Reckless with a capital R

On Thursday, i went to the weekly (well theoretically a weekly event, because it has only been twice) badminton session which was fun. It's always good to see friends. Already the year is practically over, and i thought how weird it has been being away from my Monash friends for the year, and wondering if we could have been closer or more distant than we are now. There are definitely friends who i am closer with, but there are some who i have somewhat forgotten how to act around them or I have reverted back to my new-ish friends stage, which just involves me politely/nervously laughing at everything so i can somehow drown out the awkwardness (i also do this when i'm on the phone, regardless of the person) or being completely mute (which doesn't work when there's only two of you). Anywhoo, baddy was fun as always, good to get some exercise because i do practically nothing all week. I wish standing was a form of exercise, then i would be so healthy after the amount of standing i do at work, like literally standing in one place, not even moving around or anything. Sadly because of work i had to leave early, so i didn't get to spend much time with them.
Well even though 6 hours is relatively short shift, it felt so long! It was pretty quiet which makes time go so slow, i was constantly checking my watch and was constantly surprised of how little time had passed. Well it's not too bad when the owner/manager goes home and then everything gets kinda loose, if you know what i mean. The organisation falls apart a little, and we just stand around and talk to each other. It feels good not to get told off =P But when i got home, i was incredibly tired so i slept so early for once.
On Friday, I went to Box Hill with some friends so we can buy a birthday present for another friend and eat. Yeah whenever, i get together with my Latrobe friends, we like to eat, we had very slim pickings in Bendigo, most of the time we just ate at McDonalds. We went to Artbox to buy some stationary, we had about $40 allocated, but then we saw the 50% off everything sign, so that kinda made us go a little crazy. I never realized how expensive the stuff can be, it didn't even seem that good quality, i would of rather spent that money at officeworks, but my friend likes Artbox so yeah. We got one of everything, and just kept putting things in our basket. We ended up going a little over the budget but that was okay. Dang, that 50% off was pretty enticing. Well at least my friend will be set for next year in terms of stationery, although we didn't get the one thing that she needed which was a pencil case only because the ones they were selling were way too small, considering all the things we bought and she said she wanted to fit her calculator in as well. I hope she doesn't read my blog otherwise the present will sort of be spoiled. So after we got the present, G showed us around Box Hill because it's her hood. There were so many restaurants, and even the food court looked so good! It was so clean compared to other asian suburbs. I like Box Hill, although it was smaller than i thought it would be. We decided to eat at New Age Cafe, and we ordered three dishes between us. There as mince beef on rice, chicken with mushroom cheese sauce on rice and hokkien noodles. They were all really nice, the first two dishes were different but tasted delicious anyways. The chicken with mushroom cheese sauce on rice was almost like a risotto, after we mixed the rice with the sauce, it looked pretty gross =P My friends made me finish the noodles off because they like to force me to finish off the food, but we couldn't finish the rice dishes so we take awayed them, yeah it didn't look so good together in the container.

We were pretty stuffed afterwards, despite not even eating that much. We walked around a little more and bought some drinks, sat down and talked for a while. Afterwards, T and I headed back into the city to buy a present for another friend. I'm pretty grateful that my band's merch is relatively inexpensive, because Asian music merchandise is quite expensive in Australia, but obviously a lot cheaper in the Asian countries. We wanted to get a small badge but it was $13, and there wasn't the person we wanted to get.
Then we went home, and of course i had work that night, luckily it was only a four hour shift but again boy did it go on forever. Also i was the sort of head person for the promotion outside, so i just my co-workers do whatever they wanted, because it wasn't busy. I was just running in and out of the store which is frowned upon unless necessary and i even went to the back where the dispensing area was to casually get something out of my bag. I would have not done that if the owner or retail manager was working. I even let my co-worker take a longer break than usual, well in fact i took a longer break than usual too.
I ran to Jb HiFi to see the new Hot Chelle Rae album, i stood there in front of the album contemplating whether to buy it or not. I decided against it because i thought i would download it first. And i was unsure of their new stuff. I mean i love them all and i loved their first album, but they have definitely moved into a more pop and upbeat-y sound for this album, which i'm not so fond of. I did give the new album a listen, and yeah i'm on the fence, its a good album to be driving to, i guess. Especially nowadays i'm getting into more "heavier"stuff, so yeah but i don't want to feel like a bad fan. So i was going to get their first album but it wasn't in stock =( They're pretty special for me because they were my first concert.
So yeah i ran back to work, not that i wanted to though. And the rest of the night, we were just playing around and obviously not doing our job properly, but again there were no customers so it was okay.

