Is it over yet?

Lately I've been having a thing for milkshakes. Really the only milkshakes that i've ever had were the ones from Mickey D's, so i compare every subsequent milkshake with that. So i'm not sure, MD's milkshakes are really thick so are they considered a thickshake? I really like the MD's ones. I tried one at a cafe in bendigo and it wasn't too bad, but it wasn't as thick as i liked it to be. For a milkshake to be thicker, does it need more ice-cream? Because the MDs ones feel airier, but not so much creamier? Anywhoo i tried the milkshake at Donut King and it was so liquidy, it was like drinking melted ice-cream which is pretty gross. Maybe i should stick with MDs milkshakes. Well that's all i have to say about milkshakes.

I went grocery shopping today and bought so much food, mainly junk food because intense studying means heaps of junk food consumption. i think i may have bought too much food, i over estimated because i would be staying bendigo till my last exam, so i didn't want to waste time going to grocery shopping. Also i was driving today, and i crashed into a car. Yeah i was trying to change lanes, but i turned around to look for a long time i forgot that i had a car in front of me on the left lane and i got really close to it. My mum then just yelled at me, geez she could of turn the steering wheel the other way instead of yelling. But yeah my fault, i gotta learn to do quick head checks. So that was pretty scary, but i was annoyed when my mum gave a long lecture about the proper way to change lanes, i wouldn't have minded if she said it once but she kept repeating herself. I swear everything she says, she says it a billion times. However i still believe that i'm ready for my license.

It only about two weeks before i have holidays which i am really looking forward to because i get to catch up with my friends and basically do nothing and not feel guilty. But the thing i am really worried about is my results, i am trying to take things as they come but sometimes i have bad thoughts about the future and how things can go wrong. it just makes me realize how important this year is and how time will pass very quickly. it is just freaking me out because things just get so 'real', for lack of a better word. There's a lot of what ifs, and i get teary thinking of the uncertainties, it makes me want to go back to monash where at least i was safe and had security. Its hard to push the thoughts out of mind but music helps me through it and i turn to studying to put my mind off the thoughts. It doesn't really help that some people say that i will get into dent, i mean i am really appreciative of that and that they believe in me, but it just makes me feel so scared, and actually makes me think that i won't get in even more. I don't know, maybe i am thinking about it too much. In the end, i know whatever happens will be up to me and the outcome will be because of me. But for now, i just gotta try to ace these exams.

Love Squealer.