Thursday, June 30, 2011

Complicated Pants

On monday, my friends and i had a catch-up/going away dinner although the two people who the dinner was made for didn't end up coming. So N and Su are leaving for American today for about a month, and i am so excited for them. While i wanted so badly to be going with them, i know that one day i will have my american trip, fingers crossed for next year. The feelings of jealously are mostly gone, and i am so happy for them to be going to american and getting "cultured" =P Plus i can live vicariously through them when they come back.
So back to dinner, i wanted to try The Kitchen Workshop because i heard the desserts were amazing or at least they looked amazing. The wait to get into the place was about an hour, so we were very hungry by the time we got in. I think i ate way too much, and went crazy with the desserts. Overall i think it was pretty good, the desserts were okay, i think they all have the same texture but with different flavours and were named differently. The cake was really good though. However, i think i've had enough of buffets for a long time. But it was so good to be catching up with friends and hanging out. It has been a while since we were able to find a time to get together, even if some people weren't able to come. After dinner, we walked along the southbank path, and the fire thingys were going off outside crown. I thought it was pretty amazing because i have never been up close to them before. It is really loud and really warm, so perfect for a cold winter night. We had a really fun time walking back, we were just laughing and joking and generally being high crazy little kids, well some of us were anyways. i go the train really late, the latest i have been out and caught public transport home. It was okay, wasn't as scary as i thought it would be.
On tuesday, i spent the morning with Su to buy a camera for her holiday. I was excited, i love going camera shopping, and its a shame that i only get to do it only so often. We already had a camera in mind so we were going along elizabeth to find the best price. We ended up in JB Hi-Fi, and the sales guy was really nice. I've read some people say that their customer service is sometimes really bad, but i've always had a good experience, because the staff are generally young and easy to get along with. So we were talking to the guy and he asked us where we were going, so i said we were going to America. It was nice to pretend that i was going to America. The guy was telling us that he went to america last year, and was telling us places to visit and the things that we should do. In addition to the camera, we got the SD card and a case, and the guy gave us a final price but i managed to bargain it down for a bit more. I'm not really good with bargaining, i never know what price is appropriate to bargain down to, but overall we were able to get the camera at a really cheap price compared to the other stores. After we got the camera, we went to DFO because i needed to find a present for Y. I went through several stores trying to find something that i thought that Y would like, and  i ended up getting something i thought was very awesome and hopefully Y would like it too. Shopping with Su is really fun and it was good to have a second opinion on things. After i got the stuff, we met up with M and Y after they watched the movie. We met up in borders for a bit, and we were all getting very sad that it was closing down very soon. We thought it would be a good idea to take a photo outside borders, and Su had her new camera as well so that was convenient. I think the people who walked by thought we were stupid, but that didn't bother us, we thought it was fun and a good idea. Then we wanted to try up n go yogurt, but unfortunately there was no chocolate so M didn't get any and i didn't any either because it was special for two. however Y and Su got the vanilla one, they said that it was just like normal vanilla yogurt and wasn't worth it. But M and I got lindt chocolate bars because it was on sale. Darn Coles for having such good sales, i can't resist the cheapness of junk food. Su was watching X-Men with her friend, so we waited with her until her friend came. We were trying to spend as much time with her as possible because then we would not see her for another month. It's so weird, seeing your friends after a long time of not seeing them and having little contact, you realized how you much you miss them and the company they bring to your life. It scares me that i will lose contact with my friends, especially with uni and being away, it is getting harder to make time to spend together. And with some people nearly finishing their degrees while i still have a long way to go, that is going to put a lot more pressure on our friendships, and our catching ups and hanging out will become rare. However that is in the future, and right now i want to try to spend as much time with my friends as possible.
After Su went to watch the movie, we decided to buy some food. When we walked to the foodcourt, Y pointed out a guy that happened to be good looking. And we reacted in such an embarrassing way, Y was doing things that made us laugh very loudly, i think the guy realized we were laughing about them. Well we kept looking over in his direction, and hoping that he didn't notice. We were basically just laughing at Y, so it wasn't it really him that we were laughing at. Yeah we are so embarrassing. And I have to add that we are not really not that embarrassing normally. I had a blueberry bagel from gloria jeans and it was pretty good, so maybe i can eat that regularly, it can sort of be my daily cup of coffee except i won't be eating it everyday.

