I Feel Like Dancing

Bleh, today really sucks just coz I'm in bad mood. Usually when that happens, not much can pick me up, although music gets me through, just barely. I hate waking up in these moods, it makes me feel so negative and all these thoughts that I drown out rises to the surface and just makes me feel worse. Anywho I'm hoping that this phase will pass soon because I need to do some studying tonight and I can't study in a bad mood. I have some tv shows to watch tonight so maybe that will perk me up. And another thing, most of the tv shows are ending soon (glee has one more episode!) which would probably a good thing in terms of having more time to study.

Last Friday, I went out with some Bendigo pharm friends(they're all from melb but I need to distinguish them) in the city to eat. It was pretty fun, we went for the Malaysian restaurant in QV. I had roti canai which was nice and filling. It was pretty cheap so good for a snack. Then afterwards we went to Max Brenner for chocolate stuff. We shared a chocolate fondue and tutti fruitti between the four if us. I counldnt be bothered taking any photos but the food did look pretty. Max Brenner is pretty awesome but expensive, I envy those who eat there frequently. Although that may not be so healthy. Afterwards we headed to state to donsome studying. I didn't get much studying done as V texted me that she finished her prac so I left to meet up with her because its been a while since we caught up. So we hung around mc for a bit, mostly in borders and reading magazines. I was being a loser and took a photo of The Maine US tour ad in AP magazine, it felt surreal to be looking that ad. I wish they would come back and do a headliner show here, but I know it would at least next year before they can come back because study are going to be recording a new album after their tour. Anywho back to hanging out with V, we basically just caught up with everything and we realized how there wasn't much to catch up on because nothing has really happened in our lives. And again it makes me miss monash a lot. I feel like I'm still in highschool at Latrobe, where indent want to be, I want to feel as if my brain is advancing. At least I know I'm not alone in having uni troubles. So then we went to the original lolly store, and I got a pack of pearl lollies because it looked pretty, but turns out they have little taste. I have a feeling that its for decoration of cakes. Well that should teach me to not buy things just because they are pretty but I know I will never learn. Afterwards we went home.

Love Squealer.

EDIT: I wrote the above in a lecture before. After lectures, i went into town to buy a hard drive and some lollies. I bought some jelly bellys, Reese's pieces and sour patch kids (purely because its Garrett's favorite lollies =D). So that made me really happy. Anywho when i got home, i thought i try out the hard drive, but when i opened the box the hard drive was massive compared to the Western Digital ones, so i'm hoping that i will be able to exchange it for another one. I hope that i can because i ripped the tape to open the box but i didn't open the plastic around the hard drive. Anywhoo fingers crossed.

To Love and Back

So i went ahead and had the haircut. I'm pretty happy with it, except it kinda makes me look like a little boy, or very asian, but i think it would be better when my fringe grows out a little more.

At least i sort of look younger.

Anywhoo, i should really get back to studying.

Love Squealer.

Shameless

So i am contemplating getting dianna agron's haircut but i am still a little unsure. I will probably go for a tinsy bit longer length or i may not, i haven't decided. I know its winter and the back of my neck will be cold if i cut my hair shorter. But ever since i've living in bendigo, i have a new found sense of independence, so i decided to get a hair cut by myself because normally i would go with my mum. 

I guess i can always clip it back if i don't like it, and its just hair, it will grow out. Do you guys think that it will suit me? I'm so jealous of dianna, she is so pretty. 

For some reason I am missing Gilmore Girls alot, but i don't have any of my dvds with me so i have to wait till the weekend. I can never get over how awesome and perfect that show is, i have watched it so many times and i don't think i will ever get sick of it. I still cry in certain scenes, even though i have seen it a billion times. I love the Rory/Lorelai relationship, they are everything that i have always aspired to be. I wish i had a daughter at 16 just so i can that relationship. 

Sorry life has been quite boring lately, nothing much is happening, so my posts will probably be very boring or non-existence. 

Love Squealer. 

Eyes like Sunsets

I love waking up in the morning to go on facebook, not to stalk other people (well's that not my primary motive anyways) but to read all the updates on my favorite bands. Whether its some photos, a new video update or plainly some little pieces of news, anything at all will excite me and leave me rearing to go for the day. So this leads me to saying that Dashboard Confessional announced they were having a sale on their merch, and i just couldn't resist. I went a little overboard, originally i had over $100 in my cart but i had to cut it down because i shouldn't be using to much money. I had it cut down to $60, so i thought i did pretty well. Normally i wouldn't have spent so much on one band but this is Dashboard, my favorite band ever, so thats how i justified it. Also the shipping as i mentioned previously is uber cheap and i had an extra 20% off the already cheap prices, so i wanted to make the most of it. For what i bought, it is pretty good compared to how much i would be able to buy the merchandise at Soundwave Revolution.  So hopefully soon i will have a big DC merch collection that i can stand back and admire. But yeah i should probably stop buying so i can save up some money for the concerts in September. So these are my purchases:

I may have went into a little overkill....

