Speak Now

I should really stop listening to Taylor Swift's leaked songs from her album because by the time the album comes out, i won't listen to it anymore. anywho i'm listening to "Speak Now" which is apparently the new name of her album. Its obviously about love but its like grown up love well not love in high school anymore. "Speak Now" is about a girl stopping a wedding because she liked the guy and she knew the bride wasn't right for the guy. I like the song itself, but something about the message bugs me. I don't like the whole idea of showing up to a wedding to stop it, except maybe in Shrek. I mean i would hate for someone to interrupt my wedding and tell me that the guy that i am marrying is the wrong guy. And also if the guy didn't want to marry the girl in the first place, why didn't he just say something? Nooo he is going to be a weak person and let his lover do it for him. Ok maybe that was a little harsh and maybe i don't know the whole story and its only a song. Other than that, if you take the song for its love value, its pretty sweet i guess.

The past week has been pretty uneventful, the last week of first year uni went by normally, nothing special happened. thats the thing i miss about high school, when it is coming to an end, you can tell with the less amount of work and celebrations but at uni, its just like any other week. The last day was pretty fun. we did the whole badminton as usual and Y finally came after a year of forcing her to come, i wasn't really playing very well so i just spent most of the time with Y. Its sad to know that i would have to wait another month to hang out with the group but i guess it is something to look forward to. i wish i did a course that didn't have exams but i'm not really creative, artistic or can write which are the usual courses that have assignments. anywhooo, after badminton, half the group went with B to his sister's apartment, it was raining pretty heavily and hung out in the foyer which was really warm and nice waiting for B. I pretended that it was my house and we were watching tv, ok so i like to use my imagination, i loved playing house as a child.
so then we made our way to lygon street to eat at universal. the food was pretty good, but i wished i bought an entree because i couldn't finish the main. i ordered a chicken, mushroom and bacon in cream sauce pasta which after a while got a little too creamy which usually happens with creamy stuff. Then we went to Koko Black for dessert, they told us to sit outside because our group was a little big, i think some people didn't want to eat there anymore, so they got up and left, me and nug and V kinda felt bad so we decided to tell one of the staff because they had turned on the heaters for us. So we made our way to Max Brenner, where i had chocolate licks again but me and Nug wished that we had sneaked in strawberries like last time :) Then we all split up to go home, i got home at around 9.40, i didn't realized it was a little late. Yep overall very fun day though very few photos.

Over the weekend i did pretty much nothing except go on tumblr and watch Veronica Mars, because my friends gave me season 1 for my birthday. then i started making my friend's birthday present late sunday night because i didn't think that it would take that long but indeed it did. i made a set of pjs and a tshirt and half a dress. (i hope she doesn't read this because i've only given two thirds of the present ). i thought the t shirt was awesome, i made a mustache tshirt, wish i had taken a photo of it but i finished it really late last night, like really really late. (if you're S and you're reading this, please skip the next three lines :]) when i was making the dress, i didn't realized that it would turn out to look like a school uniform because its a blue dress with a white collar but i hope that once i make the scalloped hem, it would look less like a school dress.

 this is the fabric i used for the pjs, i have a huge roll of this fabric sitting in my room for a couple of years now

this is the cut out of the mustaches i used for the t-shirt, so imagine this in black felt on a white tshirt. 

So i went to sleep at 4.40 and then had to wake up at 7.30. And i have been feeling weird all day. i couldn't really concentrate while i was studying at school. i think i fell asleep while listening to a lecture. yeah i am doing pretty badly with my studying, i keep forgetting everything that i write down and its so hard to memorize the equations and mechanisms. oh wells i've got two weeks. oh yeah i met up with S in the morning which was pretty good but it was quite short because my train was running late, haven't seen her in a while and don't think that i will until after exams, maybe i could organize a study date and J too. ok so my study dates are an excuse to meet up with friends during exam period but i swear i do get some studying done.

