big massive pain

i realised i have said:
"I hate my life"
so many times this week.
i mean, i know my life isn't that bad,
in fact I know I'm lucky.
but there are some moments
when i feel like... well
"I hate my life"
i'm sure you guys have had your moments.
i guess mine just usually after a SAC
or when i cannot do something,
or i can do something but i did it wrong.

yepp. pretty much summed up how i felt after the spesh SAC today.
well i thinked i did pretty bad
according to my standards.

But the only good thing about totally flunking something
is that it gives me motivation to try harder.
granted the motoivation is short-lived.

man i still have a headache.

i was just thinking what disney is going to churn out next.
i mean high school musical is nearly over and
i assume hannah montana is going to be too.
and i was also thinking that maybe i need another phase.
i mean i'm not into guy celebrities because what's the point?
i dunno. i go through heaps of phases, like children jewllery, beados, hama beads..
yet i think i'm running out of things.
i'm really interested in fashion construction
but i'm really bad with sewing and i have a low attention span.
all my projects have to be within an hour otherwise i'll lose interest.
but my friend and i are planning
to take a fashion sewing course after yr12 for fun.
but we want to take one that doesn't force you to
make a something by a due date. Because after yr 12
i am done with due dates and exams, SACS and grades
well until uni.


oh dear, exams in two weeks.
oh bother.















oh and HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY for RAMYAA. for tomorrow
i don't think she will see this but anywhoo.


Squealer