I'll hand them down to my kids when i grow up :) I am comtemplating whether to wear one of the tshirts to Soundwave Revolution. I usually like to stay mutual when i'm going to concerts.

I watched Lemonade Mouth yesterday, which is an original disney movie kinda like camp rock or high school musical. I guess it was alright, although some things were a bit unbelievable. The songs were pretty catchy though, although i wouldn't say they were as memorable as songs from Camp Rock or HSM. Overall it gives you a good happy feeling at the end because everything works out in the end. The movie is about a group of kids in detention who start a band. Actually i wouldn't mind what had happened to them happened to me in real life, as their band became pretty big (in the movie). Yeah i'm not really good at reviewing movies.

Love Squealer.

A Fire in A Flask

So it's been a while since i have updated, its just that this week i have been well doing nothing much quite frankly. Also i think i am a really moody person, i can get from feeling depressed to feeling happy, like a pregnant lady. I'm trying to control my moods, mostly i just feel not quite depressed, more of a detachment. Maybe because i'm thinking too much about the future and how life at the moment is something i need to get through. Being on tumblr and looking at all the band photos and whatnot really makes me happy. When i get really down, i would go back to watch the videos at Soundwave.
Lately I've been a bit better about being myself at uni and opening up to people more, so basically being myself is saying stupid/random things, over-reacting and sudden movements/outbursts; well at least that's what i think being myself is like, although i haven't got to the squealing yet. So i'm waiting for that to kick soon.

I made a The Maine tshirt on Sunday, with the words "The Maine is Love and love is real," for some reason i am in love with that line. I keep saying it over and over again and it gives me this surreal sense of happiness. The lines are not as smooth as i wanted it to be, it kept bleeding out. I think it was because the lines were thinner than usual, but at least from afar, you can't really notice it. Also the lines look a bit uneven in the photos but its more straighter in real life. People were complimenting me on the t shirt, but i don't think they realize that's a band t shirt or they couldn't really make out what it said because i wore a cardigan and tuck it into a skirt. I also wore my Dashboard Confessional tshirt as well and got complimented on it, mainly because of the giraffe but yeah i don't think they knew it was a band t shirt. The thing is that i don't like to wear 'normal' t shirts, like the printed ones you buy from the shops unless i really really like it, i only wear plain t shirts or band t shirts or my mustache one, which i still love to bits.

This week marked the beginning of eating healthy and being fit, which means a low carb diet and less snacking, and doing some form of exercise everyday. I think my diet has been going along alright, my portions are smaller and i am eating a heap of salad. Although my snacking is still pretty bad, i try to restrain myself, and i'm eating healthy snacks such as celery and fruit/nuts. Its just a habit i have to break. The exercise has been going alright as well, although its only been less than week, i hope i keep it up. The thing is i do jumping jacks in my room which makes a thumping noise so i have to plan a time to do exercise when no one is at home. None of my house mates have told me off for being too loud though so maybe i'll see how long i can prolong it.

It's going to be a hectic couple of weeks as i try to study for my exams and finish off my assignments, i need to stop going on tumblr, i got addicted again.

Love Squealer.

No News Is Bad News

I came home yesterday to find the D/C package waiting for me on the table, as much as i would have liked to have received it when the postman delivered it, i was all the way in Bendigo. I'm not sure which day it arrived but  it was pretty quick, and not to mention the shipping was so so cheap as well. I love the t-shirt although the D/C name is not as readable from far away. I want someone to come up to me and say that they like D/C too, that would be nice. Actually, M and I planned that when she got her Mayday Parade tshirt, we would wear them on the same day. Then we would act like we don't know each other and notice the tshirt and shout "Mayday" whilst pointing to the tshirts. I doubt we can do this without laughing thus blowing our illusion of being strangers. Anywho, i was carefully looking through the things that i ordered, i thought that i had ordered two logo patches but it turns out that one of them was a badge but that didn't really matter. And and, they were so nice, they gave me a free EP as well, I do have all the songs anyways, but it was very generous of them. Now i love D/C even more, their merch store is awesome in so many ways. I'm just hoping that there will be more new merch coming in the store so i can make a second purchase as they also gave me a 20% off discount, see, they're so generous.

