last).
i shall post a photo of me in the cardigan
seroiusly it's so cool!
it's so bright.


My friend said something funny:
"I can walk into a bar"
well it is funny with the context
which i cbs explaining.


Credit to http://gluttonyisabliss.com/
Look at the awesome colours
it's like hyperactive and high
maybe i should make for my fabolous party.
can't wait to start baking again
although my cakes were never that great
it was fun!



Love Squealer.