coz we're alive.

this post is a couple days too late but i thought i might as well do it now otherwise it would be awkward the later i write the post. i've been too sick and tired to scrounge up the energy to write the post. i thought i would reflect on the past year and what it meant to me and the people who have made my life so much easier and definitely more fun.
2010 was more of a murky year for me, neither was it a good year or a bad one. it started off with a fun summer  holidays which included copious consumption of junk food, and hanging out with friends and basically doing nothing. it was the year when uni started and i was miserable, waiting and wishing by some miracle that i would get an offer for dentistry. time passed and no such luck. the year i missed high school miserably and i felt as if i could not move on. the year when i wished i was a melbourne uni student and spent a little too much time over there. the year where i gotten closer to a friend, where we bonded through our social awkwardness. the year where i made new friends yet sometimes feel as if i don't fit in. the year where i got my laptop and got distracted. the year i got into tumblr and an obsession began. the year i lost my concert virginity. the year i went to bendigo three times. the year i went to gippsland. the year i realized how much i liked to wag uni to go to the country. the year i became addicted to nail polish. the year that i thought i had wasted. that's all i can remember about last year, sometimes i regret that year because it didn't lead me in any direction in life. but i don't think that i would want to take the year back, because that would mean losing the friends that i've made and growing tighter with the friends i already have.
i just want to say thank you to all my friends who have been there for me and just knowing their presence in my life makes me smile. these are the only people who put up with my squealing, whining, obsession with tumblr, my clingy-ness, who understand me, who are the constant when everything else seems crappy.
so yeah basically the rest of this post is some emotional, sentimental, mumble jumble verbal vomit. feel free to avert your eyes elsewhere.
To Y, thank you for just being there even when you physically weren't, and although you never came out to baddy with me, i still forgive you. i love how i can always call to talk about whatever and the one person who i say anything to and pour my heart out. even though our plans of going to uni together didn't really come together, my bad, i know one day that will come true ;) thank you for all your pep talk and always cheering me up. one day we will take a holiday together!
To M, my fan girl buddy. thank you for our shared fan girling moments, having you there makes what we do/think much less embarrassing. thank you for the constant use of your house, but even without your house, i still love you. thank you for our late night conversations, and then waking up early and going to uni dead.
To S, thank you for letting my hang out with you during uni time and just always being there. i can't explain how much our friendship means to me. i love that i can always talk to you and how we share the love of gilmore girls.
To V,  i don't think i would have made it through uni this year without you. i love our social awkwardness. i love how connected and in sync we are. thank you for understanding me and being my security blanket. thank you for laughing at me when ever i stumble across an awkward situation. thank you for just being there, you made uni so much easier. oh yeah and also introducing me to the wonderful world of glee.
To N, thank you for making me laugh, and being my tumblr buddy at uni, no one really understands our love for tumblr (at uni). thank you for the moments when i see you and i always burst in laughter. thank you for finding trivial and weird things funny with me.
To B, thank you for putting up with me and my craziness. thank you for being my back up security blanket. thank you for making those long breaks more bearable and fun. thank you for being so easy to get along with and easy to talk to. although we have only knew each other for a few months, i feel as if i have known you for ages.
To R, thank you for being there at uni. i love our shared love of taylor swift. thank you for finding my weirdness/craziness cute. thank you for being you. thank you for comforting me even when my problems seem trivial.
To T, thank you for making me smarter. i love your talks on politics and religion. i love that you beat us every day on the super quiz. thank you for accepting my ignorance and answering my stupid questions.
To M, thank you for helping me slowing getting over my fear of touching/being close to people. can't say i look forward to your random hugs, but there is less and less cringing and tension.

And to everyone else that i didn't mention, thank you for being a part of my life and i hope that this year, you continue to be the awesome people that you are and still continue to be a part of my life.

In compiling the photos, i think it almost brought me to tears, remembering how much fun i had and how much i wish that those moments could last forever.

I don't really have any resolutions for this year. I am taking things as they come and i hope that this year will be more happier than last year. Hope the new year will be awesome for you guys :)

Love Squealer.