The logo patch is a bigger than i expected it to be so i'm not sure where to place it on my yet-to-be-bought grey hoodie, also should i get a zip-up or pull over hoodie? I'm leaning towards a zip-up because they are just so much easier to put without messing up your hair or ripping your head off when you're trying to take off the hoodie. Also how awesome do the badges look on my backpack, i actually might put them on another bag though but i am not sure which one, the badges are quite small and look inconsequential, i would order more badges but i bought all the badges in the store, i might get another logo patch because they are so cheap. Ok, i think i am going to end up buying the whole darn store.

So i am currently listening to the music now and it might be just me but boy, it sounds a heck a lot better on the CD. I finally don't feel so guilty when i'm listening to music, because about 99% of my music are downloads. I go by a plan where i download an album and absolutely love it, i will eventually buy the album if the price is reasonable. Sometimes the price is quite high and pretty much only JB Hi-Fi has the CD's that i want, so they pretty much can set any price they want on the CD's. But they do have an amazing range and i love flicking through the CD's, wishing that i could buy a whole stack. Sometimes i am tempted to steal the WTK poster but its laminated so i can't steal it, yeah i have my limitations and guidelines when it comes to stealing posters.

On wednesday, our my housemates and I went to a gym class called Evolution which works out pretty much every part of your body. It was so tiring, i kept waiting for a break. I don't know how the others were able to be still going, i was so dead but i still tried to push myself because i paid for the class. I would have liked it if they played my music, so when i got really tired, i started singing 'Inside of You' but i was so out of breath that it sounded very very bad, no one could hear me anyways so that didn't matter. Although i kept forgetting the words because i was concentrating on doing the moves that the instructor told us to do. So now my body sorta aches in bits around my body. Its a good kind of pain because i worked out for it. It makes me feel less guilty so thats always a good thing. Other than the gym class, i have been doing minimal exercise, i try to incorporate some form of exercise every day, usually its some walking. I walked into town the other day and it was so relaxing because no one was around so i could sing aloud and the environment was so serene, i feel much more calm and blissful walking around the area. I walked down this street that looked like autumn has spat all over it. There were so many fallen golden leaves and if it wasn't for the kids who were playing in the pile of leaves, i would have jump around in the leaves myself. The sun rays were piercing through the trees, it looked so pretty and peaceful, i wish i had my camera so i could have taken a photo. I'm hoping that i will be able to capture that scene one day. Thinking about it more and more, it reminded me of America. Well okay, so many things are reminding me of america, a place that i have never been too.

So thats all from me,


Love Squealer.

Smelt like Daisy

Soundwave revolution is turning out to be another amazing festival with an already awesome line up and about 15 more bands to be announced. I cannot wait! When they first announced the earlier bands, none really caught me eye but since they announced hellogoodbye, everything kinda of just went uphill. But I still wasnt sold on going until Panic!At the Disco was announce, then I was sold, just like that.
And then when I thought it couldn't get any better, they announced dashboard confessional and I was gone. So I'm waiting for the time to buy tickets so I can lock myself in. I wonder what the full line up will look like, I'm can't really think of other bands that would likely come,most of them are small and have already been here in the past year or two.
Also there is going to be a venue change. And I'm not sure where it will be. I'm thinking docklands or maybe sandown racecourse, those a pretty much the venues I know, but I wish they would stay at melb showgrounds.

So going back to uni after a shirt break was not the greatest, it kinda felt a little awkward when being asked questions about what you did over the mid sem. I just say that I did nothing which usually brought hehe cnversation to a halt, socializing is tiring. I haven't really found anyone that I have clicked with, and while it's only been a couple of months, I still find it fustrating when i dont have anything to contribute the conversation. There are only few people that I actually want to talk to and actually have things to say.
Well this week hasn't been that great, a couple of assignment due and a test but nothing major. I also have my placement this week at a hospital which i am looking forward to but im worried about not knowing where the pharmacy is and getting lost in the hospital. Being a hospital makes me cry just coz I'm quite sensitve to these sort if things.

Did anyone watch the later episode of glee? I though It was really good even though I didnt know any of the songs. It was quite sad and Sam got to have a bigger role than in the previous episodes so that was good. There were other little bits if the story that was good notable but I'll won't spoil anything as I usually do
Anywhoo, I'm tired and going to stop this post.

Love squealer.

You Have Stolen My Heart

I haven't felt this happy about a piece of news since i dare i say ever.
Dashboard Confessional got announced for Soundwave Revolution a couple of hours ago, but only found like 20mins ago because it wasn't announced on stupid facebook.
Oh wells nothing matters now. i can't even study now or concentrate on anything.

Love Squealer.

