big massive pain

i realised i have said:
"I hate my life"
so many times this week.
i mean, i know my life isn't that bad,
in fact I know I'm lucky.
but there are some moments
when i feel like... well
"I hate my life"
i'm sure you guys have had your moments.
i guess mine just usually after a SAC
or when i cannot do something,
or i can do something but i did it wrong.

yepp. pretty much summed up how i felt after the spesh SAC today.
well i thinked i did pretty bad
according to my standards.

But the only good thing about totally flunking something
is that it gives me motivation to try harder.
granted the motoivation is short-lived.

man i still have a headache.

i was just thinking what disney is going to churn out next.
i mean high school musical is nearly over and
i assume hannah montana is going to be too.
and i was also thinking that maybe i need another phase.
i mean i'm not into guy celebrities because what's the point?
i dunno. i go through heaps of phases, like children jewllery, beados, hama beads..
yet i think i'm running out of things.
i'm really interested in fashion construction
but i'm really bad with sewing and i have a low attention span.
all my projects have to be within an hour otherwise i'll lose interest.
but my friend and i are planning
to take a fashion sewing course after yr12 for fun.
but we want to take one that doesn't force you to
make a something by a due date. Because after yr 12
i am done with due dates and exams, SACS and grades
well until uni.


oh dear, exams in two weeks.
oh bother.















oh and HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY for RAMYAA. for tomorrow
i don't think she will see this but anywhoo.


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study study study

ekk! Less than 3 weeks till mid-years.
oh this year is happening so fast.
and i still can't believe I'm in year 12,
although the ginormous work and SACs may have been a clue.
I hope I do.

It's just that this is the one chance I have
and i better not screw up because
a) my parents will kill me,
b) my friends will kill me,
c) i will kill myself
and d) my life is over.
yes yes i am being dramatic
but thats what i do
but yes...
suicide is never ok, seek help.
remember there's always someone out who cares for you.

well back to bizarre murder-murder-suicide,
i think i really need to get high as in score.
i know a lot of people say that ENTER isn't everything,
but right now it is.
it is the one thing i need to get the career i want.
and it's not like i'm crazy with studying
in fact right now i should be doing english.

i went to our joint school musical Beauty and the Beast.
and it was AMAZING times a thousands times.
it was that good.
everything was just so well done,
makeup, costumes, set, orchestra and the actors/singers.
I loved it. ahh i just can't say enough how good it was.
i wish you guys could of seen it.
it would blow your minds out.
(looks like there a running theme in this post,eh?)

oh and we also got our yr12 hoodies today.
they are incredible.
so warm and so cool.
i love the fact that none of the other
year levels really understand why there's a fork on it.
yesh, inside jokes are cool.
only if you're on the inside though.
i want to wear the hoodie everyday
but i dont think that's hygienic.
but yes i do love it.


i think this post makes me sound like
an overhyper person who obsess about everything
and i guess in some ways that is true.

well woopie-ti-dooo

Squealer.

Amazed

Thank you heaps to rae/tammy for the massive hannah montana posters,
and let me tell you they are massive.
i'll post up photos when i put them up.
i really like it because i don't have much HM posters
and It would be nice to make the transistion
from my old phase of Hilary Duff and MKA to HSM and HM.

yes i know, I'm seventeen
but the reason why i buy into the disney factory is
because of my deprived childhood.
i like to believe that my childhood was filled with studying,
so now i'm making up for the loss years.
also i love the happiness of disney.
that everything is so light-hearted
that even evil people still managed to look not-so-evil.
well except the witch in snow white, she was scary and
i still can't watch that part on snow white.














well anyways, I try to eminate that happiness into my life,
but obviously it doesn't work in reality.


and my dream job is to be the head dentist at disney,
if there's such a thing.










my adorable cousin. I am in love with her.


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puffy stickers

puffy stickers are tres cool.
the way that they puff up and and you can press them down.
and also 3d stickers. they're just cool.
no explanation needed.
(partly because no explanation comes to mind)
















i remember these stickers.
they used to give them free at the dentists,
in hopes that they will encourage you look after your teeth.
sif, i am not giving up lollies.
owww, my teeth is aching right now.



oh i have finish two essays out of three that i have started.
which is pretty good.
writing essays are so boring.
what i tend to do is
start an essay and then get bored halfway
and just start another essay.
so i have unfinished essays in which i cannot hand in.

yes i know i might as well finish the damn essay
because the body paragraphs are different anyways,
but that's just the way i roll.


my friends and i were on a tram,
and one of them pointed out how repetitive we are.
when one person says something,
someone else tends to chime in
and repeat the exact thing or slightly different.
then we decided that we were spending too much time together
and need some time apart.
it was weird considering we hardly have any classes together.

oh and my friends have decided to call me "Gwendolyn"
because they think that 'jenny' does not suit me.
i think jenny suits me very well but they're just crazy.
they were orignally going to call me 'glenda' but
i outragously protested because that unfortunately is also the name
of my obese, painstakingly garullous maths teacher.
(no offence i mean she's an ok teacher and all but if you met her,
you would know what i mean).
so now i also respond to gwendolyn
(i respond to anything basically,
i just think everyone would be calling me)


toodle-loo

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lights shining down on me

it's surprisingly warm today.
because i don't check the weather.
i don't mind as it's been uber freezing the past week.

nothing exciting today, just tutor
and probably a whole heap of naps.

i should write some english essays.
because my english is really bad.

i also need to think of a new word for gay
as in sad, stupid...
(excuse me if i do offend anyone)
because of the hilary duff ad
thats adovocates to young people
to prevent using hateful words.
so to try and better myself as a person,
i have to stop saying gay.
ad link is here.
quite insightful, for a small-minded person
like me anyways.













here's a shot of the commercial,
hilary duff's the background.




well toodle loo,
i'll see you
in a day or two.


Squealer.

body-numbing pain

as if it's numbing,
my body is aching so much right now.
it's such a pain (lols, it's a pun) to do anything remotely physical.
darn me and my unfitness.

well yesterday was badminton competition.
and it wasn't that bad.
i had time to practice a bit without a teacher looking.
the amazing thing was that i was able to serve and
play without looking too much like an idiot.
i played in singles and doubles
and i really can't play in singles because i'm so reliant on my partner.
i like playing with V.S coz she's really good and picks up my slack.

at least i won one game out of four,
which i consider to be quite an achievement considering my last post.
plus we were actually meant to lose anyways
coz we were versing people better than us.
oh and you would be surprised to know
that there were people who were worse than me.
and that's really saying something,
not to mention that they were meant to be in a team 2 levels higher.

but overall fun day.
there wasn't much pressure and the mood was quite mellow.
i wouldn't mind repeating it
but i don't think i'll ever have that chance.
but i will keep trying.


so today i woke up and my body was writhing in pain.
and i have this massive bruise on my wrist,
its like 4cm in diameter.
but even though i couldn't walk properly
or change my clothes or move,
it was pretty worth it to play.

i know i'm making a very big deal out of this,
but it's actually a big thing for me,
if you understood me
and my lack of sports for around 17 years.



i cannot wait for the hannah montana movie to come out.
i wish i could see it with my friends
but none of my friends are into that if you know what i mean.
maybe i'll go with my cousins (who are 4 and 11)
to whom we are connected by our love of HSM and hannah montana.
one of my favourite pictures
i just love the happiness and fun that the picture portrays.


credits to ~bischie08 from deviant art.
unsure of how to credit people.



ohhh weekend tomorrow.
yay more procastinaition.




Squealer.