So this week started off in a really good note and i hope the rest of the holidays would be as awesome.


Love Squealer.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

The Party Scene

I have been feeling very lazy and sleepy these past couple of days. All i want to do is lie in bed and watch friends, actually thats what i did regardless. The first week of holidays have been very relaxing and so fun, and such a great starting note to start the rest of the holidays. But now i can't believe its already been a week and there's only four more. Holidays, please go by slowly, i have a lot of things that need to be done.

So on wednesday, i went shopping with my monash pharm group which turned out to be way more fun than expected. I thought it was random to go shopping but nonetheless i was up for it because i haven't been shopping in ages. the day began at southern cross where we met and made our way to harbour town, which meant one thing for me DIPPIN' DOTS! I have never been to harbour town so it was exciting for me. We got there a little early to we had to wait around for the shops to open, we looked very eager. Most of us were just generally browsing and wondering into every store and having a look the sales. I'd forgotten how much fun it can be to be around the monash group and it was so comfortable. Thinking back i just want to give them a big group hug. Also i have to learn to talk without laughing because no one understands what i'm trying to say when i'm high pitch squealing/laughing. And And i got my dippin dots, it was so so nice, i wish i could buy them at the supermarkets. So we got back to southern cross and met up with some other people, because there was some organisation with the ski trip that needed to be done (which i'm not going). While we were waiting, we talked about wanting to go overseas(mainly me because i have never been) and how we should totally plan a trip for next year in june. I suggested we go to Europe but i think others were leaning towards America, which i was all in for, which would also mean i could possibly go to US twice in a year, and i don't think my parents would let me go twice. And M, is that breaking our pact if i end up going to US first? I don't know how much truth goes into these holiday plans but i like to think that it will come true. I was trying to come up with a cover if i was in America, my friends suggested that when my parents called to say that i'm in an American museum in Europe =P It would be amazing to get to go twice, but it also means a lot of money. I'm so desperate to go overseas, i will go tomorrow if someone asked me. So after the ski trip was organised, we were off to dfo south wharf, which i think we got a little tired by that time. I think we were more shopping for the guys, which i didn't mind, sometimes i get so bored and tired of women stores. I think the day was more for hanging out with friends, rather than shopping. At least some of us bought something so it wasn't all for nothing. So yeah, very fun day and i hope there are many more to come in the next couple of weeks.

i was so excited for thursday, Sh and S were coming up to bendigo to stay the night, i have been looking forward to this for ages. so we caught the train together in the morning, but i was running late for the train and didn't have enough time to buy a ticket so i ran on the train. I was so close to getting a fine because you can't buy tickets on the train if you get on at a staffed station but luckily the inspector was nice and let me off, that saved me $176 so i was happy. we got to bendigo and caught a bus to my house to settle our stuff down. We were all really hungry because i told everyone to save room for the pizza hut 'all you can eat' which i was looking forward to. So when we got to pizza hut, we were shattered that the buffet ended at 2pm and it was 2.40. We decided to come back for dinner which was going to be in 3 hours. To pass the time we walked around town and went for a bit of exploring. I was surprised at the amount of walking we had done, it was hours of walking i reckon. We even walked back to the pizza hut for the buffet. The buffet was not too bad, i felt like we had to eat more because the dinner buffet was more expensive. I ate so much, the food was carb loaded as well. We spent over an hour in the restaurant, which was very long because people had came in after us and left before we did. As it was late, and the buses had stopped running, we were contemplating whether to catch a taxi back home or not, but we decided to walk back to digest the food that we just ate. We stopped by safeway to buy some things and then made our way home. On the way we saw a trolley and decided to take on. Walking with the trolley proved to be entertaining and resulted in plentiful of laughter. Pushing the trolley along the roads made so much noise and just to be safe we abandoned the trolley halfway. Hopefully it doesn't get traced back to us. Walking at night was so fun, and we tried to identify some stars but all we got was the Southern Cross and Orion. We finally arrived home and bummed around in Y's room. Y and Sh did a bit "Yoga" which made me and S giggle and laugh. Then we tried to move Y's mattress to my room, and we kept bumping it into the doorway, which just made us laugh. We watched Sucker Punch, which i thought was okay but wasn't quite unsatisfying. But the movie did make us talk about it and try to understand what the director was trying to portray. After the movie, we ate some burritoes but we were still full from the dinner but i made everyone eat it because i didn't want the food to rot in the fridge. I think we were all pretty tired from the walking and lack of sleeping, so we barely made it into a movie, when we decided to go to sleep. Also we had to wake up early the next day so that we could get back into melbourne in time. So i found out that S was going on exchange to London for a whole semester and i was so excited for her, and and she invited me to visit her in december which made me uber excited, it means i might actually get to go overseas this year and i didn't even need to find a travel buddy. hopefully i do end up going, but also might risk getting fired because i will be leaving at a very crucial time, and basically the only time that i usually work but i think it will be worth it. I'm deciding whether to find another job or not anyways, and this can be an excuse to quit. But yeah, so the next morning, we had up and go for breakfast and Y walked us to the bus stop, she was getting picked up by her dad. We saw some kangeroos in the uni so that kinda made their day. i was scared we were going to miss the train because the bus was running late, but luckily we got the station in time. Unfortunately i still had the big stash of junk food i bought for the sleepover, we ate some stuff on the train but i still have some leftover, so much for going on a diet on the holidays. I wish we could of stayed longer and hung out, but at least i got to see them and catch up which was good. Being in bendigo sometimes makes me feel isolated from my melbourne friends, it takes away that freedom of getting to see them occasionally or dropping by their uni

