A Fire in A Flask

So it's been a while since i have updated, its just that this week i have been well doing nothing much quite frankly. Also i think i am a really moody person, i can get from feeling depressed to feeling happy, like a pregnant lady. I'm trying to control my moods, mostly i just feel not quite depressed, more of a detachment. Maybe because i'm thinking too much about the future and how life at the moment is something i need to get through. Being on tumblr and looking at all the band photos and whatnot really makes me happy. When i get really down, i would go back to watch the videos at Soundwave.
Lately I've been a bit better about being myself at uni and opening up to people more, so basically being myself is saying stupid/random things, over-reacting and sudden movements/outbursts; well at least that's what i think being myself is like, although i haven't got to the squealing yet. So i'm waiting for that to kick soon.

I made a The Maine tshirt on Sunday, with the words "The Maine is Love and love is real," for some reason i am in love with that line. I keep saying it over and over again and it gives me this surreal sense of happiness. The lines are not as smooth as i wanted it to be, it kept bleeding out. I think it was because the lines were thinner than usual, but at least from afar, you can't really notice it. Also the lines look a bit uneven in the photos but its more straighter in real life. People were complimenting me on the t shirt, but i don't think they realize that's a band t shirt or they couldn't really make out what it said because i wore a cardigan and tuck it into a skirt. I also wore my Dashboard Confessional tshirt as well and got complimented on it, mainly because of the giraffe but yeah i don't think they knew it was a band t shirt. The thing is that i don't like to wear 'normal' t shirts, like the printed ones you buy from the shops unless i really really like it, i only wear plain t shirts or band t shirts or my mustache one, which i still love to bits.

This week marked the beginning of eating healthy and being fit, which means a low carb diet and less snacking, and doing some form of exercise everyday. I think my diet has been going along alright, my portions are smaller and i am eating a heap of salad. Although my snacking is still pretty bad, i try to restrain myself, and i'm eating healthy snacks such as celery and fruit/nuts. Its just a habit i have to break. The exercise has been going alright as well, although its only been less than week, i hope i keep it up. The thing is i do jumping jacks in my room which makes a thumping noise so i have to plan a time to do exercise when no one is at home. None of my house mates have told me off for being too loud though so maybe i'll see how long i can prolong it.

It's going to be a hectic couple of weeks as i try to study for my exams and finish off my assignments, i need to stop going on tumblr, i got addicted again.

Love Squealer.