Oh Veronica Mars, how can you be so awesome??

So basically this week will be full of cramming for my upcoming exams. Hopefully the studying works and i get into exams actually know what i am doing.
I better go now because my head feels funny, the feeling i get when i haven't gotten enough sleep.

Love Squealer.

again i go unnoticed

 My form group. 

my methods class. 

coincidently around 13% of this class is doing pharmacy, 3 including me, there's a fun fact for you, see if you can guess who as a fun game if you're very bored. :)

Its weird that just a year ago i was graduating high school and thinking that my life would be going downhill. i loved high school, a place where i got to spend copious amount of time with my awesome friends, being ahead and actually knowing and understanding the school work that i am doing, participating in events and just having the time of my life, where i was still a child and the responsibilities weren't such a burden. I will always miss year 12 and its weird i was not ready for uni, partly because it wasn't in the course that i wanted to do but i guess i eventually gotten used to it. i mean uni feels like highschool anyways with less contact hours. i wish i could have that full uni experience where i feel like i'm part of a special community with its own facilities and vibrant life. but instead i'm stuck on small campus with nothing, luckily melb uni is just down the road, but i haven't been there for a couple of months anyways. anywho i am down to my second last day of my first year of uni, and boy it has gone by so fast, and then the much anticipated summer holidays, where i will working again (i hope, i'm not quite sure if i've still got my job or not) and making money and so so so much time to hang out with friends.
ok i'm sorry guys if i mention my much anticipation for the summer holidays, but seriously it is all i think about. if you could divide up the attention of my brain it would 50% summer holidays, 20% tumblr, 15% soundwave, 10% friends, 4% uni work and 1% other random things.

I got my book (perks of being a wallflower) yesterday which was quite bad timing, i had two tests today which i had to study but i was so eager to read my book so i did that instead. Very bad idea because i was so clueless in the tests, oh wells, i always say i'll make it up in the exams which i surely do hope for my sake that will happen. I need to maintain my average if i want to be considered for the exchange program in third year which i am so so excited for even if i haven't been accepted yet. but i told my friends that if we don't get into the program, we have decided that we will go to america for holidays that summer holidays. I cannot wait and in anticipation for my american trip, i am trying to immerse myself in American culture and try to speak with an American accent but i am failing horribly. Me and accents don't mix, i have the worse accents, they don't even sound like anything, maybe i should get a speech therapist? are they expensive? well the reason for the immersion in american culture is because i don't want to look like a tourist and i want to blend in and be an American. Do you guys have any tips on how to be an American?

Love Squealer.

Sweet Perfection

Today(yesterday) was an exciting day, it consisted a visit to the Tim Burton exhibition, a late lunch and dessert.

We got to acmi at around 10.30 and the line was very very long, but that didn't really matter when you're with a group of friends, they make the time pass so much quicker. we got our tickets at around 11.30, Sh and Nu got child tickets because let's face it, they do look 15 or even younger, but M and I were scared that we might get caught so we went with concession tickets. But they were pretty lenient, so we could passed off as children, i need to dress more childish in anticipation of days like this. Our session wasn't until 12, so we went to the television museum to past the time, it was pretty awesome and most of all it was free. There were sections devoted to the history and progression of television and it was fun looking at all the machines and gadgets. I really recommend it if you're in the city and have some spare time, and its free so that's just makes it even better. 

So after, we got into the Tim Burton exhibition, we were a little sad that there was no photography which i guess is expected after all. The exhibition was amazing, Tim is an awesome man with such an eccentric mind. The walls were lined with a plethora of his drawings and sketches, and I must say, he has quite a collection. The drawings were so good and interesting, i loved his cynical and sarcastic comments accompanying some of the drawings. oh and the sketches for the movies were pretty wow too. there were so many pictures that i wanted to take home with me, which would have looked awesome in my room. The clay models of his characters were amazing, they were quite detailed and matched the drawings very precisely. I loved all the models for the movies and i couldn't comprehend the amount of work that needed to put into each movie, especially the stop motions movies. Also we watched some clips of his movies and I admit I haven't seen many Tim Burton movies, so i guess thats what the summer holidays are for. Tim's Hansel and Gretal movie was pretty good, and it was so so weird that Hansel and Gretal were asian. anywhoo the exhibition was so epic, and for those who haven't seen it, i say you have one day to move your bums to the exhibitions, it is quite worth it.

all images courtesy of google images. 