That was basically the highlights of my first week of holidays, and i'll apologize again if i was too lengthy/wordy/rambling.

Love Squealer.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Expecting Something New

Well exams are over and while i was hoping for a rush of relief and exhilaration to wash over me after the last exam, none of that came. There was still this gnawing and nauseous feeling that i can't shake off. Too many what if's and you know, failure. After every exam, i went through emotional extremes, mostly just depression. It was eating at me while i was trying to study and move on. Usually i don't like to let the negative in because i find it so consuming and pointless, why look down when you can look up? But i thought i would indulge myself, and let myself feel down. Well i don't have to think about exams anymore, well that's not really true i will still think about them until i get my results, which i can either feel worse or better.  

So its holidays, something that i have been looking forward to for ages, but now that its here, i'm sort of dreading the work i have to do. But but there are a lot of highlights to look forward to, like like HARRY POTTER. I am epicly exciting to see the movie and its the last one so thats sad :( And i would love to have time to spend time with my friends, just catching up and being in their presence, thats always fun and so so comforting.

Also if you have time, you guys should watch Boy A, its an amazing movie. I watched it when i was in a depressing mood and it really complemented that mood and helped me. It's about this child murderer who go released from jail as an adult and is trying to restart his life. As a perk, it has andrew garfield, and his portrayal is so intriguing. Alright i'm a little bias because i have a crush on andrew, but that aside it really is a good movie.

well there's nothing else i can say so i'll end it here.

Love Squealer.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

stay with me

rah rah rah, i can't study properly. I've always pretty much have the same routine when it comes to exam studying. i usually start a couple of weeks before and focus on all my subjects. Once it gets to a week before the exam, i would mostly focus on that exam. And then after that exam, i would focus on the next one. And that system has been working even though after exams i always regret not studying earlier. But previously the subjects i have been studying are more challenging and do require me to focus more time. This year feels weird because i am repeating, most of the material i have covered before. And because i started studying a little earlier than usual, i have exhausted my resources of past exam papers and questions and yes while there is always something more that i can do, i am not in the mood. I've always done past exams papers and that helps me heaps. My mind is just not in it and i want the exams to be over now. Its not that the subjects are easy, i would never want to say that, its just that its a little different. yes i know i have attachment issues with monash. I just feel like i should be feeling more, doing more and learning more. i don't have the motivation to study my current subjects. I hope i feel better when it gets to semester 2 when the curriculum bears some resemblance to monash.

Oh yeah i decided to go with the orange cardigan. I'm not really sure if it helped or not. I felt like crap after the exam, but thank goodness for friends. Some people like to talk about the questions on the exam, so i tried not to listen. I'm already going over it in my head and it hurts to find that you've made mistakes, especially if every mark is just so crucial.

Also, i am going to try to be less judgmental, i seriously cannot help it and i hate that. I have no right to pass judgement on others when i haven't been in their shoes. Anywho, i was just judging the atmosphere and some people's attitudes to lectures and uni work, in particular to do with attendance and studying. I'm sure people judge me too, but whatever, i know who i am and my friends do too, that's all that matters.

