Indifference with a tinge of bright orange

Hey guys
Now that the English exam is over, I don't feel relieved as I thought I would
Now the thing that is bugging is my result and how I went
Personally I don't think I did to well but I don't want to jinx It
Right now I'm trying to convince myself that getting below my wanted enter is okay.
Why does one subject generate so much fear?
I know this seems so redundant compared to other things in the world
But being in the type of environment that I was brought up on
It's partially not my fault.
I just gotta look forward now what's done is done and there's nothing I can do.
At least spesh wasn't that hard like last years.

Just lookin forward to methods
Something that I can so relatively comfortably
I like having defitie answers and working with numbers
It just clicks.
I was sitting inbetween two smart people so hopefully their smartness aurea helped me =]
Well gotta get back to miserable studying
And work my butt for next couple of exams
To make up for my English.

Sorry about such a school related post
Right now that's all that matters to me.
I know it shouldn't be but I can't help.
Maybe I'll grow in the future as a perso. Not height wise
Well I wouldn't mind being taller.


Love squealer

Your mouth has a nose?

Sorry no pictures, I can't add any on my iPod touch.
I'll promise to double next time.

Hey guyss
Having trouble sleeping
And currently internally freaking out about English exam
Hoping that I will somehow ace it.
Weekend has been pretty much intense studying
And me studying for long periods time gets really boring
So I end taking extra long naps when I should be writing essays.


Nothing much happened
My life will get exciting soon
After all the exams are over
I get to plan my eigthteenth, which I am forcing everyone to come.
I'm so excited
There's just so much that I want to do .


I'm also gonna miss school heaps
Where else would I get to see my dearest friends everyday.
I see withdrawal symptoms in the future.


That is all.

Love always squealer.

One Moment in Time

Hey guys!
Did you miss me?
Probably not.

Well the past couple of weeks have been hectic,
trying to organise five presents for teachers was a bad bad idea and create a lot of stress on my behalf.
i don't know what to buy my friends let alone my teachers.
i was so stressed that i comtemplated wagging physics,
but luckily i didn't and went shopping during periods 3 and 4. (So now i'm proud to annouce that i've only miss 8 classes the whole year, one day for badminton and apparently 2 for UMAT??)
And and i got to buy alcohol for the first and me+wine=confusion,
seriously there was a plethora of wine on the shelves,
my friend had asked my me to buy some wine as i wasn't in uniform.
i just asked for helped and nodded at everything the guy said, he could of been selling me the grossest wine for i know.
i hope not though, it was for a teacher.

so yeah back to stress,
i've been finding it hard to write essays now,
but during swotvac i plan to engulf myself in english to get that 41+ that i want.

RECAP:
Old School Uniform:
I unfortunately didn't have my uniform and felt sad that everyone had their's. I've been so busy that i didn't really have time just to sit down and hang with friends. well nothing much happened that day.

Reinvention of School Uniform:
I made my dress into a kinda disney princess thing with a massive bow at the back, which i love well partly because i made it as well. This day we were all in fear that yr12 assembly was going to be cancelled because of the numerous vandalisms at school, which i know that it (hopefully) wasn't us. Everyone was dress signing and it was sad. i want to save my dress for later reading.

Valedictory:
It was a fun night, but i was sad because our school doesn't wear the graduation robes like my old school (which is the one thing i envy about my old school, that and that fact that it was close to home). I said my speech but it was pretty crap compared to the others, sorry guys, i didn't put much effort into the speech, well at least i squeal and go high pitchy. I graduated guys! Are you proud of me?

Celebration Day:
In the morning, i bought so much chocolate for my form teacher. I DRESSED UP AS HANNAH MONTANA. highlight of my life! i was sad because T and J wasn't there and couldn't see me as Hannah montana. generally it was a day of cam whoring and tears. though i didn't cry that much. i felt like it wasn't the end, that i will always be with the class 09. if that makes sense, hence why i didn't cry. everyone's costumes were amazing, they all should be up on facebook i reckon. i went in the jumping castle with yen, and then realised that i was scared, i kept bouncing everywhere and i thought that i would full on bang into someone so me and y just clung onto the egde. please don't laugh, it was scary. the video was so good, seriously so much better than previous years. and everyone just seem to have such a fun day. after the year nines were so sweet they had little post it notes everywhere saying they'll miss us etc. and they formed a tunnel leading us out of school, sorry i can't explain that better. but it was such a memorable day, something that will forever be implanted in my mind and heart.


That's all for now, sorry for the brief recap,
but i should really be studying.


Love Always, Squealer.

The new is so yesterday

The new saddle club is so lame.
Man it has been so long since I've watched tv.
I guess as a 12 year old, the was lame,
But it was a guilty pleasure and it was fun to watch.
But the new one is ever to lame.
They are so young and look funny.
Seriously, what a fun way to start in the tv industry.
And a close up of your face on tv,
Especially when tv does not flatter.
The dialogue is so stupid and cliche.
How many times can I use the word lame?




Yay the Australian dollar is so good right now.
Time to buy american stuff which I was meant to do
Before the financial crisis.

Will update later very later
Got to study for exams
They're so soon.

Love squealer.