We were pretty hungry after the exhibition because it was around 2.30 ish that we finished. Luckily I had internet on my phone so we were able to search for some cheap restaurants. Why is is that with us, when we find a cheap restaurant that we have agreed on, we always find it closed??? That's what happened with the first restaurant but luckily the second restaurant wasn't closed. The place is called iCanteen, and its your typical asian restaurant. i ordered calamari in black bean sauce with rice, it was pretty good, nothing very special but sort of cheap and filling. i wish i had ordered meat though, that always seems to fill me up better. but the food smelt really good when it arrived. So we ate and talked for a bit in the restaurant and then left. 

Then we wanted dessert, and I have never been to Max Brenner, so we decided to get some of the chocolate licks, which were the cheapest things. then we came up with the idea to buy some strawberries from coles and sneak it in to eat with the chocolate melts. we thought it was the most awesome albeit doggy idea. so we went to coles and took a while picking out strawberries, i hate picking out fruit because i'm really slow and never really know what to look for, so we settled on a punnet and made out way to Max Brenner. So we ordered the chocolates, and i must say that they took quite while, considering all they had to do was melt chocolate and put it in a little bowl. when they arrived, we waited for the waiter to go away and then we took out the strawberries and assembled it on our plates as if they had been there all along. Then the waiter came back to the area where we sitting and hurriedly tried to cover the strawberries on our plates. we had a pretty fun time, just giggling at our idea and how smart we thought we were. the chocolate was so good, and it was even better with the strawberries. then we saw that strawberries was an extra $3 from Max Brenner, and there were quite a few strawberries as well, so it wasn't that much more expensive than bringing your own strawberries. but i guess our way was more fun and a little cheaper and it gave us some pretty priceless moments and so much laughter. 

our strawberries look natural, like they're meant to be there, right? 

Then it was around 6.15 when we headed home. i had to catch a replacement bus because there weren't any trains runny, it wasn't too bad because i wasn't in a rush anywhere. it was kinda sad because it was most likely the last time that we would see each other until after exams which is about 6 weeks away, hmmm sad thought. now i've got to concentrate on acing my exams. 

Love Squealer. 

i can see clearly now.

yay i am slowly getting my studying habits back, partly because i have stopped having my laptop opened next to me when i am studying, makes concentrating so much easier. i have to cram a whole semester's work in a couple of weeks because due to my non studying habits during the semester and thus forgetting everything that i have learnt, it is going to be a rough couple of weeks, but luckily i will stay grounded by my use of tumblr. i've been neglecting it lately with an average a post every couple of days so i plan to post more during swotvac, ok so that's not the best idea around but i can't study all day can I? I will just go crazy, i am going crazy after only one hour of study.

Oh yeah, I did my first mouse dissection yesterday, turned out alright, not as freaked out as I imagined it in my head. My friends made me cut the skin which i so didn't want to do. V was like "it's just like cutting fabric" which actually helped but then i felt worse because i was objectifying an animal. We got a female one and first we had to do a pap smear which all i can say was awkward. I still get weird and blush when it comes to reproductive stuff or specifically when my lecturers say those certain types of words. actually i'm learning about the reproductive system now, and its not too bad because its very technical and scientific but when other lecturers mention those words outside of the reproductive system context, then i feel weird and cringe. I tend to reveal a lot of my emotions through my expressions, so hopefully when i become a pharmacist, i will grow out of that habit. there's nothing worse then making an awkward situation more awkward and embarrassing because I can't drown out my judgmental character, well drown out my obvious reactions. so anyways back to the dissection, it was nothing special, except the body organs were tiny as, and i exclaimed to the tutor "I can't see anything!" which might of made me sound like a spoilt and obnoxious teen which I kinda am, maybe not the spoilt part though because technically i did earn the money i use to buy the stuff that i want.