See you guys on the other side (of exams).
And i am also annoyed that i get to miss the 7/11 dollar day twice, sucks being in bendigo sometimes, i miss out the events in melbourne.

Love Squealer.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Weightless

hmmm contemplating whether to wear to my orange cardigan or not for my exam today. I'm not sure actually if it does bring me luck but i like to believe that.
i'll let you know what i decided.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Kiss and Tell

So i have been downloading The Hills, ever since i found out that The Maine had some songs played on the show, well I've only been downloading the ones with their songs played. I get so excited and fan-girly when their songs comes on. What's even more exciting when other songs from my other favorite bands comes on unexpectedly. This is so fun! I'm not really paying attention to the actual show itself, although when i first watched my first episode, seriously nothing happens in the 20 mins episode, the plot moves a tinsy bit. And they show heaps of footage of the place and scene but little of the actual footage of the people themselves. Meh, i'm only watching it for the music, and whitney is really pretty, and there's australian guys on the show, so its interesting to listen to the contrast in accents. Also i find it really weird that they're only a couple of years older than us but way way more mature. I'm getting older, but not any more mature.

I should really go to sleep.

Is it over yet?

Lately I've been having a thing for milkshakes. Really the only milkshakes that i've ever had were the ones from Mickey D's, so i compare every subsequent milkshake with that. So i'm not sure, MD's milkshakes are really thick so are they considered a thickshake? I really like the MD's ones. I tried one at a cafe in bendigo and it wasn't too bad, but it wasn't as thick as i liked it to be. For a milkshake to be thicker, does it need more ice-cream? Because the MDs ones feel airier, but not so much creamier? Anywhoo i tried the milkshake at Donut King and it was so liquidy, it was like drinking melted ice-cream which is pretty gross. Maybe i should stick with MDs milkshakes. Well that's all i have to say about milkshakes.

I went grocery shopping today and bought so much food, mainly junk food because intense studying means heaps of junk food consumption. i think i may have bought too much food, i over estimated because i would be staying bendigo till my last exam, so i didn't want to waste time going to grocery shopping. Also i was driving today, and i crashed into a car. Yeah i was trying to change lanes, but i turned around to look for a long time i forgot that i had a car in front of me on the left lane and i got really close to it. My mum then just yelled at me, geez she could of turn the steering wheel the other way instead of yelling. But yeah my fault, i gotta learn to do quick head checks. So that was pretty scary, but i was annoyed when my mum gave a long lecture about the proper way to change lanes, i wouldn't have minded if she said it once but she kept repeating herself. I swear everything she says, she says it a billion times. However i still believe that i'm ready for my license.

It only about two weeks before i have holidays which i am really looking forward to because i get to catch up with my friends and basically do nothing and not feel guilty. But the thing i am really worried about is my results, i am trying to take things as they come but sometimes i have bad thoughts about the future and how things can go wrong. it just makes me realize how important this year is and how time will pass very quickly. it is just freaking me out because things just get so 'real', for lack of a better word. There's a lot of what ifs, and i get teary thinking of the uncertainties, it makes me want to go back to monash where at least i was safe and had security. Its hard to push the thoughts out of mind but music helps me through it and i turn to studying to put my mind off the thoughts. It doesn't really help that some people say that i will get into dent, i mean i am really appreciative of that and that they believe in me, but it just makes me feel so scared, and actually makes me think that i won't get in even more. I don't know, maybe i am thinking about it too much. In the end, i know whatever happens will be up to me and the outcome will be because of me. But for now, i just gotta try to ace these exams.

Love Squealer.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

A shot in the dark

hello, a quick post which will most likely turn into a detailed account of my boring life before i go to sleep. I hate writing posts past 12 because then i can't use the word 'today' but i am going to do so anyways so today=yesterday (unless i say so).

