Just a little bored

Hello.
I'm bored and sick of studying.
I do have a party later
So hopefully that will be fun.
Which reminds me, I still need to get a present.
Which I should do right, but
I can't be stuffed getting out of my chair.
Yes I'm in a very lazy mood today.
Bye for now



Love squealer.

i am a kayak, hear me roar

i have a craving for cheeseburgers.

i went to state today to study,
but it wasn't really productive.
i spent half the time using the free wifi,
which is great because it's faster than my capped internet.
i basically just watched youtube videos.
but i did get some practice exams done,
although i wasn't able to do english,
i swear i tried,
i kinda looka stared at the blank page for ages
before giving up and thinking that i cannot write essays.
i'm so stupid, i left all my hard times stuff at school,
so i have nothing to base my essays on
so it's turning out crap.
i should invite Y/S or someone to study with me,
it kinda gets boring,
and you're eavsdropping on someone's else conversations.


i was really tired when i got home.
so i watched gilmore girls and went for a nap
and here i am now.

i'm trying to find new music to download
because i'm sick of my music but i'm not sure what to get into,
i'm trying to download some classical for my learning,
but i can't seem to find any albums if you will.

i'm not studying as much as i want to be,
and its nearly halfway through the holidays.
i wanted to write heaps of essays,
but i've only written one,
which is a shame.
i can't write anymore
and the exam's in 5 weeks.

i'll see if i can attempt an essay later.

i need some motivation.
oh i also need to start my bound notes,
considering it takes me forever to write notes.

well that's all,
im too tired to think of anything else to say.
life is hard,
i want my exams to be over
but i also don't want to finish school.


Love Squealer.

you'll always find your way back home

i'm actually not quite sure who that is,
i'm usually pretty good at distinguishing Mary Kate or Ashley,
but in these pictures, it's like ashley and marykate rolled into one.
yes i know their twins but they do have their distinct features.
well i think i'll settle that it's Mary Kate.
correct me if i'm wrong.

Why do you want to become a medical practitioner/health professional?

I have no idea.

many would say i'm not fit for the above,

and even i might say that.

but to express my future in words is futile.

i don't know.

well i have a plan,
but really

deep down i know it won't turn out that way.

well whatever i am feeling,
the applications still need to get done
and i am procastinating.



why do i always feel so wasted at the end of the day?
that came out wrong.
i meant i felt like i have done anything
and i've wasted yet another day that i'll never get back.
i always feel that my life is too boring,
i don't achieve much, i'm just studying,
i like studying and all but it does get boring.
i'm looking at the stack of practice exams i have to do,
and i just want to crawl in a corner,
and.....





watch highschool musical.




can't think of anything else to add,
but i hope you guys make the most of your day,
don't let them wither away.



Love Squealer.

life's a climb

the hannah montana movie was really good,
though it was a bit short and technically nothing really happened,
but who cares? I liked it and i shall watch it again.
the guy who plays miley's love interest,
i can't be stuffed searching his name,
has a really manly voice,
i know his a man but it's a kinda different manly voice,
its doesn't suit him.
well try listening to him and then maybe you'll understand,
or it can just be me....
which is usually the case.

i am in the process of filling out medicine/dentistry applications,
and i have no idea what i want to say or what i can say.
i know i want to do something big, make a change,
all that cliche stuff but it's what i want to do,
but i cannot come up with an original way to express that.
i just want to help, i want to dedicate my life to someone other than myself,
well i guess that applies for medicine,
applying for dentistry is much harder,
no offence, but they don't do as much as doctors do,
maybe i'll work with a charity to promote dental hygiene
i want to do something that will make me travel,
make me learn and to help.
there's so many dedicated people and i wish i was like them.
they just have an aura about them.
i just hope that someday i will find something i truly love.

wish me luck on the applications.

it's nearly the end of year 12 and it's making me sad,
i was thinking of how i loved my time at macrob
and i wish i didn't have to leave.
the people and environment,
just everything is comforting,
i never felt so comfortable, so free to do what i want.
i was thinking back to year8 self,
and i hated the idea of leaving st columba's
but now i'm thinking that was so stupid,
because its corny but macrob is one of the best things ever,
(the others are family, friend, HSM and hannah montana and gilmore girls)
i adore my friends to death and i would not know where i'll be without them,
they just understand me and even if they don't,
they just nod and smile politely. =P

but now it's time for change,
and i cannot stop that,
in someways it's freaking me out
but also i'm strangely exhilarated.

go out in the world and find something you love,
not something that has other have pushed you towards,
because i reckon if it's meant to be,
you will find that place that makes you happy.