i'm really excited because the australian dollar is almost the same as the american one which has really made me want to buy some american stuff but i have no idea what i want. the shipping is usually quite expensive which always turns me off. although the exchange rate is a good reason to actually go to America instead which i cannot wait to do (but probably won't happen for at least a couple of years). i would be able to buy so many things especially band merchandise without having to pay for the $60 shipping fee.
Also spring is here and i am loving the warmer days, but i need to reorganize my summer wardrobe, actually i don't have many summer clothes, my summer last year consisted of just jeans and t-shirts, but now i want to change that a bit and go for things a bit more dressier and nicer in a sense.

sorry for the lack of pictures, you guys just have to read everything now :)

Love Squealer.

Sunshine

I was bored today and i didn't want to study so i decided to make a dress with the material that i just bought. i went for my weekly dose of op shopping and while none of the clothes really appealed to me, i found some cheap material that would be good for practicing dress making. i also got some books, The Secret Life of Bees, a baby sitters club book, an Emily Eyefinger book and this friendship book with cute pictures (the pictures are a little too cute for my liking but i like the look of them and i was thinking of putting them in little frames that i could hang on the wall. I miss Emily Eyefinger books, they were awesome and the idea was so cool, made me wish that i had an eye on my finger, life would be so so much easier and not to mention more fun. if you can read some of the words on the little friendship book, its pretty lame, i mean the message is good, its just the way they have written it is very mushy.

Anywho, the fabric i bought was quite cheap so it was ok if i screwed up the dress, which with me, that is what usually happens. i just need the practice so my dress making can get better and hopefully i can move onto more complicated things. actually i've always wanted to start a clothing store but i don't have the creativity or skills to do such a thing, so i was thinking when i am really rich, i can hire people to work for me so i still have my business but i won't actually be involved in the making process, like Mary Kate and Ashley but obviously way way way less talented and rich. i have an obsession with peter pan collars so i thought i could try making them, otherwise the dress would look very boring.

i'm still not happy with my peter pan collars, i dislike sewing curves because i can't properly control where the fabric would end up. but i think this one turned out ok, i just need to make it more rounded. i think this is a huge improvement on the first dress i ever made, which i don't really wear anymore because i constructed it very badly. oh yeah this fabric was a bitch to work with (though not as bad as some fabrics) because the edges kept curling which i had to constantly straighten it out which got quite annoying especially for an impatient person like myself. oh and the back of the dress looks like the front, if you guys are curious. i was going to add sleeves because i don't like showing my arms but then i got lazy. 

I don't think my posts are going to get any more interesting any time soon, i find myself in a rut and having no idea what to post about, so i apologize for any future potentially boring posts. 

Love Squealer. 

i'm so happy here with you.

Oh no, the mid semester break is coming to an end, and I am going to miss bumming around and doing nothing. i try to tell myself to study, but i don't like to study in the day time, i study better at night, like really really late, so i tell myself that i will study later but then i never end up doing so. i have no idea where my time goes. anywho it would be nice to go to uni though, so i can have some social interactions because I'm feeling a bit tingly from not talking to my friends for a couple of days and i need someone to listen to my squealing and ramblings on about nothing and verbal vomit.

so i have done absolutely no studying in the past week, well i didn't do any studying in the past couple of weeks anyways, so i have no idea how i am going to pass my exams, let alone get the marks that i need to get to transfer. i think thats ok though because i have a month, and i know exams will creep up pretty fast but i think that's enough time to cram everything i need for the exams. i did it in less time last semester and did pretty ok, so i am hoping for the same thing to happen again, although except this semester's work is harder, well i'm pretty clueless about what is happening, must be all that hannah montana watching during lectures. but i'm not worried, i've stopped being stressed after year 12 but i wished i had a little of that left in me, so i can get my butt off the internet and buckle down and study.