Today was an over-hyperactive day filled with so much giggling. Maybe it was the 4.5 hours sleep? Hmmm i still gotta figure why i have these extreme emotions as i do. The craziness didn't kick in until around lunchtime. For some reason my stomach was grumbling extra loud in the lecture which is so embarrassing, luckily my friends didn't say anything. I know at monash, i know V would of laughed at me, especially because it was so loud and prolonged. Anywhoo, finally the lecture finished and we were able to go get some lunch. I got some lasagna and chip because that was what i was craving. It was too bad, satisfying I guess. The flavour was a little bland, i would have liked to be more tomato-y. we have a little traditional where every wednesday, we would skip a lecture to go out and buy lunch (except we didn't skip the lecture today), its good because i don't have to cook but bad for my wallet. After lunch, we walked back to uni, we had an Intro to Pharm Practice workshop which is probs the most waste of time of all my classes. we always go off to other topics and spend pretty much the whole 2 hours talking about that and then rush through what we were actually meant to do at the end, so we finish late instead of finishing early. Other groups' workshops always finish early because there's not many talkative people. Sometimes the conversations were pretty interesting but because i'm not really interested in the pharmacy profession, its hard to pay attention. The topics always revolves around how the pharm profession is getting screwed over, the mediocre salary, lack of jobs and of course the Chemist Warehouse debacle. Seriously i can only hear the same things so many times. So for today's workshop, my friend and i were on our ipods the whole time, and we were being so disruptive. At first we were both on tumblr, and then we were exploring different apps. We were on a chatting app, and (don't judge me, i was bored) i was finding some good looking guys, but as it was a korean based app. I didn't know any korean names to type in, i just typed in names of my band people but i didn't have much luck. i typed in 'food' and someone came up and then my friend added her, which sent us in a loud giggling spaz. I quickly blocked her because i didn't want to seem weird. On the other hand, my two other friends, one's who Viet and one's who curry was on the computer. The Viet one was showing the curry one pictures of Vietnam and food, and the curry had a pretty loud conversation about going to visiting Vietnam and taking her mum there, pretty much planning out a holiday  in the middle of the workshop. Yeah it was just our table who was being annoying, i'm not sure if the tutor minded, i think she was a little annoyed but she didn't say anything. Anywho towards the end of the workshop, we were playing 'chalk and talk' which is pictionary type game and you play with randoms. However, most of the people cheated and wrote up the word. I kept mis-spelling the words and therefore kept losing and my friend was laughing at me. Then my friend and I got into the same game, and we would guess the word before anything was drawn, that really crack us up.
After workshop, i walked home with my housemate. i asked my housemate if she could noises from my room,  and she says that sometimes she hears talking and singing. How embarrassing! Oh wells, i'm a fan girl and not ashamed to admit it =P
When we got home, our other housemate informed us that there was a free mexican dinner in the student union. i wasn't going to go but then my housemate said she was going so i might as well be going. when we got there, it all white people so i felt really left out and weird because i was expecting more asians. Anywho, we kept speculating what the free dinner was for and who organised it but we didn't find out anything. we saw heaps of dentist students so we assumed that it was for that. The food was so good, we had burritoes and they weren't even stingy on the ingredients, there was everything including salsa, sour cream and either guacamole or some green dip thingy. It was like a buffet thing, where you choose the ingredients you want and then you wrap it up yourself. I should have taken a photo for you guys, but i would of have felt like idiot doing so. I was pretty giggling too much with my friends the whole time.
After a short trip to the library, we walked home and on the way i finally say a kangaroo! i mean people say they are always around uni, but i actually never seen one before. We got pretty close and this one had a joey in its pouch, it was so cute! I wanted to take a photo like the band people, lying down next to the kangaroo but then it hopped off. So that was a good experience. I got home and felt a little tired so i took a nap. I woke up and pretty much studied for a couple of hours, and i didn't even go on tumblr until i finished. Indeed i was pretty proud of myself.

My Dashboard Confessional package came on monday, i was so excited to be getting all the clothes. I left them in Melb so i don't have any photos but they are pretty awesome and i can't wait to wear them. I now have way too many band tshirts, but there are still some bands that i want a tshirt from.

Anywhoo i am craving dippin dots, my friends and i decided to get some after exams. Does anyone else love dippin dots as much as i do? I like the rainbow ones.

Oh and M, i got red jeans too now! they are so awesome, i thought i would look like a douche, but i don't look too bad. It was weird, i thought that when i would be wearing them that i would get that feeling that everyone would be staring at me but surprisingly i didn't get that feeling and that felt pretty good. Which reminds me, red jeans and my orange cardigan, an awesome combination or not?
Just so this post isn't image-less, here is a creepy mash up outfit post that is a result of very rough photoshop editing and it being 2 in the morning.
Lovely. 

Love Squealer.