Love Squealer.

a day in the sun

i am done.
yes i have finished all my uni applications
and boy do i feel relieved.
now i can concentrate on studying,
while watching gossip girls and the hannah montana movie
which my friend gave to me and which i am grateful for.
darn gossip girls and it's return of season 3 during exam studying period
darn that it has hilary duff in it
and why is it so addictive?


today was the last day of school
and it consisted of me running around a lot but it was fun.
we had lip syncing which was really fun,
all the others groups were amazing while the dance that i was in...
well it very loose,
half of us burst into giggles because we didn't know the moves.
but the people who could actually dance was really good,
the front row that is.
at least we try.
i wish there was a video to show our epic fail.
amazing, oreads didn't come last, so yeah,
that was good too.

i was getting sad that we don't have much school left.
i think i will miss macrob so much.
i said to friend that things will never change,
everyone will apply to the same course and go to the same uni
so that we will be together forever.
wishful thinking...

also this is going to be the start of an extremely hectic studying period
so i hope i do study.

i went with my friend to the reject shop,
and were lining up and i wanted to get a price check on something,
so my friend tries to swipe against the machine
and then i said:
"Y, that's the etpos machine."
"well they all look the same"
"yeah but you used your bank card all the time."
i thought it was a funny moment,
even if you guys don't.

well that's all.

Love Squealer.

eighteen is the loneliest number

something very relevant to whose reality.

today i feel so old.
now that i'm 18, it really sucks.
might go off and buy some lottery tickets or something
to validate the fact that i'm eighteen.
i would buy alcohol if i wasn't so against it,
maybe i can buy it for my friends,
not that i would endorse them to drink.


i wonder what people mean when they say partying?
do they mean dancing, or eating or drinking, talking?
well maybe it's a collective term,
i mean when people say "let's party all night"
what exactly am will i be doing?
partying? yes i know but really, what would i be doing?
partying means for me is to go a party,
but you can't go to parties all night
unless you leave and then come back repeatedly
but then thats weird and people will be like wtf?


there's only 2 weeks before end of term
which means everything's rushed to get things done.
i also have to finish yearbook stuff.
i hate how there's not enough photos for me to use.
i feel bad because i really haven't done much,
but i am trying,
it's just that i think illustrator hates me
and always screws and hence makes me lose my file
which means i have restart the page,
and i have restarted my page so many times.


and and i have another idol,
well i did like her before but i wasn't really looking up to her.
well it's vanessa hudgens.
i watched her on ellen,
and she's just really poist and bubbly.
i thinks she handles herself so well.
and i love how she talks,
she's so confident and fun and very sociable.
despite all the scandals.
if i was on ellen, there would be many awkward silences.
yes i kinda have a thing for debaters/talkative people,
in non-weird way...




i'm tired and should be studying,
so laters.
sorry for the lack of flow in my post structure.



Love Squealer

i solemnly swear...

SACs are fun.
at least they would be if instead of writing whatever,
we could play games or do something fun,
like i dunno buying lollies in a candy store.
that's fun.
well i guess that would be weird if you were graded on buying lollies.
like what would the standards be?
hmmm, that's a funny thought.
well the reason for the above pointlessness,
is that i had two sacs today,
i'm not so sure about physics due to the fact that i hardly studied
and didn't really understand the whole topic, so yeah
probably get my results tomorrow,
because as relax as Mr.R is, he always corrects things really quickly.
which is really weird because i reckon it would be the last thing he would want to do.

today i was working on the yearbook
and my hate for illustrator grew,
because it kept not responding
which made me really scared that i was going to lose my data.
it already happened a couple times before,
and i'm so irritated about it.

the senior dance off was today,
it was really good
and made me add another thing on my 'to-do after yr12' list.
i'm going to take dance lessons.
the easiest type of dancing there could possibly be,
due to my lack of coordination and control.
watching the dancing made me feel very incompetent.
another highlight was watching student leaders dancing.
J.T was so cute when she was doing the dance.
also i've decided that she is also my idol
(the list keeps keeps getting bigger)
she's so smart and amazing and very involved in school.
i hope she doesn't read this because it's kinda creepy.
back to dance off. macrob won.
so we had to paper-rock-scissors to decide the winner of the Senior Cup,
which sucked because we lost. darn.

i also sold some chocolates today,
but most of them were I.O.U's.
hopefully i will be an amazing chocolate seller as S.Z
she sold like 4 boxes in 4 days, which is crazy.

and and we're ranked 62nd for the nike challenge,
the macrob team B that is, team a is like miles ahead.
but the first rank school has ran like 8100km
which is shifty
but who am i to question it,
seriously who wants to run a marathon a day,
excluding some health freaks(well freak in a good way.
don't worry, i'm a freak too.


love Squealer.