A Generation in a Coma

So a week (and a day) has past and i haven't really done anything worth mentioning cept for a few moments. Boy this week has been quick and i haven't achieved the things that i planned for the mid-sem break, which shouldn't really surprise me. Well i like to hope that i would get more work done as this year is really important that my grades are top notch and my work needs to be done in a timely manner. I've got an assignment due tomorrow but i only have a little description to write, and i sound condescending in it, i'm trying not to but there aren't really any guidelines for the writing so i am covering my bases (by explaining everything, not being condescending). There is a test on Wednesday but i think i got the material down pat, just a little revision should set me up right, and i think it is only 2.5% of the total mark so I'm not so fussed about the best mark.
For the beginning of the week, i had two shifts at work, and even though they were only 5 hours, i felt extremely tired afterwards, it is really putting me off work but i need the money for the awesome concerts that i hopefully will be attending at the end of year. And also I need the money to sustain my growing internet shopping addiction, well its not really an addiction yet, luckily shipping from US is expensive otherwise i would have ordered so many more stuff by now. I've been spending my time on merchandise websites, making up mock orders and checking out the shipping prices. I told myself that i am not allowed to make another purchase until i receive the DC one, which i don't think will be for a couple of weeks because they haven't shipped the package yet. But i hope by then the AUS dollar hasn't gone down, it is very high so another reason why i want to buy more stuff. Actually i just want to buy band stuff, i'm not really interested in anything else. On Wednesday, I went out op shopping but i didn't find anything that interested me. I did end up buying a grey wool blazer/coat for winter but i need to wait to dry clean it before i can wear it, at least i didn't walk away empty-handed.
On Thursday, in the morning, my hellomerch package arrived, I was so surprised. The shipping was very quick, only about a week. The package was tiny, so i was questioning whether they had fit everything into the package or not. But when i opened it rather hastily, they had everything there, the package was very tight. I was a bit disappointed with the tshirts having no plastic wrapping or wrapping, i guess its better for the environment, but there were a lot dust and other debris on the tshirts. But that didn't concern me too much, i was way too excited to be getting my stuff!! I wore one of the tshirts that day and i will probably be wearing way too many times.

 For lunch, there was a group picnic on, but only about half the group came. There was V,M, Sh, and I, so it was a pretty small group. But we had fun catching up and everything. There was this massive group near where we were sitting and more people kept coming and joining them. They looked like high school kids, so i dunno what they were doing in the park. Anywhoo we were watching them and trying to come up with the conversations they might be having. There was this girl who was playing with her puppy and it was the most cutest thing, it looked like a cross between a chihuahua and a Pomeranian. It was so fluffy and small, i wish i had taken a photo of it.  Afterwards, we dropped Sh at Flinders and made our way to Riot Art, i was looking for white paint but they didn't have any. Then we walked to the ticketek office, so V could buy Walk with dinosaurs tickets. And after, we all walked back to MC up stairs food court to meet with other people. We bummed around there for a while before we went home.
On Friday, i tried to study but i ended up not doing much. I did at least finish the spreadsheet part of my assignment. I told myself i had to finish that off before i could go to spotlight. I stopped by DFO to find some black skinny legs but i was unsuccessful, a lot of the jeans nowadays are not those fully black ones, they're like really dark dark blue/grey, i wanted one where the denim looked like it was dyed/painted black, if you guys get what i'm saying. I went to spotlight to try to find some white fabric paint, but i couldn't find any either. I decided to buy some fabric fixative to make normal paint into acrylic paint and give that a go.
I had a full day of work on Saturday, uneventful and a very long day.
And that leads me to Sunday, again doing nothing again. I managed to do some minimal work, but better than nothing i guess. I also made another tshirt, and surprise surprise its another band one. I wanted to do Every Avenue now, so i can mentally cross off my favourite bands. The lettering was annoying to do but pretty straight forward and luckily the letter were mostly straight lines. I used the fabric fixative mixed with yellow and red paint. I dunno how long it will last but it turned okay. The consistency was thinner so i had to do more layers but maybe that had something to do with the lighter colours; i've been using black and i can get away with just one layer. The paint wasn't as smooth either, which meant when it dried it would be quite bumpy compared to the black paint. I might buy another colour of fabric paint to compare it with using the acrylic paint and fabric fixative. Also it might have something to do with the paints being old, over 5 years? But it looked fine to use, so maybe i can try using new paints next time. I actually have so many plain tshirts that i can experiment with so thats okay. I keep buying plain tshirts when they're cheap, but i love tshirts, they are just so awesome and effortless when it comes to dressing in the morning. Oh and teh edges are not as smooth as fabric paint, because the paint from the contact paper gets stuck with the paint on the shirt, but overall i'm pretty happy with it, you can read what it says and it looks not too bad when you look at it from a distance.

Arghhh uni tomorrow.

Love Squealer.