i finally bought some new headphones, because my white apple ones were very obvious in lectures and to the lecturers, so i got some black ones. they're cheapo because if i were to spend more money on headphones, i would get the pretty colored ones which would defeat the purpose of getting the headphones in the first place. anywhoo so now i can inconspicuously listen to music during lectures, well sometimes i like to move along with the music, so maybe i should work on that so make me look less like an idiot and like i am paying attention.

on a brighter note, the weather has been amazing in the past couple of days, too bad that i have been at home doing nothing. i always say i want to go out but then i cannot decide of where to go so i just end up wasting a whole lot of time and staying at home. i wish i had a friend who i can just call up spontaneously and go out randomly.

but i do have some plans for tomorrow, i am going to spotlight to get some materials to make something for a certain someone. i have this idea in mind so hopefully things will go to plan and the thing will look good and not too crappy. i can't wait for the final product because it looks pretty awesome in my head, but then i guess you can make anything look awesome in your head. i can't give too much away about what i am making in case word gets around to that someone because i want it to be a surprise. Wish me luck guys that i actually get around to making it and that it turns out right.

these bracelets looks cool because they are so colourful. I'm quite sad that my friends and i didn't get to have a playing badminton/bracelet/t-shirt making day, because i was looking forward to that but i guess summer holidays are coming up but it just seems so far away, and argghh exams as well.

Love Squealer.

you are the best thing that's ever been mine

is it wrong to say that i love presents? i don't like to say it because then i feel a little too materialistic. actually i like the idea of getting presents rather than the present itself, i love guessing what is on the inside of that perfectly wrapped paper. and i love thinking of what my friends could have given and the stalking they do to in order to find out what to get me. usually what i want i would just say it aloud because that's the way i am, and don't you love when your friends actually pay attention and get it for you. my "uni" friends told me they found out what i wanted by stalking my blog and "ctrl+f" and typed in the words 'i want'. i thought that was pretty stalk-y, but thats alright because i stalk other people too.

anywho the point of that rambling was to show you guys what i gotten for my birthday and also my friends said that there was something else that is coming and yes, i have been racking my brain to think of what it is, i have a few ideas but i cannot wait to find out what it is.

i love love love my tripod, in fact i loved it so much that i used literally 10mins after opening the present. my friends which is now the "Tumblr Crew" (because J now has a tumblr ) were taking some photos and i wanted to take some photos outdoors but i didn't have anything to put the camera, then i realised "Hang on, I now have a tripod!" So i immediately opened the box and use it straight away. Also my tripod's name is "Luke" as my camera's name is Daisy and "Daisy and Luke" sound very nice together. anyways, i keep looking over to my tripod and saying "I love you." Weird? i think not.

Also i am really in love with my new perfume, Ralph Lauren Romance, i smelt it in the store and loved it straight away. its a little different to my usual sweet and floral scent, its a little more subtle and sophisticated. after i opened the perfume, i used it immediately, and the smell lasts for ages and i love smelling my wrist every few seconds, its so beautiful.

I cannot wait to make something out of the cookbook, but most of the recipes looks very hard and calls for some caution, concentration and patience, things that i do not possess when it comes to cooking. Also the macarons are delicious, i've only eaten one because i am trying to save them, they feel almost too precious to eat.

thanks again guys =)

i don't think i blogged about this last year, but my last year birthday present was an ipod touch from my friends which i loved. is there a stronger word for love or an alternative? So whenever i use my ipod, i think of my friends, which is very often. But i think about you guys anyways, i don't need no stimulus. Did that sound a little freaky? well i think about you guys in a non-creepy way, better?

Love Squealer.