Little Monsters

Shirt Op Shop | Pants Random Asian Store | Shoes Op Shop | Jewelry Lovisa 

Guess who's been waking up super early to go for runs in the morning? Yes, me, I was shocked too. I'm surprised that I've been keeping this up for a couple of weeks. However the early mornings and no nap during the day, makes me very tired towards the end of the day and I have no energy to study. The weeks have been going by very quickly and the workload is just piling up. There is so much content we are learning everyday, and I have no idea how I am going to catch up! So this weekend, I have to stop procrastinating and get the job done. 

Yesterday, there was a talk by a vascular surgeon and an oral-maxo surgeon, both very intimidating people professional-wise, considering their achievements. While I know I'm not the smartest person, I would still like to have accomplished something or have a specific area of academic interest that I'm good at or specialize in. I get very jealous whenever I meet people who have specialized in a particular field because they found something that they love doing, and all my lecturers are very accomplished ( I have no idea why they would work at Griffith). Sometimes I think being a dentist isn't enough, I just want to be more but seeing as I'm struggling as it is, and the state of my current grades, I doubt I can specialize after I graduate. For some reason, I know that even if I tried my best, it still wouldn't be good enough. It's not a self-doubt or self-deprecating thing, I just think it's the truth, I'm just one of those people who will only get by. While I have other hobbies such as crafts, DIY, and baking, I don't think I particularly excel in any of those areas, sure I'm better than some but not as good as most. That was a pestering thought I've been having lately, I want to be at a point where I genuinely feel like I'm proud of myself. I know I should be feeling proud, but I just don't feel it. While on the subject of my studies, guess who has to an extra- and intra-oral exam on their clinic partner this week? Yes I'm dreading it too, I like my personal space and it dangerously violated when someone touches my face and looks in my mouth, or worse I would have to perform the same procedures on him. Get ready for some awkward and embarrassing times, on my end. 

The weather has been warmly up quite suddenly, so it gave me the perfect opportunity to wear to printed pants which are light and comfortable. I'm not a fan of paisley print, but this one was okay because it had more floral. The bright colour and interesting pattern drew me to these pants, because I like to dress interestingly with bold colours, it just makes the day a little better. I really like this necklace, the geometric shape is very cool, and the two tone gold and dark silver, makes it unique looking (even though I did buy it from a chain store). I wish my shirt had a collar, the necklace would have sat better coming down from a collar. I'm just enjoying the awesome weather lately, before spring and summer comes around and I'll be sweating like I'm melting again.