Have you guys ever heard of shrink plastic? It's plastic that you write/draw on and then when you bake it, it shrinks to about 30% of its orignal size. It is amazing, i've always wanted some ever since i heard of them but back then i was oblivious to the world on online shopping. Anywhoo, i made a Pioneer bracelet, which is the name of The Maine's new album which i am so excited for. I posted this photo on my tumblr, and then someone messaged me saying it was awesome, so i checked out her blog and found out that she's Jenny and from Melbourne, and you guys probably know that I'm also Jenny and from Melbourne. i got a little excited and messaged her back. Then i found that she wants to do pharmacy!! How weird!! I somewhat made a tumblr friend, well not quite there, because i've only sent two messages to her, but it's the closest i've been. Yeah it's so exciting for someone to message you on tumblr, i rarely get them and luckily the ones i get are positive ones.

Oh dear it took me over an hour to write this post, gotta sleep, have work tomorrow. well i guess i can rock up tired. Oh and i have this thing where i like to go on The Maine website on an apple product when i'm in Jb hifi :) Obviously not an original idea, but it makes me feel happy. 

Love Squealer. 

Little Death

So holidays have been a bit of an anti-climax, after looking forward to it for ages, it's not so great, well not at the moment anyways. I think i'm just waiting for my trip to come around but that's not til over a month. I spent most of the day in bed, because i knew that even if i get up there would be nothing for me to do. I "watched" a movie called An Invisible Sign, and all i got from the movie is that Jessica Alba is really pretty but i already knew that. It's about this maths teacher, played by Jessica, who is quite disconnected from the world, because her father is sick ( i think he has a mental disorder, they weren't clear on that in the movie). Well I actually didn't get through the whole thing, i skipped through a lot of the parts and for the parts i watched i didn't really pay attention. There was this weird quality that made the movie unlikable, for me anyways. Although, i thought there was this funny part were she gets an ax thrown in her leg, i don't think it was supposed to be funny, but it made me watch that scene twice. So i don't recommend watching that movie.
I also watched another movie One Day, i actually was looking forward to this movie because the concept seemed interesting. Well i have to say i was disappointed, I felt so disconnected and uninterested throughout the entire movie. The characters were somewhat boring and the plot line was weird and confusing. I think the book is better, so maybe i should read that first and then rewatch the movie. I do like Anne Hathaway and Jim Sturgess, i think they did their best with the script. Although i like how it was set in London, and it gave me an idea how things will be for my holiday.
On sunday, i had my first shift back at work, and by the end, i was so dead. My feet were killing me, luckily my co-workers were complaining too. I think i need to find better work shoes, i'm going to try to get away with wearing canvas shoes for the moment as they at least have a thicker soles than my oxfords. It wasn't a long shift, but my feet were dying. It would have been better if my feet weren't hurting so much. I got back into the rhythm pretty quickly and pretty much nothing has changed. The only thing getting me through the crazy amount of work shifts is the money and a somewhat purpose in my life, instead of lying around all day.
Actually, something different in these holidays is that i have my license, so no more public transporting. On friday, i had a shopping day, which involves for is op shopping in moonee ponds, and usually that would take me the whole day, but with a car, it was so much quicker, so i stopped by DFO and then went to Highpoint because i wanted to buy a CD (Sinners Never Sleep if you're interested, amazing album so glad i bought it and waited until after exams). It felt so good not having to wait for the train but i think it has also made a little lazier. I'm getting the hang of driving, i'm still a little nervous and drive slowly, well even when i drive at the speed limit, there are so many people overtaking me.
I'm still feeling off, like there's something missing or something that i should be doing but i don't know what. Maybe i need a friends fix, in fact i know i need one. Too bad once December starts, so do the crazy shifts from work begins.

Love Squealer.

Don't Give Up On Us

ho ho, it's been a while, obviously due to exams and all, but i'm still alive and made it through, well just barely. Exam periods are always hard, but worse when you get stuck inside your head. There was a constant thought process of possible failures and future uncertainties, except sometimes i convince myself that i probably wouldn't get an offer, there's (i'm assuming) a lot of other applicants who will most likely get better marks than me. I know i shouldn't be thinking about those things, but after trying for what seems like so long and feeling as if it may have been useless, I feel it's necessary to brace myself for the worse. Sometimes i wish i had more confidence in myself, rather i wished i'm more continuously confidence, it comes and goes quite quickly. I want to feel like I've given my best this year and whatever happens, i did the right thing but I don't. Even though i know i probably given it my best shot, which makes it all the worse when i don't get an offer because it just means i wasn't good enough. I haven't found much that helps me though this; music helps a little but it's not enough, so i find myself constantly telling myself that i will get an offer, sometimes it works but sometimes it doesn't.

