Well exams are over and while i was hoping for a rush of relief and exhilaration to wash over me after the last exam, none of that came. There was still this gnawing and nauseous feeling that i can't shake off. Too many what if's and you know, failure. After every exam, i went through emotional extremes, mostly just depression. It was eating at me while i was trying to study and move on. Usually i don't like to let the negative in because i find it so consuming and pointless, why look down when you can look up? But i thought i would indulge myself, and let myself feel down. Well i don't have to think about exams anymore, well that's not really true i will still think about them until i get my results, which i can either feel worse or better.
So its holidays, something that i have been looking forward to for ages, but now that its here, i'm sort of dreading the work i have to do. But but there are a lot of highlights to look forward to, like like HARRY POTTER. I am epicly exciting to see the movie and its the last one so thats sad :( And i would love to have time to spend time with my friends, just catching up and being in their presence, thats always fun and so so comforting.
Also if you have time, you guys should watch Boy A, its an amazing movie. I watched it when i was in a depressing mood and it really complemented that mood and helped me. It's about this child murderer who go released from jail as an adult and is trying to restart his life. As a perk, it has andrew garfield, and his portrayal is so intriguing. Alright i'm a little bias because i have a crush on andrew, but that aside it really is a good movie.
well there's nothing else i can say so i'll end it here.
Love Squealer.
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