Anywhoo, i'm excited for the holidays. I think this one will be so amazing and life-changing. There's not much i want to achieve, I'm tired of making lists and never finishing them, so no lists, just going with the flow.
Today was an awesome start to the holidays, there was badminton with the pharm crew and lunch afterwards. It has been a while since I've exercised so it was nice after spending so much time sitting at my desk. It was so good to catch up with everyone but for some reason, i felt a little off, i just wasn't feeling like myself, i think its just the nauseous feeling that the uni year is over, and all i'm doing now it waiting.

I apologize for the somewhat sad post, but writing about it helps, and that's what's on my mind. Hears to more exciting posts with photos soon.

Oh yeah, not interesting news, but i'm culling my wardrobe, because it's so full and i have about 5 large garbage bags filled with clothes from Bendigo that i have to unpack and somehow fit in my wardrobe.

Love Squealer.

We're All Wasted

This morning, I spent a good chunk of my time on the hellomerch website trying to preorder The Maine's new album Pioneer, which i am uber excited for. So after a while i gave up and went to "studying" which involved an hour of writing out a notes sheet. After that, deciding i needed a 'well-deserved' break, i ate lunch. My lunch break lasted about 6 hours, while i took a nap when i wasn't that sleepy because i didn't want to study. I wish my exam timetable wasn't so far apart, i like the last three-quarters of it. My first exam is on friday, and the next one isn't until next friday, and because i feel prepared for the coming exam, i don't have this urgent need/drive to study, despite needing to study for the rest of the exams. For me, i like to concentrate on one subject at a time, usually i mainly study one subject and move onto another subject if i get bored, and just to keep things fresh in my head. However, the other exams feel like ages away, i don't really want to study for them but i know i should. These past three days have been usually long, and i have been sleeping earlier. Anywho, i hope this stage passes soon so i can concentrate on studying properly.

Well exciting news on the weekend. I booked my flights to London and Hong Kong, where i will be spending about 3 weeks in January. It's a little scary because this is my first time overseas and as i so desperately wanted to go overseas since forever, i took up the chance because S is in London. Although, i'm half excited and half anxious because there will be time when i'm going to be by myself in London, at least five days. I thought it was worth just to be overseas though. Actually, initially i was just planning to go to London, but i wanted to see a concert and my friend was conveniently going to Hong Kong, so i thought to extend my London trip and visit Hong Kong while i'm overseas. I would not like to think how much this trip is costing me, considering I am going to the US either mid or end of next year, but i think i can swing it. I'm going to be working for a month, so that's some extra money for my trip. I hope I will be safe in London, it gets dark at 4pm??? How weird is that? I'm not sure what London city is like in the evening, because i don't want to be shut in the hotel at 4pm, how will i get dinner? I like to think that London city would be like Melbourne city in the evening, so i should be safe walking out by myself. Despite crimes and stuff like that, i still feel safe to walking around Melbourne city at night, but that's got a lot to do with a lot of people still hanging around. Anywhoo, i have so many things i want to do, and i don't even know if i can fit it all in one trip. This holiday will most likely be me dipping my toes in the UK/Europe culture, I would like to do a proper European holiday when i'm older or have more money or have the friends to come with me. Actually the idea of going solo is appealing, only i need someone as a backup to protect if something happens, maybe i can hire someone to trail me when i'm out "alone", yes that does sound crazy. At least there's no language barrier, that's always a plus. So yeah possibly the most exciting news coming from me in a while. Also another thing, I'm so ecstatic for the concert, its going to be The Maine, All Time Low and We Are The In Crowd! I hope they recognize my accent =D Also its a night concert, so i'm worried about getting back to my hotel, i think i will catch a cab but a better idea is to crash/hide in one of the band's tour buses until morning. This is lame but i'm thinking of all these fantasies about what will happen, like they're going to walk me back to the hotel when i tell them that i'm alone in a foreign country or yeah letting me crash in their bus, I'm leaning towards the latter.
Moving on....


I can't wait for exams to be over, and i am actually a little excited to get back to work. It means i would have something to do all day beside the internet and tumblr, and of course the money. It's going to be my third year working, so i like to think I'm the "head"of the promotion area. I won't be clueless most of the time anymore except i don't remember a lot of things about working, like the cash register and stuff like that.

Good luck with exams everyone, or with life (whichever is applicable).


Love Squealer.